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19. Ajna

**Maya**

It had been such a fun day, first we went to the ice rink. It hadn’t been busy giving us plenty of room to skate around. Noah was very steady standing on the ice but my father kept falling down so much he was giving a training pinguin if he wanted to stay on the ice. He hadn’t been on skates since my twelfth birthday and even back then he wasn’t great at it. For me it also had been awhile but with some help form Noah I even dared to do some tricks, like spinning and skating on one leg, after getting used to the feeling again. After that we went for a walk getting to know the city better, something I hadn’t done much myself since moving here. We ended up at the park getting a hotdog for lunch. 

In the afternoon we visited the city’s museum where they had a couple of interesting exhibits, the one that surprises me the most was the one for photography. Not only did they show the history but they showed some of the most beautiful pictures. My father had been looking to one in particular and I was saying it look familiar when Noah noticed it was made by W. Green. He had won the International Photography Award with this picture, it showed a sunset illuminating a cavern from a waterfall and a man with a yellow poncho was watching it. I have seen it somewhere in the house, I was sure of it. I took a mental note to ask William about it when we would have our little sit together. 

Noah had left after that saying he needed to do something but I thought he just wanted to give me some time alone with my dad. We both didn’t want to go to a fancy restaurant so we decided to go for casually delicious and ended up at a grill restaurant. We talked the entire evening and as he promised he didn’t even check his phone. It was truly a rare moment with my dad and one that I would charice for a long time. Before he went home he gave me my present and some money saying I should have asked for it when I couldn’t find a apartment or when I went for shopping for furniture. My gift was a new laptop but it came with one condition, I needed to use it to video call him because he had been missing me. He almost made me cry with that and we hugged each other very long before he took to the road. I had gone to bed right away feeling tired but very happy. It has been a long time since my dad had actually been my dad and it felt great. Now I just hoped it would stay like this.

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Waking up the next day I was surprised that I had slept so long. It was almost 11 a.m. and my stomach growled. I quickly put on Noah’s necklace and my robe seeing it was getting colder every single day. I expected to sense Jason right away but he wasn’t there, he was still on my mind though. Since Noah slept over and than the day with my father I hadn’t had the chance to talk to him about the party. I wanted to thank him for having my back, it had meant a great deal to me. While getting some breakfast I looked over my presents. There was one that I hadn’t opened and I noticed it didn’t say from whom it was. I had gifts from everyone that had been at my party including a quilt from Kian, that I kind of loved. He had my name embroidered on it together with a tree and a couple of birds but most importantly it was incredible soft and warm. I carefully opened the box and there were wooden puzzle pieces inside. My curiosity was immediately peaked and I started putting pieces together. There were a couple of piece that fit but after a couple of failed attempts I concluded that there we pieces missing and it was impossible to make it without them. Disappointed I put them back in the box. What a weird gift to give and certainly without putting your name on it. I opened the two gift baskets, giving everything in it a place in my home, like the picture of me with Erica, Gabi and Ben. The scroll I had gotten from matthew needed a perfect place and after trying it out on several places I settled on the wall next to my green chair. When I would do yoga inside it would be perfectly a lined. Better yet I will do some yoga today. Quickly changing into a yoga tights, a sports bra and a sports jacket, I went to set up the living room. Moving the table just to give me a little more room, lighting on candles and putting on some soothing music. Getting settled on my mat I started with a warm-up loosening my muscles. Focusing on my breathing, trying to let go of everything but I couldn’t quit clear my head. There was something in the back of my mind that wouldn’t rest pushing thoughts about Jason forward. With a sigh I continued anyway to the sun salutation. As I bend forward to the downward facing dog Noah’s necklace bungles forwards touching my forehead. I inhale and focus on the posture as a warm sensation suddenly flows through me. This is the first time I ever felt anything like it but is does feel positive so I move further. Everytime that I bend forward the sensation comes back, getting stronger, making me feel clear and insightful. When it is the last time to do the forward bend in the sequins I get a strong urge to look to my right. My gaze goes to the chair and I fall over from the pure shock of seeing Jason sitting there watching me. I quickly get back up but he is gone and I don’t feel him. I hadn’t felt him all morning but he did sat there right? 

