I screamed the whole way back to my room. The nurse ended up giving me Thorazine to knock me out. I woke up in the quiet room. A room that is very rarely quiet.
I wake up to a hand softly caressing my cheek. I think maybe it's Mike.
I open my eyes but it's not Mike.
It's him.
The doctor.
He gives me a sickly, soppy, smile.
He licks his lips in a vulgar, creepy, manner.
"How are you doing today my lovely? Miss me?"
I spit in his face.
He's sitting so he's blocking the extremely low grade, out of date, camera.
He takes my n****e in his hand and pinches really hard and pulls. It feels like he's trying to yank it off. "If you say anything you'll be here longer. Just shut up and be a good girl." he hisses.
***
There is a knock on my door.
I ignore it. I don't want to talk to anyone.
How brazen that damn doctor was.
Doing that stuff in a room with a camera.
And nobody did a f*****g thing.
Not a f*****g thing.
They knock again.
I still ignore them.
"I know you're in here, Quilla. I just want to talk to you." It's Mike.
He walks in.
I can hear him pulling a chair over from across the room.
I can feel him sit down next to me.
"Want to tell me what that was about?"
I don't say anything.
"Why were you so upset?"
Nothing.
"Please talk to me, maybe I can help."
I turn further away from him.
"OK I'll let you be, but I'm not giving up on you. I'll be back later."