My Alpha's love

Chapter 3

Liliana.

21 years later.

I woke up to the sound of my alarm. I hate today, because it is my birthday, 21 years ago this very day my mother died in childbirth and my dad blamed me for her death. My dad loved her very much. His world ended that day, and he needed someone to blame and guess who won that lottery “ME”. I lost both of them that day. So, here I’m hating my birthday. 

He never abused me, but he never acknowledged me either. I think looking at me reminds him what he lost. My grandparents practically raised to me after my father declared he doesn't want anything to do with me. 

I miss my mother especially on this day. I don't know her but I miss her. I grew up hearing stories about her, how kind, loving and caring she is towards everyone. I can tell by the way everyone talks about her she is an amazing woman. When I was a kid I wanted to be like her. Till date she is my role model.

It's 4:30 AM early in the morning, I have to get to the training grounds in the next 30 minutes. Today is the annual tournament for all the trainee guardians in their final year. In our pack we take training and security very seriously. Every pack member start thier training when they turn 15. Members who wish to become Guardians enter a 3 year trining process. All trainees undergo a testing process annually to move forward to the next level. Trainees who can’t do so will be discharged and are assisted in finding their strengths in other fields.   

This is my final year and today I want to do my absolute best to win the tournament and come out on top. Even though I’m the Alpha’s daughter I ‘m not a ranked member. In the pack I’m considered as nobody. In a pack every member has to earn their place in the ranks except the Alpha’s heir. A Alpha’s heir is considered the next in line to become the Alpha. They go thru different training, not just physical but also pack politics, diplomacy and foreign affairs and such. On my 18th birthday my father announced to the pack that I’m not the next alpha of the pack, instead my father decided that he will be choosing the next alpha based on performance and character. Which only made me to push my limits to be the absolute best. Being the Azure pack’s Alpa is my birthright even though my father tried to take it away from me and I’m not letting it go without a fight. 

I quickly get ready and leave for the pack grounds. I see my best friend Amy leaning on my locker  and browsing something on her phone. When she realized that I'm walking towards her she put her phone in her back pocket and smile at me and says “Hey Lill, are you ready to kick some ass?” “what are you doing here?” I ask her as I dump my bag before my locker and open it to get my tournament uniform. “Girl, if you think I’m going to let you do this alone then you're crazy.” 

“aren't you supposed to be still in bed or wait, did you even go to bed yet?”

She rolls her eyes at me “of course I slept, just not very much you know me.” I shake my head at her. 

I quickly change and head in the direction of the tournament grounds and Amy follows me while chattering about some guy she met in the town few days ago.

Amy is few months younger than me, since we are closer than the age and she is our Beta’s daughter we grew up together and became inseparable.

Me and Amy haven't found our mates yet, werewolves find their mates after they turn 18. Some people are lucky enough to find them immediately within the same pack, some people meet them when they have chance encounters outside the pack. Where as some people never meet their mate in their lifetime. I strongly believed that the moon goddess paired us with someone somewhere on this Earth. It’s just matter of time and luck when we will meet them or if we will meet them.

“are you listening to me?” She just realized that I'm not listening to her oops! “of course Amy I am, I'm just worried that you're really invested in this guy when you know he is not your mate. I just don't want you to get hurt, what happens when one of you find your mate? you know it's a possibility right?”

“I know Lily, but he is so hot and for some reason he's interested in me. I just wanted to feel what it is like to be wanted. I'm not like you Lill, boys  don't look at me the way they do you. You're beautiful, I am not. I just want to start living Lill.”

I sense the sadness in her statement. I stop walking and grabbed her shoulders Play“first of all you're beautiful, any guy will be lucky to be with you. Second of all you should do just whatever makes you happy, if it is being with this guy then do it. Be careful Amy I just don't want you to get hurt.” To lighten the mood with mock seriousness I say “Of course I have to meet him and see if he's good enough for you or not.” She smiles “duh, that's a given.” She grabs my hand and we make our way to the grounds

As we are few feet from the doors that leads to the tournament Amy grabs my hand and pulls me to stop. “Lill, no matter what happens out there I'm proud of you.” She points to the ground doors  “And remember that you are an amazing person and a best friend everyone wants and I love you.” Her declaration brings tears to my eyes. I give her a quick hug “I love you too Amy, you know why am doing this right? Somewhere in my mind I'm still that little girl seeking his approval. I think if I win this tournament he will have no other choice but to acknowledge my presence” I shrug “who knows, there is a small chance of me proving to him that I am capable of leading this pack.”

Amy gives me a look that says I'm lying to myself. She nods and give me a small smile “now go, show them what you're made of girl. I'll be cheering for you from the stands.” She gives me a quick hug and walks in the direction of stands. 

I take a deep breath and start walking towards tournament schedule board.