The Lycan’s Scarred Mate

*ELYSIA* . Three months. Three months was all I had left to divorce the monster I married and now the unbelievable happened. With my eyes solely fixated on inscribed words on the white sheet of paper in my hands, I could not help but release a shaky breath. The shakiness meant agony, it meant despair, it meant that I would be trapped with this man forever. And I do not want that. "Congratulations, Luna Elysia... You are three weeks pregnant." Those were the words that ended my test results and as I read those words over and over again, tears welled up in my eyes. How can I be pregnant for Alpha Dorian? I made sure to take the after-pills. I was sure to rinse up every time, immediately after he was done and yet my efforts were in vain. You might wonder why I'm so sad about being pregnant. Having a baby is every married woman's joy right? It should be the reason why she giggles occasionally as she rubs her belly. But for some reason, mine has created a hollow in my heart. Dorian and I have been married for nine months now. Our marriage was not because of love, infact, it was like an act of rescue. A year ago, I was in a different pack, the Shadow Vane Pack. My father, Gregory was the head guard there and the most reputable messenger to the Alpha. We were a happy family of three. My father, my older brother Jordan, and me. My mother died six years back after suffering from an unknown ailment. My mother's death wrecked all of us. What was once a happy family turned sour. But still, my father struggled so hard for us to remain happy. He single-handedly raised us and put us through school. My older brother attended armor and weaponry school to take after my father's profession. While I decided to be a nurse. Everything was going great or so we thought until tragedy struck. A year ago on that fateful day, I went to visit my father at the royal house. I was so excited about passing my final nursing exam to be a fully registered nurse and I could not wait at home to break the news to him. When I got there, the servants said he was in a meeting with the Alpha so I had to wait at the lounge. While waiting, the Alpha's son, Bruno strolled in with his own personal guard, Philip. And Phillip happened to be my brother's best friend. I greeted the Alpha’s son accordingly and he responded. Thereafter, he asked why I was there and I replied that I had come to see my father. He asked me to come along with him, saying he had something for me to deliver to my father. Innocently and without much thought, I followed him. Little did I know that he had an ulterior motive. As we were walking along the corridor, he dismissed his guard. I should have known at that moment but I didn't think much of it. We got into his room and before I knew what was happening, he locked the door and pounced on me. He forcefully threw himself on me, tearing up my dress like a beast that wanted to devour its prey. I went through shock, fear, and then pain when he tore my dress violently, exposing the swell of my breasts to his lecherous gaze. I tried so hard to fight him but he was too powerful for me. I mean how could a 19-year-old girl fight off a 23 boy, who had been training all his life to defend his pack? Just as he was about to reach for my underwear, the door to his room burst open and my enraged older brother stormed in. Jordan wasted no time in punching Bruno off me. And they got into a brawl. With tears pouring down my cheeks, I quickly scrambled to my feet and gathered my torn dress to my chest. Then I rushed out of the room only to find Phillip pacing in the corridor. It seemed he must have gotten a whiff of what was going on and then went off to get my brother. His eyes were filled with pity as they fell on me. "Just rush back home, Elysia. Jordan and I will handle the rest." With profound disbelief, shame, and still in tears, I listened to him and ran home. When I got home, I found some silver bullets scattered on the couch plus Jordan's training gear lying around carelessly on the floor. It seemed my brother had just returned from his afternoon training session when Phillip came to get him. If there's one thing, Jordan loved me so much. He was older than me by three years. But still, he treated me as though we were age mates and never failed to pamper me. Moments later, pandemonium struck in the pack. Some guards forcefully burst through the door of my house and whisked me outside. Once outside, I saw a lot of people gathered. My father was bleeding from his head and his lips were broken too. He was on his knees and not far from him was my older brother lying lifeless on the floor. That was the moment my heart shattered. Just like that, I found out Jordan had beaten up Bruno to a pulp and then shot him dead. Other guards heard the gunshot and they rushed there. He killed two guards in defense before he was overpowered and killed mercilessly by the rest. As for my father, he heard the commotion too and he tried to fight the guards for killing his son, but he was attacked too. Meanwhile, Phillip tried to explain everything to the Alpha hoping he would see the wrongdoings of his son, but the Alpha challenged him for not protecting his son and shot him dead in front of everyone. Thereafter, Alpha Micah of the Shadow Vane Pack unremorsefully