Every Rose has its Thorn

Three: She's a teacher now

Three: She's a teacher now

Every Rose Has Its Thorn

Gaia Rowen

A dream. . . dream as what my parents and I really wanted.

Dreams that they always describe as something wanting to achieve or reach what we are striving for.

They always say that every person has a different mindset, so we have their dreams in life. Dreams serve as one of our inspirations for why we are determined and work hard at what we do. The dream is hard to achieve, but you will surely reach the dream if you yourself have perseverance and effort.

My parents back then often told us to study hard because education is the only wealth that can be inherited that no one else can get. Education is the only inheritance that can be inherited that no one else can get. Education has no choice of age and state of living. It can also be a way for us to achieve our dreams. Maybe with education, we can better see the path to our dream.

Education will also shape a person to be ready and prepared to achieve our dreams.

Education also intensifies a person’s knowledge so that he can fully see the things that a person will pursue in achieving his dreams.

“So while we still have time, let’s make the most of the learning opportunities. We will study hard if we want to reach our desired dreams. Another thing that can be the key or way to achieve dreams is the right decision in life. Every human being is endowed with the right mind and wisdom. Wisdom is used to make the right decisions in life. Decision-making in life can also lead a person to desired dreams. Everything that happens in a person’s life is mostly caused by decision-making. So the decision-making is not a joke. Don’t make jokes about things and situations because the wrong decision can affect your future. . . We need to dream and aspire big.” They always say that to me. Sometimes, I thought they were nagging me off, but their words sunk in deeply to me when everything fell.

Life is—indeed—a journey full of bitterness, sacrifice, grief, happiness, and hope. We interpret life as a wheel that is sometimes on top, sometimes on the bottom. That wheel cannot travel on a road that is only gentle towards its destination because it is expected that we will experience an uneven road that will test our resilience. Like a wheel, our lives will also face various trials that we do not know what kind of road is waiting to be traversed. It may be mild at first, then become uneven later. There is only one thing we hold on to, and we control our lives no matter what trials we face.

But in life. . . does my dream really matter?

I have nothing I want to achieve. . . There is no one but the justice I want, and my parents deserve.

I can’t help but imagine how. . . what if my parents are here?

If they don’t disappear. . . will I also have something I would love to do? The thing I am passionate about and I wanted to achieve?

Can I also have a dream?

If only it hadn’t happened, if only they hadn’t disappeared.

I shook my head, reminding myself that I didn’t have to be scared, and I didn’t have to let myself be in misery again.

I know that those days are over.

But then, very few of us like running. We don’t want torture in life anymore, and we know that there are trials that we alone face. We struggle with trials and feel overwhelmed by heaven and earth. With the little trial we experience, we gradually become discouraged. It’s as if we’re telling ourselves that it’s even better than we haven’t lived, that the best thing that can be done is to end life. But we are unaware that only that test brings us to a life of meaning and significance. We may stumble on our way, but we will be guided on the right path if we get up immediately and learn from the stumbling. We do not realize that our prostration is a great blessing, especially since it becomes a school for us to gradually learn.

In our journey, the different situations we face can be fun, it can also be sad. It is sad when someone is lost in our lives, especially when we are so sure that the old organization can never be restored. Happy when we can be with our loved ones. But in these matters, how we deal with those situations will determine what kind of life awaits us. If our loved one’s let us know, does that mean heaven and earth will cover us? If we fail and our dream is reached, does it mean the end of the world? We hold on to our lives. There are only two things we can do.

We may be bound by bad things and feel hopeless. That cannot be changed and we will only wait for death. Or we choose that that trial is only temporary and we only have to face it because we know it is finite.

“Just behind the darkest clouds, you will find the sun still shining.” Not all seasons are rainy. Not all times are shady. Nor are we aware that with the change of time, our being becomes perfect.

Like a butterfly, we just went through various stages before we had wings. Life is also a metamorphosis with a stage followed. You cannot insist on the thing you want because it is not yet time.

Similar to life, the more trials pass, the more it takes on color and becomes full of personality. Even higher than before, it overcame the pains that life goes through.

The people we meet in our lives are not accidents. They were not an accident because they played a big role, even the one we bought salt in the store, the child we left behind, and the person we met inside the ship.