“Jason, where are you?” I asked getting a little panicked.

**Jason**    

I had practice all night, finding out that when she was a sleep I could focus better. When she finally woke up my dam was already up and it hold. Keeping my distance from her, not wanting to break my concentration. She kept looking around, was she looking for me? I smiled at that thought almost letting my emotions spill over my dam. I got settled in her green chair, it gave me a perfect viewing point. At first she was cleaning up, walking around. Then after she got very close hanging up a poster, I had held my breath for a moment which felt very stupid seeing I actually didn’t need to anymore, she got ready to work out again. She looked very serene, with her steady breathing and concentration of the movements she did. Maya was moving forward, making me very happy with my point of view when she suddenly seemed lighter. It was mesmerizing to see. You know when a ray of sunshine suddenly breaks through hitting a glass of water. That was how Maya looked only the rays seemed to come out from her. First it was faint but it get a little brighter every time she made the motion. All out of a sudden she looked straight at me and her arms loss her balance making her tumble over. Before I could even react Maya looked at me again, her face lost any serenity she had a minute ago which was replaced with utter shock. 

“Jason, where are you?” she asked sounding panicked. I’m immediately with her, letting my dam break, my concern washing over her. Maya sighed, looking a little more comfortable now that she knew I was her but she still had a shock expression on her face. 

“Are you still sitting in my green chair” She asked and now it is my time to looked shocked, how did she know? I touched her shoulder ones as an answer and she freaked out. Not for me touching her I’m relieved to find out by her rantings but apparently she was able to see me there. She needs to calm down, this wasn’t helping us finding out what was happening. I tried to send her calming thoughts but it seem to roll over her just as easily so finally I had enough and pushed the lamp over, almost taking her new poster with it. 

“No” she screamed but at least she was out of her spinning spiral. Maya picked it up, thankfully it wasn’t broken and she checked the poster. What was it with this thing that made her so concerned. I didn’t think it was that good, the paper was yellowing and the woman sitting on it didn’t look very special to me. There were these strange markings all over her body each in a different collar. But seeing as it helped her to calm down I made her focus on it, sending a feeling, which what I hoped was a questioned feeling, to her. She looked up for a moment taking me inn and then looked back to the poster.

“This is a old chakra scroll that I got from Matthew, Noah’s brother” She started explaining letting me see it had the wanted effect, ”The woman on it is meditating letting her chakras illuminated. Chakras are the concentrated energy centers of the body, they help you function with each having a specific purpose. There are seven starting at the base of the spine to the crown. Yoga is one way that can strengthen and enhance the flow of energy through our body or through one of the chakras specifically enhancing the area corresponded to that one.” 

Wait, what? This time I don’t have to forge any interest. I try to push her but this time Maya doesn’t get it and she sits down. 

“I saw you Jason, just now, I saw you sitting here but I hadn't felt you here all morning. How is this possible, everytime I think we figured something out it throws us a curveball.” She says calmly now and sighing. How am I ever going to explain what I know, what I had learned or what I had just witnessed. Was it the energy she was talking about that I had shown through her?

Taking her hand to let her know that I felt the same was the only thing I could do. Or was it? This might me the most difficult game of charades I ever had to do. First things first, I guided her to her yoga mat and she curiously followed my lead. 

“What do you want to tell me?” she asked but how could I answer it? 

“Why don’t you tap my shoulder if I’m right or when my train of thought is correct” Maya suddenly says and sat down on the matt. I moved to the chair, first sending strong emotions then cutting them off with the dam for a moment making her raise her eyebrow looking confused. I move to the other site of her and then let my emotion flow freely again. Her head snapped towards me, she looked shocked but then it was asif a light bulb turned on, she got it.

“You know how to camouflage yourself” she says like it is a fact not a question and I move over to her to tap her on her shoulder. Her eyes widen when she feels it. 

“So you were her all morning” she says angrily, I should have guessed that didn’t go over well. 

I tap again but also tap her other shoulder hoping she would let it go, even for now seeing it’s not everything I want her to know. 

