My Addiction

Chapter Eight

Jessie's POV

I came to visit my parents a week ago I have missed a lot actually and my baby brother too is not much of a baby and I guess he's turning sixteen next month he can be a hand full sometimes but then again all boys are. I have been wanting to have some time to think and I saw this visit as a chance to clear my head

" if you keep zoning out you're going to burn breakfast and I'm very hungry and I'm sure the little penguin is too," mom says from behind me

" gosh mom I'm not little anymore and stop calling me that," Jack says in a deep manly voice

" you'll always be my little penguin," mom says " and do use that voice with me again " "sorry mom" he said looking down

" you two should go and argue somewhere else I need to finish toasting "

" Sure I can leave as long as I get one before I leave off cause," my bother says snatching one than runs off

" are you going to tell me what's bothering you? you've been back for a week and you have not even said much, " mom says after Jack left

" it's nothing you should worry about mom it just works," I say sitting next to her

" then why do I feel like there's something you're not telling me," she says with concern " it's about a boy isn't it? "

" mom! it's nothing. I need to set the table "

" Here let me help " she took some plates and we headed to the dining room

I love being home but I have a lot of responsibilities so have to get back even though I want to. I promised Tricia I'd visit her before I go back so I'll be heading to her this afternoon. I start packing my things I'm not a heavy packer so I'm only carrying a small travel bag

" aunty Jessie!" Hope called running towards me

" hey, sweaty how are you doing?" I ask picking her up " you are so heavy you have grown so much "

" yes aunty Jessie mommy says I'm a big girl "

" sure you are. where's your mom? " I asked putting her down

"she is in the kitchen," she said running into the kitchen "mommy aunty Jessie is here!" says Hope jumping with excitement the kid has energy

" Tricia in the kitchen cooking? who would have thought the day would come" I say entering the kitchen

" well I'm a mother now the doctor says home made food helps families to get closer or something like that

" Hey Jessie what took you so long?"

" well mom wouldn't let me go that easily, she thinks I should stay for another week or two"

" Why won't you stay though we all miss you around here. didn't you say something about expanding your business here? that way you wouldn't have to be there all the time Jessie need you to come home for good "

" I know Tricia but I need to be at the head courters, you are right though I'm going to be hear more. besides, I need to get back I have to know how this is going otherwise I'm going to lose it" I headed towards the cardboards to help put the groceries away

" calm down girl I think you need to get some time off work go for a vacation and you also need to get some have you seen yourself lately"

" Tricia this is not the time for that "

" fine then let's talk about the hot, jaw-dropping assistant of yours how did it go you didn't say anything "

" Mommy, what's a hot, jaw-dropping assistant?" Hope asked as she walked into the kitchen with her tablet in hand

" it's just a phrase we like using love. why don't you go watch Tv ?"

" snow white is playing I don't like it I want to watch frozen "

" why don't you go and play some games in your room we'll be done making dinner soon come on," Tricia said as she squatted, leaned in, and touched Hope on her chicks her touch was tender filled with the love and care only a mother can give

" okay mommy can I get a cookie?" Hope says with puppy eyes, she's so adorable it makes me want to have a baby of my own.

" Okay, just a few okay? I don't want you to have tooth decay honey"

" mommy you're using big words again" hope complained, " what's that?"

Tricia makes a sad face " oh sweaty I'm sorry okay? tooth decay is when your tooth starts to get-go bad like when they become brown" she tries to explain

" you mean like my friend Sandra?"

" yes, do you want your teeth to be like that?" she asked

" no mommy" Hope answered innocently

" okay love don't forget to brush your teeth when you're done," she said standing up and getting back to the task at hand meanwhile hope takes a few cookies and runs to her room. Tricia's so good at this some times I wonder how she does it taking care of a kid all by herself and still managing to run her business and taking care of her parents and siblings all at the same time. Hopes dad left a few months after she was born it broke Tricia but she somehow managed to get over that and got back to her old in due time.

having dinner with these two is just the best they make me feel all the time. After dinner we got changed into our pajamas and played monopoly, I'm so bad even a five-year-old kid can beat me. It was already past Hopes bedtime by the time we finished so we took her to bed and tucked her in

" you want to talk about it?" I asked Tricia when we had finally settled in bed. we always shared a bed when we visit it gives us time to talk about whats going on in our lives and what we've been up to

" I don't know how to start," she says after taking a deep breath

" start with what you feel comfortable with Tricia , no rush we can talk about it when you are ready " I turn so that we're facing each other

" Hope started asking questions Jessie , she wants to meet him" she lets out a sigh " it's not like I don't want her to I'm just not sure if it's the right thing to do "

" and why is that?" I asked and she started to become fidgety " Tricia is there something you're not telling me?"

" no it's just that he hasn't tried to reach out. not even once Jessie . I get that he has moved on but it wouldn't hurt to ask how your daughter is doing" her face was so engulfed in so much pain I could nearly feel it as if it was my own and I didn't even know how to help her

" sweat heart I don't know how to make this go away or I would"

" I know Jessie , I know you always do" she whispered

" do what you think is best for Hope Tricia follow your conscience you've always been good at that "

" I guess I have. good night Jessie "

" good night Trish"