Crush

Chapter 11

I closed my eyes letting out a soft moan.

I loved the way his silky hair felt as I ran my fingers through the strands.

It had been a few days and honestly...

It had become a habit.

At school we would meet up at lunch, have lunch and sometimes snog in the bathrooms or in the gym.

Today was a whole other day though.

Ysander moaned pleadingly fighting for control of my mouth. I couldn't help but chuckle.

Soon enough we were grinding against each other letting out soft purrs.

His eyes were fixed on me and filled with complete desperation.

" I want to do it..."

I rubbed my nose against his playfully whispering out. " Now?"

He exhaled in confirmation, gently holding my face in his hands.

" Baby... I have the stuff but.... I wanna have you right now.... Here."

I glanced up at him and gently pressed a kiss to his lips " I trust you."

He smiled back at me and before long I was fumbling with my pants.

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My knees bucked back and forth as he held onto me from my waist pulling me further into him pounding away at me at a steady rhythm.

It didn't take very long till I was just as worked up and horny as he was.

His hands kept travelling up my body as he moaned softly.

I myself, was already way too overwhelmed to be doing this at school.

But it only got worse.

The main bathroom door slammed open, laughter flowing in and instantly I bit my lip to silence my breathing.

Ysander had slowed down to a halt as well, muttering a silent cuss.

I recognised the voices, he would too. After all it was Jason and Michael.

Jason chuckled " Man! why you gotta be that way. You know she's cute!"

Michael huffed " Are you f*****g kidding me, she blows off half the united kingdom and you still wanna date Chloe of all people. Man you are f****d in the head!"

Jason growled " Yeah so what! I'm a big boy I can look after myself! I definitely dont need you looking out for me! "

Michael scoffed " Well do whatever then! But if you start blowing me off for some bird I swear to God you can ask her to play football with you instead!"

Jason chuckled as Michael growled " What!?"

It went quiet all of a sudden and I bit my lip. f**k I hope they hadn't noticed.

" Oi! Who's in the toilet! Unless you want us telling the teacher you're in there doing s**t you shouldn't I suggest you fess up."

Instantly ysander grabbed hold of my mouth.

He exhaled deeply " Just me, guys."

A chuckle escaped Jason " Ysander!? Bro you getting dirty with a bird!?"

Ysander gulped behind me " Uh. Yeah look, do us a favour and don't tell anyone alright?"

An array of chuckles from both guys caused me to feel embarrassed as Jason inhaled " Yeah dude don't worry about it. I mean a mans gotta do what a mans gotta do right."

Ysander scoffed " Look can you guys..."

Michael scoffed " f**k! Give the dude some privacy you idiot."

The door creaked open again as I heard bickering and quarrelling.

They hurried off but now Ysander sighed behind me " They ruined my mood."

I exhaled in turn too.

We had been sneaking around and stuff. Even when we had been making out we had been caught a few times.

What bothered me though was that he would lie and say he was in here with a girl...

After school we found ourselves back in the boys toilets. We both gasped picking up our pace as he began to groan. I whined too reaching my peak.

I came hard as Ysander continued gently pounding at me riding down from his own high.

But as he groaned and sighed in relief. I felt emotional.

I felt scared again.

Was he using me?

He pressed kisses to me desperately breathing heavily and holding onto my cheeks.

But in my chest and stomach... I felt discomfort.

I wasn't just worried.

I was frightened.

He would use me, get what he wants and then leave me.

It began to really... f**k with me!

A class trip to an old local Castle left me a bit distant to Ysander again.

He stayed with Jason and Michael.

I stayed with my friends Marvin and Mandy.

Marvin poked his glasses up on his nose.

" Baroque wouldn't you say Taylor?"

I bit my lip nodding softly in agreement.

Marvin moved around the room exploring quietly and I did too looking out the windows at other visitors and the lavish curtain details.

Mandy disturbed my silence punching me in the back of the arm.

I frowned at her. " What are you doing!?"

She glared at me with a disinterested expression.

" You're sighing, pouting and just all round not you today Tay... What's got into you?"

I sighed hard.

I'm gay and I'm kinda seeing Ysander, but I don't know what we are doing!? Are we dating are we...fuck friends.

Like what was this?

But no. I couldn't say all that to her because once I told them that, I was going to get my ass kicked and shunned and I would never come back here.

Mandy whispered quietly to me " You know. I'm not dumb. I can see what's wrong pretty easy. I just wish you were open about how you felt Taylor. I'm your friend. I'm not gonna pelt you with tomatoes."

I gulped hard glaring up at her. My body was cold and I was worried I would cry.

" What do you... What are you talking about!?"

I barely managed to put the words together.

Mandy smiled " You're... Gay...and its okay."

Something weird happened. Like a chapter had turned in my life or something because suddenly... that internal fear. The worry that I couldn't trust anyone not even Ysander...

It suddenly posed the question.

Maybe?

Maybe I should take her advice. Maybe she was right.

Maybe things would be different.

Maybe.

I swallowed hard and smiled up at her.

" You... Know huh?"

She smiled " Oh Tay sweety. The whole f*****g class knows!"

Ouch.

Maybe I had been the blind one.

Blind at how open minded... the world could be sometimes.