“Fine you clearly have more to say but this is not over, buddy” Maya glares at me and she is actually pretty close to accurate with only a sense of where I’m, “So I guess you were looking at me?” Tap and she says quit for a moment, thinking of what I could have seen.

“There was this sensation I felt when I did the downwards facing dog, are you hinting at that? Did you see anything besides what I guess was a great few of my butt” she say almost growling that last part and I tap her again. She sighed heavily and moved to the position. This time there was no light but I did notice her necklace bungeling toward her forehead. Something I haven't see from my previous point of few. When nothing happened and I didn’t tap her she moved back, looking confused. 

“I didn’t feel it this time, I guess you didn’t either.” she says disappointed. Tap, and then I touched her forehead and carefully moved her necklace. Her hand shot up, wrapping it protectively around the hanger. 

“Careful!” she exclaimed but then softened when she got my meaning, “I haven’t worn this before and it did only touche my forehead when doing the downward facing dog. Do you think they are connected?” Tap, off course I thought so but I just didn’t know how or why. I just know what I saw. I looked at her chakra scroll, was it energy? Maybe, Maya did know more about it so I placed my hand on her cheek, she reached up her hand cover mine, making me shiver before slowly moving her head towards her poster. Her eyes widen again and a smile crossed her face. 

“It did connect with my forehead” she said walking to the scroll on the wall, “Ajna, the third eye chakra is placed on the forehead.” 

**Maya** 

Off course Ajna, that I didn’t think of that sooner. ‘I see’ stands central with the third eye chakra. 

“I think we are onto something” I say to Jason moving over to the table were my new laptop was. I can feel Jason excitement but most of all his pride of how well we are communicating. I open my wireless connection and look up the chakras. Even though I know of them I’m not all knowing. I read the basic information, things I already know and skim further. There is the information for the 6th chakra and I read it out loud, “The 6th Chakra, also known as the third eyes chakra, stands for awareness and alertness. Insight, intuition, wisdom and visualisation are important aspects. The element of light is connected to the 6th Chakra. When opening your third eye you can find enlightenment in yourself, be sure to take conscious choices and have clarity in your life. In addition, Ajna is also connected to the spiritual world and intuitive knowledge. It is not for nothing that it’s being called a six sense when men speak of clairvoyance.” I am shocked at how well it all fits and it’s clear Jason feels the same. 

“But why the necklace than?” I asked out loud more to myself than expecting an answer.  I can feel jason’s touch on my chest like he is taking a better look at it. This time I let him, somehow knowing he would never do anything to it. A sense of cluelessness washes over me and I guess he doesn’t have an idea either. 

“So let’s focus on what we know. Shall I try and open up the Chakra, just to see what happens?” A rush of excitement hits me ands makes me smile. I usually do yoga to open them up but I don’t think I know which moves focus specifically on the third eye chakra. Meditation is a more effective methods and I stand up to get the candle I got back before any of this became my life. I can feel Jason’s eyes questioning me at my back. 

“As you can see on my scroll, every Chakra has its own color linked to it. For Ajna it’s Indigo, so I hope that by using this candle in my meditation the energy will focus there.” I explained putting the dark blue candle with its engraved moon and star, in front of my yoga mat. Making myself comfortable sitting in a lotus position and lighting the candle before closing my eyes. I take a deep breath clearing my head and focus my thought on a single thing, “I see”. Slowly I lose any sense of time, It could be minutes or hours that I sit there with my eyes close trying to concentrate. Suddenly an annoying humming makes me lose my focus, making me sigh.  

“Does it work, do you feel anything” I hear a man asking me and without thinking I answer him.

“Would you shut up for a minute, i’m trying to concentrate” I exclaim but as soon as the words leave my mouth it dawns on me that I just heard him. My eyes fly openen looking for him and his gorgeous green eyes look at mine in shock. He can’t believe what just happened. I recover from the shock first looking at him with a smile on my face. 

“Hey jason” I just simply say making him look cautious to me. Who could blame him after my trick the last time but I just keep smiling at him. He doesn’t say anything but moves around, his eyes widened when mine follow his every move. 

“Hello” he answers grinning from ear to ear and then he crosses his legs and sit before me, our knees not touching by a hair, the lit candle in between.