I know that God destined us to know them because they are part of the story of our lives. The end of the story of our lives would not be complete if we did not interact with them, and no one played the role of the character who would make up the story. We are only lucky if we can spend a long time with the people we know. There are people whose role they play in our lives is only temporary, with whom we can be with them for a short time because that is the only role that God has in them.

At that moment, I remembered my parents’ words again.

They always say that’s just a test. That there will always be a bright future ahead of me.

Just like a test, that will eventually pass as well.

Life is full of problems and we can’t do anything about it, but how we approach those problems often determines whether we are happy or sad.

Problems are opportunities to disguise. We can definitely see that the problems are actually opportunities to learn about others and ourselves.

These allow us to live happier and more enjoyable lives.

They made me realize that problems are really part of what makes life worthwhile. These problems challenge us and give us the opportunity to do things we haven’t done before, to learn things we didn’t know before.

We all face challenges in our lives. Each and everyone of us on has their own approach to solving the challenges in their lives. Some people like to take the opinion of the experienced people around them. Others may take a long time to think before deciding. There are some people who want to take help from others, because they think other people come to be more reliable to find information about their problems.

Primarily, problems are part and parcel of our lives. Everyone faces different types of problems in life, but their problems are not specific or specific. Many people are already facing similar problems in their lives. That’s why, I prefer to take suggestions from them because they have more experience with that particular thing. Not only that, but they lived with the consequences of those problems, so that they could give us their pros and cons, also making it easier for us to decide. My personal life is a compelling example of this.

And sometimes, we cannot find solutions even if they are simple and obvious. It happens to many people because they are so deep in their mess that they cannot feel what is right or wrong. At this time, people who know us personally will help us clear our doubts.

Throughout our lives, there are bound to be times of challenges we must face, but the real challenge is how we grow and learn from overtaking them. Being naive, innocent children, we unconsciously believe that life will be simple and effortless.

In fact, we can only dream that life will be that easy. My life, in particular, has been filled with countless tedious ups and downs. It was as if I was on an endless roller coaster of hurdles.

As we go from childhood to adulthood, we will continue to face countless barriers that only grow and become more consequential. I would do anything to go back in time when I thought division learning was complicated by untying a series of knots. When the obstacles we face are insignificant and goofy. Fortunately, life is not a game where we can only have one chance. Even if we stumble a thousand times, we can still recover.

Our lives were never meant to be easy. It was meant to be a journey full of adventures, a journey where we have to travel no matter how many obstacles lie ahead of us. Each of their lives has its own ups, downs, and plateaus; just like a roller coaster. And we can’t stop that roller coaster, the cycle of life.

In the life cycle, we are taught that even our failures are better than our successes.

Life does not punish us for our failures, but it rewards us for our own successes.

Obstacles should not be viewed as a burden, but as a blessing and a ladder to our future success.

Barriers give us the opportunity to grow and nourish.

Behind everyone’s face, lies a story. A story of their dealing with their own difficulties, and we all have our own stories. Life will continue to trip earning barriers. But we all have a choice; A choice to grow and learn from our stumbling blocks, or a choice to stay.

If there is one thing I should have learned from all the things that I’ve been, it is that I should not trust, that I should not believe anyone that quick.

I shouldn’t believe anyone, or that someone or something is reliable, good, and honest.

That must be what I should be doing.

I must have lost the desire to trust others.

Trust is, indeed, something we can’t handle but feel. For me, this is one of the most important and fatal things when we don’t know how to be careful and handle things.

Trust is a foundation of any faith, be it loves, life or religion, or even just buying something in the store.

I said that because if you don’t trust when you buy something in the store, you probably won’t buy it. Many doubts will come to your mind even when you simply buy it, considering if it is clean and safe. . . It’s as simple as that.

I should have lost my self—confidence before like it is an understandable thing, but no.

I trusted myself more.

I believe that when I focus more on something I want, I can get it.

I believe, even before I lost my parents, that if we people don’t have any confidence in ourselves, no one will distinguish our value—not even ourselves.

We have nowhere to go in our lives.

Trusting yourself is where everything you do begins.

It may seem vague, especially when I feel the longing at death of my parents, but I keep in mind that to do what I want, to give them justice, to give them and myself a good life, I need to trust myself.

I need to trust my capabilities that I can be strong and have a best confidence I could bring whenever I want to go.

I want to be strong and combative. I want to be strong, as if I can get through everything.

I believed in myself that time will surely come where I will achieve what I want and I will succeed.

