HER CONFESSIONS

He was lying there and not moving. Eyes closed. Reality had started to sink in, and I gasped when my heartbeat began to accelerate. I scrambled up and turned to look for my things that were scattered everywhere. I slowly took them one by one and stuffed them inside my bag as fast as I could, and hurriedly rushed for the door. The cool wind from the outside made me shiver the moment I swung it open, and I was stunned by how dark and dead silent the whole village was. With my vision being a little blurry from my own tears, I could only see the lights from the streetlamps. I continued to cry as I followed the stone steps leading to where my car was parked, and hurriedly entered it while trying to catch my breath. I could not believe I did that. "I have no other choice", I kept convincing myself. I tried to shift my thoughts and started thinking of something that would keep me going, but I couldn't help but be pulled to that moment, to him. My tears become thick every time I picture him lying there. Dawn had broken, and I caught a glimpse of the bedroom window. They were closed, and the only source of light inside was the lamp shade. It took me a while to start the car because my face was drenched with tears and my fingers were trembling nonstop. When I finally turned it on, my car was the only rumbling sound echoing around the area. I started to collect myself before I left the parking lot with the hopes that no one had seen me, and the houses behind me slowly disappeared as I drove past them. I have everything I need packed in my suitcase. I hadn't decided where to go, but the need to escape was all I could think about. " Everything will be okay", I assured myself, and took a deep breath, but my tears wouldn't stop. I drove for hours and the city was calm. The weather was great, and there was no traffic. I rolled down my windows to let in some fresh air and continued driving somewhere. The sun has not risen yet. I have to distract myself somehow. What I did was immeasurable. I am aware of that because what I'm about to do might be the harshest thing I've ever done. The people who loved me might not be able to forgive me for that. I have abandoned everything, including the company, my friends, my family, and even the man to whom I had given my heart. Even though I might come to regret my choice, I still have faith that everyone will accept me and understand the choice I made. I will one day be grateful. 40 hours before.. I could feel pain in every part of my body. It was exhausting yet invigorating, and the first thing I saw was an empty bottle of red wine and two wineglasses on my bedside table. My lampshade had already been turned off, and the only light in my room could be seen through a gap in my blackout curtains. I started scanning through the interior of my bedroom while I reached for my phone to check the time. I gasped when I saw that it was already past 10. "Those curtains never fail to amuse me", I thought, and decided to turn on my bedside lamp. I stood up and was surprised to see my bedroom floor a total mess. I climbed out of my bed and immediately went to the bathroom for a hot shower to freshen up. They are a must because they help relax my entire body. I always slip away for a lengthy one to help calm my stiff muscles. But this time, I've chosen to take a short one. I pulled out a long, loose white shirt with the 'stranger things' logo printed on it and put it on. It was hanging inches above my knees. I headed to my vanity table and grabbed the first lip tint I came across to add color to my cheeks and lips. I saw myself in the mirror and tried to tie my short hair into a clean bun. "He wouldn't mind seeing me in this", I murmured to myself and made a semi-twirl. The thought of him made me smile. I grabbed a new pair of underwear and put it on and searched for my favorite perfume. I decided to tidy my room before heading outside. On the way to the kitchen, I saw how open the entire house was. I could see the pool through the clear tempered glass windows along the hallway. It was a very calm morning and I loved the bamboo scent my humidifier was producing. It invigorates the entire area, giving it a natural and refreshing feel. Compared to my bedroom, the kitchen was spotless. I sipped a glass of water before turning to my coffee machine and beginning to add ground coffee beans. Coffee always boosts my energy levels, so I went straight to the cupboard to get my favorite cups. I was pouring coffee in my glass when someone lightly hugged me from behind and softly gave me a peck on the cheeks "Goodmorning, Love". He whispered and continued to kiss me on my neck, leaving chills throughout my body. I gasped when his hands started caressing my hip. "Good morning", I replied while feeling his touch. I turned to face him at this point, and he locked me between his arms. I was half leaning at the kitchen counter already, so i wrapped my arms around his neck and stared at his smiling eyes. I shifted my gaze down and saw he was only wearing the boxer shorts I had taken off last night. I returned to look at him, who was already smirking. We exchanged glances before he kissed me softly on