killed my father in front of me. He was going to kill me next despite knowing that I was the victim there. But Alpha Dorian, my now husband stopped him. He was on a visit to the Pack and was also in that meeting. He witnessed everything and wouldn't have intervened if he didn't find out that I was his mate. He told the Alpha that he was supposed to wage a war against the Shadow Vane Pack for violating his Mate. But instead, he asked that my life should be spared. And that was how everything played out. What was supposed to be the happiest day of my life became the worst. Being alive didn't change that. Dorian took me from my Pack to his and got married to me. But ever since then, my life has been hell. It has been one abuse after another. He violated me in so many repulsive ways all because he knew I was trapped. Every time, he would remind me of how he saved my life and that I should feel indebted to him. He would say hurtful words like "You should be grateful I married you. You are just a worthless guard's daughter, plus another man's leftover whom I made my Luna." At some point, I began to wonder why he didn't leave me to die that day. I mean I understand the fact that we are mates, but what kind of man treats his partner like a sewer rat even after knowing my ordeal? I tried to divorce him and go rogue but I was made to know that our marriage must last a year before the will of divorce could be granted. Hence the reason why I am still in this loveless marriage. We tend to have s*x on intervals, but it was whenever he wanted it. And for once, I have never enjoyed it. Wiping off the tears on my face, I looked at the paper for the last time before crumpling it angrily in my palm. "You should show him the result, Elysia." Tonya, my wolf said to me. "But I don't want to. He shouldn't witness the joy of being a father. He doesn't deserve it." I replied with so much angst brewing in my gut. "That is not for you to decide, Elysia. I know he hurts you, hurt us verbally, emotionally, and physically. But still, it is going to get worse if he finds out from the Pack Doctor. You know that man runs his mouth like a faucet." I did not want to accept it, but Tonya was right. Dorian would raise his fist at me if he discovered I hid the news from him, and if he couldn't because of the pregnancy, he would lock me up for days without food and water. He has done that to me before for a whole week. With so much agony coursing through my veins, I began to straighten out the crumbled paper. Then, I wiped my tears and headed for his study. Just as I was about to knock on the door, I heard a faint sound emanating from inside. At first, it was inaudible but when I strained my ears, it sounded like a moan. "Oh my goodness, Dorian. Your c**k is so f*****g full inside of me." followed immediately right after. Blood drained out of my cheeks and I froze on the spot. Dorian has been abusive to me in so many ways but he has never cheated on me once because of our mate bond. I could feel the air escaping my lungs and it seemed as though someone lit a fire on me from inside. "Make it stop!" Tonya whined restlessly. "Make it stop, Elysia. This hurt so much!" Momentarily, my head began to ache, my stomach twisted painfully as though someone was tying my intestines into a knot and untying it at the same time. My feet were burning and I felt extremely restless. A part of me wanted to ignore everything and just walk off but I couldn't. The pain was unbearable almost knocking me off to the ground. I did not even realize it when I pressed the knob and pushed the door open. There they were, on the table. Her naked back was turned to me, her legs were wrapped around my husband's waist while his head was buried in hers as he thrust in and out of her. His fingers dug into a small of her sweaty back, causing her to squirm. "Yes, Dorian. Make me your f*****g w***e!" she screamed exactly like what she termed herself to be. My whole world stood still. Crushing the lightweight of the news I came here for in between my palm, I staggered backward and unknowingly collided with the coat stand by my left. The noise forced their carnal act to stop. Dorian raised his head toward my direction and his eyes met mine. The dreadful look he tossed at me made me swallow hard. My breathing pace was labored and heavy as I scrambled for the coat stand but before I could pick it up, I felt a painful tug on my hair and I was dragged backward. A small yelp left my lips as the paper that had now been crumpled into a ball fell from my hand. Meanwhile, Dorian paid no attention to it instead he forcefully pushed me up against the wall. His elbow dug into my neck and he demanded with hostility. "Who gave you the permission to barge into my study?" I was dumbfounded. I just caught my husband having s*x with another woman and he dared to ask me this? But what do I expect? Of course, I knew I married a monster from the onset. I ought not to be surprised. "I just asked you a question, Elysia. How dare you enter my study with my permission?" He growled. There was pure disgust in my heart for this man. Every last respect and fear I had for him was gone at this point. So I raised my head and looked at him dead straight in the eyes and said the one thing I have never dared to say to his face. "I want a divorce!"