And I could feel that thing worked.

I felt that those beliefs strengthen me to face every trial that comes into my way.

I know that I can never lose that confidence because no one else can give me the things I want. Except me.

No one can take revenge, no one can give that justice to my dead parents if it is not me.

In this journey, I learned that If I want something; I need to do everything to reach it.

I just need to trust that I can and with action and heart, I can reach anything that I want. I can be wherever I want to be.

Trust is such a broad matter.

And I don’t think not having trust issues is a good idea at all.

I feel like I’m not the one who can instill resentment in someone after a long time.

While everyone is stressing out about their trust issues, me. . . I can trust people even if I don’t want to.

I don’t know if what my mother said had an impact on me then. I don’t know if my parents’ words were what embraced me and my kind of lifestyle I have now.

My mom told me that I need to trust other people for myself because I am not alone.

She told me that people will not be happy in life and in our relationships with other people if we do not have trust with them.

She said that we will only be happy in our lives if we trust others.

But in our world today, I don’t think that my mom is right. In today’s time, there are many people who like to hurt each other, there are are exploiters, users and fraudsters. They will try to take our trust for their own sake.

I know how risky it may take, but I don’t feel that way at all.

Even without my parents, even though several years have passed since they died, I feel like their words and reminders are still there in my mind that I will never be able to disobey.

For me, those are the only things that connect me to my parents.

And lastly, Him.

My parents told me that I need to trust Him at all times and I ended up trusting Him even though my life ended as chaotic as more than we could expect and think of.

I know that sometimes; we come into our lives that we are really discouraged. This will destroy even our own self-confidence, our trust in ourselves. That’s when we feel hopeless and in despair.

Sometimes we also need to give ourselves time to think about whether what we are doing is right and just—where are we and where we are are leading, what we want and desire.

That’s the thing my parents keep telling me back then.

Trust Him.

If I am happy, I need to thank Him.

If I feel despair, I need to pray and talk to Him.

If I am in pain, I need to trust Him.

If I miss them. . . I should let Him give me guidance and answer all my questions.

I must admit that after losing my parents, I lost my trust in Him. I blamed Him and asked Him what was really my fault on why my life was in turmoil. But in the end, I was enlightened by everything that was going on in my life. All mistakes, failures, they all have a reason, a purpose. If I don’t leave my previous place, I probably won’t be able to face everything right now. I’m probably in the mountains and most of all, I won’t be able to be with the person I most trust right now.

I always remember that He has a better plan for me.

I don’t even know that now but I won’t stop and I won’t give up, even if I was able to stop the investigation after the fire that broke out in our house then conflicted danger and pain to Asher, who is my only friend, I will not think of any hindrances now.

I can face all of these alone and I will never let anyone get hurt again.

I will not stop.

Not until I get what I want.

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Author’s note:

Sa dinami-rami na naman ng pwedeng pagsimulan ng pagmamahalan, sa paaralan pa — at hindi. Hindi ito iyong tipikal na nahulog ka sa kaklase sa unang araw ng klase. Kwento ito ng isang estudyanteng nainlove sa guro. Pero hindi iyon iikot sa pagtatagumpay niyang tuluyang makuha ang pansin ng babae. Ilang beses siyang itutulak palayo nito. Gaia Rowen always push through her goals. Matagal niyang ginustong maging guro kaya panigurado ay hinding-hindi nito isusuko ang trabaho para sa pagmamahal. Kahit saang anggulo man tingnan, mali ang uri ng pagmamahal na iyon.

Sa ilang beses na pagre-reject, magiging inspiration iyon ni Thorn na gawin ang lahat, tuluyang baguhin ang buhay at antayin ang babae. Kaya lang sa pag-aantay ay magsisimula ring dumating ang mga problema.

This story will focus on how all the people deserve change. Ituturo nito sa mga mambabasa na may mga bagay na hindi natin kayang makuha ng basta-basta: mapatao o bagay man iyan. But then, if we really want that to happen, gagawa at gagawa tayo ng paraan.

I want to inspire the readers to explore their capabilities, na mas kilalanin pang lalo ang sarili nila. I will make sure that this story will affect their souls as they unravel through self-discovery.

Thank you for reading this story. I hope subaybayan niyo po ito hanggang sa epilogue. Maraming salamat po. God bless!

Love,

THRICIA