Blood Moon- Luna Piper’s Wish

Chapter 4- Break 1 & Journal Entry 4

*Piper POV- Present Day*

“I remember that day” Ivan smiles. “It was the first time I REALLY saw you. I mean I had seen you before, that’s why you were cleaning for us in the first place, but it was the first day I saw you up close. I was pissed at Victor for being such an ass to you. You seemed sweet, and you were gorgeous.”

“I know I’ve apologized before my love, but I truly am sorry for how I treated you back then.” Victor said, clasping my hands and looking deep into my eyes, begging for a forgiveness he already had.

“ I know love. We’ve come a long way since then.” I smiled back at him.

“It’s funny, I was so pissed at you grabbing that book because it was my journal. I had already written about you in it, and I was worried you had read it. Though my journals aren’t nearly as detailed as yours.” Victor admitted.

“You wrote about me in it? I never knew that. I knew it was one of your journals, but I didn’t realize you had actually written about me way back then.” I was shocked by his revelation.

At that point we hadn’t spoken yet, our first conversation was when he yelled at me for moving his journal.

Smiling sheepishly, he nodded.

“I had noticed you cleaning throughout the week. As you know, Ivan had requested that you were the one to come clean for us, I just agreed to get him to shut up about it. But once I saw you, I knew. You weren’t 18 yet but I could already feel the mate bond between us. I knew it was a strong bond if I was already feeling it. I just didn’t want to admit it.” Victor frowned as he finished talking, looking down at the ground.

Ivan gave me a soft smile.

“I had felt it too, that’s why I wanted you to come clean for us. I wanted to get closer to you. Victor almost f****d that all up though. I thought for sure you wouldn’t come back after he yelled at you like that. You looked terrified. All I wanted to do was hold you, but I couldn’t. But you surprised me. You actually came back, and you never let Victor stop you.”

Tears sprung to my eyes as I remembered why we were all here, reading my journals.

“It isn’t fair.” I whispered.

Ivan and Victor looked at each other, then at me. They reached towards me, wrapping me in a hug. We stayed like that for a while, then rubbing my back as I cried silently into them.

None of this was fair. This wasn’t how our lives were supposed to turn out. We had survived a war for f***s sake. If only they would let me talk to their older brother. At least then there would be a chance for us to all stay together.

But there wasn’t time to argue. The journals, the journals will work. The journals will convince them to let me talk to Peter. To fight for us instead of just giving up.

I pulled away from them, re-situating the journal in my hands. I cleared my throat, wiping away any excess tears that remained on my face.

“Where were we?”

* Piper’s Journal- Age 18*

Today wasn’t bad at first. I mean, it wasn’t too bad in general. It just wasn’t great either. I was able to relax Sunday, and when I came to work Monday and Tuesday I didn’t see either Alpha at all. My luck ran out today though. Today was my birthday, and Alpha Ivan was waiting for me in the entrance hall of the pack house. When I walked in, he told me to go to his office immediately, no questions. He didn’t seem like he was upset, but still. It was a weird request. I thought maybe they found out I turn 18 today and wanted to give me the day off. It was a stupid thought, but the only thing that would calm me down. The day got weirder from there. Alpha Ivan followed me into his office, shutting the door behind him. He motioned for me to have a seat, then went to sit on the other side of his desk.

We sat in silence for a minute, and I could feel him just staring at me. I wouldn’t look him in the eyes though. That was one of the rules. Which is why I found it so odd when he asked me to look at him.

It was so sudden, breaking our silence.

“Why don’t you look at me? I want you to look at me now, Piper.” His voice was low and commanding. He didn’t sound mad or mean, but I could tell he wouldn’t take no for an answer.

“I was told not to, Alpha,” I said softly, “but I will look at you if you want me to.”

His breath hitched ever so slightly, I almost didn’t notice it.

“Look at me.” He said again.

This time I listened. My eyes traveled his face, searching for any hint of why I was in his office. His hair was a little more messy than normal..wait why do I know what his hair normally looks like? Whatever, anyways his hair was a little messy. It was dark blonde, and all I wanted to do was run my fingers through.. that isn’t even remotely true. I do not have those types of feelings for the Alpha. For either of them. Even if Alpha Ivan’s eyes are so easy to get lost in, one blue eye and one brown.

No. Stick to the facts. What happened today.

Right, the office. When I looked up at him, he was staring directly at me.

“Who told you not to look at me?” He asked.

“Well, Alpha Ivan, it was written in the rules I was given to work here.” I replied.

His eyebrows furrowed as he continued to stare at me.

“What were the other rules?” He finally asked.

He was not happy when I told him the other rules. He said it was quite ridiculous that I was expected to abide by so many stupid rules. And that he would be calling the cleaning agency to ask how exactly they came up with the rules.

But the thing is, that wasn’t even the weirdest part of the day.

The weirdest part was when he told me I was doing a great job, but that I wouldn’t be cleaning for them anymore.

Which of course caused me to burst into tears and beg for the job back. I mean, really? Fired on my birthday? It didn’t help that all I wanted was for Alpha Ivan to pull me into his arms and comfort me. He really did smell good today.

Alpha Ivan didn’t want me to be upset though, he hadn’t meant that I was fired really. Just that I didn’t need to clean for them anymore. Because apparently I am their mate. But I can’t be their mate. There’s no way.

Which is why I told him no. I broke rule 5, but it had to be done. I wasn’t their mate, I was their cleaning lady. And unless I had done something wrong, I planned to continue to be their cleaning lady.

I swear Alpha Ivan almost smiled at that. I personally don’t find today amusing, but if he’s happy then I guess that’s good.

He agreed to give me some time so that I could sort all of this out, and allowed me to stay on as their cleaner. But he did have one condition.

He wanted me to move into the pack house to one of the guest rooms on the Alphas’ floor.

So now, here I am, sitting on my new bed trying to work all of this out.

Truthfully, I can feel myself being pulled towards them. It was excruciatingly hard not to jump Alpha Ivan the moment I saw him this morning. I know I’m their mate, it just doesn’t make sense to me. It isn’t the worst thing in the world, but it also isn’t the greatest.

My biggest fear though is Alpha Victor. He got into a pretty heated argument with Alpha Ivan when Alpha Ivan moved me into this room.

It hurts, knowing that Alpha Victor obviously doesn’t want me here. Maybe that’s why I’m so confused. If we were truly mates, wouldn’t he be thrilled to have me close by? Right?

I don’t know why he isn’t happy about us being mates, but as much as I want to pretend that this is all a mistake, that somehow Alpha Ivan is wrong, that somehow my own feelings are wrong..I can’t. Because it isn’t a mistake. My feelings aren’t wrong. Alpha Ivan isn’t wrong.

I came here a month ago, running away from a forced marriage to a future Alpha. And yet here I am, mated to two of the most ruthless Alphas known.

I don’t know what I’m going to do, but hopefully when I wake up tomorrow, things will be better.