The Abuse of an Orphaned Luna

The Day that doesn't seem to end.

I'd been having nightmares about the night I was found more frequently lately. as if there's something in them I need to figure out some type of riddle or something. Normally, my dreams would consist of the normal tedious work I'd do during the day. Then, it starts to turn into a nightmare of being beaten to death. Sometimes, I do wish for death in those moments. That, the Moon Goddess would just take me with her to the stars above and take me to my parents.

Now that I'm older, I've learned to talk to Samuel through the mind link that we share. I have talked to him about me taking my life. He just tells me to have faith in the moon Goddess. He told me to just wait one day my Goddess-given mate may find me and take me away from this place. I'd just have to hope he's strong enough to get past the Luna and her warriors.

This morning, the dream felt more real. It left me feeling tired and scared. It was almost harder to wake up from. I got up none the less to Samuels Theatrical "Get up Runt" show he puts on just in case the Luna or any of the Apha's nosy boys would come walking in to the kitchen to eavesdrop. The twins love to belittle me. Of course, I don't know what I do to encourage it. But, the Luna has said to me personally that I shouldn't encourage them to hurt me. If I dressed better or just looked different, they wouldn't feel the need to have to beat on me. She's told me I'm nothing but a defective wolf. I don't understand why to this day. I mean, yes, I can't speak to Juniper anymore. It's not for lack of trying. She just hasn't come out since that night. But, once I turn 18 she should come out, and then I could finally meet her again. I fantasize about that day often. Who knows, maybe Juniper is as sad as I am. I do still feel bits of her inside of me deep down. There's still an inkling of her there.

It's time for the normality, my shot, then the walk up the stairs behind Samuel. For some reason, my legs feel extra tired. It's like I'm just dragging them. I go upstairs, wait for the ok from Samuel to go set the table.

'Only two settings today, Amara. The twins aren't here today . Go ahead and start setting the table' Samuel mind links.

I go to the dining room, set the table, and then head back to the kitchen to start breakfast. Since it's just the Alpha and Luna, it's a basic breakfast. I get to work, Samuel takes the trays of food out to the Alpha and Luna, thankfully. I was scared to think what I could have done this morning to make her displeased. When he comes back in, I'm doing dishes. then I sweep the floor, wipe down the counters and stove. I wait for the all clear, then head in to clear the table. I walk in with my head cast down just in case Alpha Marcus or Luna Lucy walk in. I take the dishes from the table. I take them to the kitchen sink and walk back to the dining room to clean the dining room. After I'm done mopping the dining room. I enter the kitchen to find Samuel finishing the dishes. He doesn't normally do that.

'Thank you,' I mind link

'You're welcome, Amara. You look extra tired. are you ok?'

'Just bad dreams again, no big deal'

'Do you need to go back and lie down? I can tell the Luna you fell ill? she won't want to have you around if I tell her that.'

'No, because that'll just put more work on you. I'll just take the day in strides. I should be fine. I'll rest when the day is done.'

I continue with my day doing the normal, laundry, cleaning of bathrooms, and library. luckily, I waxed the ballroom 3 days ago. I was just happy to know it didn't need to be done till next week. Finally, it's dinner time. That means the day is almost over. I'm just grateful to be done with the day.

I finish making dinner. Samuel takes the trays out. He stays out there it's not uncommon. what is uncommon, however, is the look he gave me when he came into the kitchen. It's similar to the one he gave me yesterday. One of fear. This one, however, was fear mixed with grief and a little saddness.

'You ok?'

' Yes, Im fine.' he straightens up and walks to the small table in the kitchen and just sits there like he's thinking. Very hard, then he jumps up and walks out the back door like he can't be in the same room as me for the moment.

I know, I'm not supposed to think about anything. It's not my place, but I did feel concerned.

Samuel walks back in as if I never asked him anything as if all is well. He steps into the dining room.

'Clear the tables'

I do as I'm told. I finish everything up for the night, and then I follow him downstairs.

' A shower could be relaxing, Amara, get a shower. I'll wait for you out here.'

'OK, thank you.'

I take my shower. walk to my door. get my shot. as I walk into my room, I grab my flashlight off the floor and walk into my room. I walk over to my tattered old box, go through it, grab myself a book, Samuel had gotten me for my 11th birthday and start reading the story of cinderella. It has always been one of my favorites. I wait for Samuel to start talking, usually he does when he's settled down for the night. tonight is taking a little longer than usual.

I hear footsteps by my door. The little door slides open.

I shine the flashlight by the door it's a cupcake,a card and a small package. I get up to retrieve it. instead of walking back to my bed, I sit by the door hoping Samuel is doing the same thing.

'Happy Birthday, Amara. You'll be 18 tonight at midnight. You should be shifting tonight. Usually, it would be your parents giving you shifting advice. I know they're not here. But, I'll fill you in on what I know of female shifters. It does hurt the first couple of times like a fire through your whole body. I know you haven't talked to Juniper since that night. But I'll pray to the moon Goddess for help. Hopefully, she hears our prayers and wills her to come forward.'

'Thankyou Samuel, You're the closest thing I have to a dad, and I love you for that. do I have to take off my clothes or is it ok to leave them on?'

'Leave them on. I'll get you a different outfit for tomorrow if you make your shift tonight. I know It's not much of a gift but I got you a new book and some new batteries'

I unwrap the package, and I did get a new book. "The love of and Alpha"

'Since you're getting older, I figured a book of love and love making would be more age appropriate. You know, since you should be meeting your mate here soon, little Luna'

'Luna? I'm no Luna. I'm just Amara.'

'You'll see one day you will be, and you'll be happy. Goodnight Amara. I love you too.'

I smile, though. Samuel can't see it. I take several bites of my cupcake. I start feeling very Groggy. I get up to try and get to the bed, but I fall. I'm just too tired. I crawl to the bed , but pass out before I can even cover up.