Just Like Magic
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Midnight’s POV
It’s been a couple of days and I still can’t bring myself to forgive Shawn. I know he feels bad, but what he said really hurt me. He keeps trying to apologize but I’ve shut him out. I spend all my time in the nursery with the quads that I hardly go out. I feel like I’m neglecting my duties but we had prepared for this. Mom and dad stepped in to give me time to bond with the babies before we go to the fairy realm to look for Alaric.
I’m nursing Marco and Nikolai when Shawn comes in and picks up Olexa. He sits on the floor and cooes at her.
“Midnight can we talk?” He asks.
“Sure,” I say, trying to stay calm. My emotions are all over the place.
“I wanted to apologize. I shouldn’t have made that comment. I wasn’t thinking before I said it. Baby I love you so much it hurts. I adore you from head to toe. I didn’t mean to make you feel you’re not the most gorgeous woman on the planet, because you are. But I want you to know that I love you for so much more than your looks. You’re sweet and funny and you have the kindest heart of anyone I know. You’re an amazing mother and I’ve never loved anyone as much as I love you,” he says.
At this point I have tears streaming down my face and I can’t even focus on my babies.
“I love you too. I’m sorry for being so hormonal. It’s just every time I’m pregnant it seems like you don’t want to be intimate with me,” I say.
“Baby it’s the complete opposite. I love the way your body changes when you’re carrying my pups that I want you all the time. It’s just that every time you’re carrying multiples you seem like you’re already having a rough time. I don’t want to hurt you with my desires. I’ve left Andrei bruised and battered on more than one occasion because of how badly I want you. Let’s face it, he's softer than you. I’d love nothing more than to f**k you ten ways to Sunday, but you’re in a delicate state when you’re expecting. I’d never do anything that would put you or our pups in danger. I also talked to Andrei and if you don’t want any babies after this then I’ll fully support you. Selene will understand,” Shawn says.
I got a warm feeling in my chest and I hear Selene in my head telling me my mates are right. It’s completely my choice to have more babies and it made me really really happy.
“I’m sorry I’ve been so sensitive. I wish I could get my hormones under control,” I say.
“Well I know you’ve been seeing your therapist. Have you tried asking the aunts if they have any magical joojoo they can give you?” Shawn asks.
“I never thought of that,” I say.
“Well, they gave you the magical birth control. See if they have something to help you. It’s worth a shot,” he says.
“I’ll ask,” I tell him.
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After a quick pop over to Salem Sukie helped me whip up a potion that will hopefully help me. I am staying optimistic that this will solve a lot of my problems. I have to get these mood swings under control. I don’t want to resent my mate or have these thoughts that he doesn’t love me. I tip the vile back and drink the potion.
“You’ll be fine my dear,” Sukie says. “Humans go through this all the time.”
“Humans drown their babies in the bathtub and kill their husbands. I'm the most powerful supernatural on the planet, if I flip the f**k out a butt ton of people could die. I'm responsible for all supernaturals in this realm. I need to fix this,” I tell her. “Isn’t that the whole point of the mate bond? The Goddess leads us to our perfect match so that things like that don’t happen.”
“And what do you feel when you’re with your mates?” Sukie asks.
“Love. Warmth. Compassion. Understanding. Lust. Faith. Admiration,” I say.
“I didn’t hear you say disgust, anger, resentment. Maybe those are the things you feel towards yourself sometimes and you’re projecting that onto your mate,” Sukie says.
“You’re right. What should I do?” I ask her.
“Make it up to him. Show him how you feel about him. Be honest with him when your mind takes you to those dark places. Listen to his heart. And if all of that fails, read his thoughts when he doesn’t notice. You’ve got the power honey, use it,” she says.
“I told him I wouldn’t read his thoughts,” I told her.
“Why?” She asks.
“Because he only ever thinks about s*x,” I say.
“With whom?” She asks.
“Me,” I say.
“Exactly. Why would he daydream about s*x with his beautiful mate if he no longer found her attractive?” Sukie asks.
“I already said you’re right. No need to throw my own stupidity in my face,” I whine.
“Don’t get bratty with me young lady. I will call your mate over here to spank you,” she says.
I gasp, “How did you…”
“Know that you’re a freak. Honey, I know a lot of things. Besides, if I had men like yours I’d let them do all kinds of freaky things to me,” she laughs.
“Sukie!” I smack her arm.
“If only I were about a hundred years younger,” she says, sighing.
“Ugh, gross. I cannot think about this anymore. I’m going home before I lose my lunch,” I say.
“You haven’t had lunch yet,” Sukie says.
“Well I guess I better go do that then. Love you, bye,” I say running through the portal.
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I shivered as I stepped through the portal.
“Are you ok? Did something happen?” Shawn asks.
“No, just scarred for life,” I say.
“Why?” he asks.
“Well I was talking with Sukie while we waited to see how the potion worked. I honestly feel a bit better but I did not need to know that Sukie would let you do freaky things to her if you were mates,” I say.
“What the f**k?” Shawn says.
“Trust me you don’t want to know,” I say.
“No, I don’t think I do,” he says. “But other than being mildly traumatized, how do you feel?”
“Good actually. I feel like I have a bit more clarity. Feels like a huge weight lifted off my chest,” I say.
“Just like magic,” Shawn gasps and holds his hand to his chest.
“Yup. Just like that. My problems won’t be solved overnight but I feel like I’m heading in the right direction to handle my feelings.
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