Chapter 38
Becca
I don’t think I realized how hard, giving up the baby would be. I definitely did not. I realized that when Nathan and I were left alone in the room at the hospital. No friends. No parents. No baby. No baby to hug, to kiss. I know we gave her up to give her the best chance she could get, but the pain that comes with giving up your baby is indescribable. I don’t even know how to explain the pain. It’s too hard.
It doesn’t make it better than our friends, especially Marlow and Penny seem to hate our decision. It wasn’t an easy decision and giving up the baby wasn’t easy. What is her name? We’re not going to see her grow up, her first laugh, her first rollover, her first steps, or anything of that. I am going to be reminded of that every day my entire life. Every year on he
