Chapter 4 - The Greatest Talk
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I started cooking Dinner and I couldn't get Lucas out of my mind. I still don't understand why he was near my car waiting for me. Does he like me?
I shook my head, it does not matter as I don't want that.. I don't want a man touching me ever again.
"Chloe, what's bothering you?" Nonni said as she walked into the kitchen.
"Oh nothing....it's nothing" I smiled, but a tear slid down my cheek.
"Let that dinner simmer and sit down with me, Jacob is colouring and watching cartoons, come on here" She reassured, patting the chair beside her.
I sat down, I wouldn't even know where to begin.
"Compose yourself, let me get you a drink of cherryade" She said getting up.
That made me smile, she always had cherryade in for me as it's my favourite.
She sat down and looked at me, she didn't speak she just smiled and waited for when I was ready to talk. She knew this procedure as she has been guiding me from when I found her.
"I met Sarah at the stall today, she was partying with these tourists, they actually came to the stall but one of them...." I drank some of my drink as I held in my emotions.
"Nonni, one of them I found intriguing, his looks and stare made me flustered and nervous." I said, with a confused face.
"Dear that is normal, I have been waiting for someone to come along and make you feel that way.. what happened?" She said, so sweetly.
"Well.. they asked us to go to their yacht party tomorrow night and as you know I am not about that life. I managed to escape it but I bumped into the same person in the shops just now.." I looked at her face as I paused to see a curious smile.
I continued "He was cheeky and fun, but I found him waiting at my car...it's like he has awoken something inside me that I don't want awakening" I said, honestly.
"Oh Chloe, this is normal and you are still letting your past stop you from feeling love.." Nonni said, delicately.
"It won't be love!" I said, defensively.
"You can be young, have a little fun as it's harmless and good for your soul and growth" Nonni said with passion in her eyes.
"I can't...I just can't... that man took away so much when I was barely 16...I can't move past that " I said, allowing another tear to slide down my face.
"Oh Poppet, I know... but one day you have to not let that man define you and shape your future!"
I knew Nonni was right but it's so hard to move past all the trauma, I don't trust men at all. I always request female doctors or dentists, I am very weary when it comes to letting people in my circle and that is why it consists of just Nonni and Sarah.
Although I have a few friends from the cafe or that know Sarah, I'm very private and polite but that is as far as it goes.
"I think you should go....to that yacht and be your age for the night" Nonni said, waving her finger.
"Absolutely not! that is way out of my comfort zone" I said quickly.
"Darlin'...magic happens outside the comfort zone....I know that as it is how I met your grandfather" she smiled.
I smiled too, I don't know much about my grandfather as when I was younger we didn't often see each other.
"I wish I got to know him" I said, with another tear sliding down my face.
"I wish that too, he loved you and Tony, he was so angry at your mother. Your father was too controlling and your grandfather could see that..he tried his best for your mother to see it but in time your mothers brain was washed and there was no going back." I could hear the pain in her voice.
"I will tell you one thing!..If your grandfather was here he would have punched the living daylights out of that man, the so called man that did what he did to you" she said, angry.
"We can dream that he did, Nonni" I said now holding her hand tight.
"Please go and have fun tomorrow night with Sarah?" Nonni pleaded.
"No...I can't, I have responsibilities" I said, wiping my eyes and looking brave.
"I am having Jacob anyway!... please go have fun....for once!" she said, smiling.
"I will think about it!" I said, standing and finishing off the dinner.
I made pasta and meatballs and called Jacob in to start eating too.
I have to pick out bits that he won't eat before he even sees his plate and I then chopped up his pasta just how he likes it.
We ate dinner whilst talking about our days and I love these kinds of nights. I always come to cook for Nonni 4 days a week. On the other days she either has dinner at the local cafe with Betty or something I have cooked already and it's easy for her to reheat.
I wash up and clean the kitchen as Nonni is on the sofa doing Jacob's reading homework with him.
I love listening to them and love how close they are.
I run upstairs and change Nonni's bed covers placing the other ones in the washing machine. Nonni will turn the washing machine on when she first comes down and then when I come for my cuppa in the morning it will be ready for me to peg out for her.
"Right, we will be off, I will see you in the morning, let me know if you need anything from the shop as I can grab it on the way here" I said to her as I was gathering my bits.
"Sure, okay love, thank you!" she said kissing my cheek as I went in to hug her.
She bent down to Jacob giving him a huge hug "Ta Ra and I will see you tomorrow and guess what?...you're stopping with me tomorrow night" she said excitedly.
Jacob got excited too and was happy dancing as he put his coat on.
"Please have a good think dear on going with Sarah, it will do you the world of good" she said as she gave me another hug goodbye.
I nodded as I opened the door.
"I'll see you through the window dear" She said.
I always giggled as to me she never has to say this as I know and I always look to her porch window to wave.
I got in the car and waved one last time before making our way home.
Could I bite the bullet and actually go to this yacht party...I bite my lip...so much of me wants too but I can't see myself actually committing.
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