the forehead. He was very sweet and I loved that about him. Unknowingly, I searched for his lips and returned his soft kiss. "Did you have a good sleep?" I asked him while staring straight to his eyes. They were very soft. He was quiet and was only staring at me. I raised my eyebrows at his silence and asked him again. "How was your sleep?". Still no answer. Instead, he moved closer and positioned himself between my legs and sat me at the counter. "No" his answer was heavy. I saw him glancing between my legs. My position was exposing my legs even more. So when he responded, his right hand made its way to it, and I could feel his breathing becoming heavy in my face. "W-why not?" I asked him. Again, there was another silence. He did not answer and continued shifting his gaze between my eyes and my lips. He pulled me against him, making me open my legs wider. This time, my shirt was already high, showing my underwear. We were both staring at each other but still did not make a gesture. He just moved closer and I suddenly gasped when I felt something hard between my thighs. I could feel his hard thing against mine. He moved slowly while staring at me, waiting for my response. As he began rubbing his against mine, I tightened my grip on him and released a soft moan. He continued moving and, because the sensation was driving me insane, I mimicked his moves. We were rubbing our bottoms against each other, which caused me to moan even louder and made him curse, "Fuck." his breathings became heavy and tense. He started removing my shirt while we exchanged kisses, revealing the two. He grabbed my breasts and massaged them. His kisses moved from my lips, to my neck and down my breasts. His one hand found its way between my thighs. "f**k, you're so wet, babe" he cursed, so he pulled my underwear down, exposing my bottom. I felt his fingers playing with mine when he suddenly inserted two inside me. "You like that, huh?" He trusted hard and my moans echoed. He continued doing it until my right hand found its way to his abdomen and went further down. "f**k" he moaned when i started rubbing his. I felt the cold countertop on my back as he laid me down and positioned himself between my thighs. He started kissing my neck all the way down to my breast, abdomen and thighs. I was shocked when he was already facing me under there. " No" i resisted. He ignored me and made me spread my legs wider. "Please, don't", I begged him. This time his face was already between my thighs and the next thing i know, he was kissing me down there while his hands were massaging my breasts. I could feel his tongue move inside me "b-babe". I started moaning when I saw his head move. "uhh" my moans became louder. He was now staring at me while he was licking me down there. He then stood up and positioned himself between my legs. He had already taken his boxers off revealing his. It looked hard. I waited for his next move. "Ill f**k you hard babe". He held my legs and suddenly felt him thrust his inside me. It was hard. He started thrusting it again until his thrusts started to become desperate and faster. "Faster baby. Harder please!", I begged him with his every thrust "uhhh". I continued to moan."f**k me hard, please!, uhh" I kept telling him. "f**k, I'm coming, babe"his voice was very tense. He started to become heavy and suddenly I felt him thrust one last time and release inside me. He held me up and gave me another kiss before reaching for a clean towel from my kitchen drawers and started wiping me. He carried me towards the sofa across the kitchen counter and we laid there for a few minutes naked. "Good thing, we dont't have anyone around", he joked. "I'm scheduled to go to Manila this Tuesday". I said while shoveling a spoonful of cereal into my mouth. We were having our favorite box of Coco crunch for breakfast. I stared at him when he grabbed his bowl and sat next to me. "Can I come?" he replied, smiling. His irresistible eyes were looking at me. "Nope", I told him and gave him a peck on his cheek. He stood up with his bowl and settled back on the sofa without saying a word. His actions made me giggle, so I started laughing. "What was that?" I shouted. He began to ignore me and started eating his bowl of cereal. "Seriously?" I asked him. He did not look at me but rather just took the newspaper from the table. "Really?" I smiled and headed straight to him to sit on his lap. He was still ignoring me, so I put my arms around his neck and gave the guy a peck on the lips. He did not resist. He stared at me and I saw how soft his stares were and returned the gesture I gave him with a long and deep kiss. "I love you", he said. I did not respond and just smiled. My phone rang. "Can you email me all the files I'll need tomorrow?" I asked Shy over the phone as I began to turn on my desktop. It was past lunchtime when he dropped me at the office. Despite the fact that it was a Sunday and I was sore all over, I opted to work and prepare for the trip I had planned to Manila in two days. I began printing the files one by one after I gave them one final review and arranged them inside the folder. My phone beeped. "Do you have time? Meet me at my clinic".