bound to the moonlight

16.Amy

"Kitty cat." my head snapped up my eyes opening wide.

"Marcus" I said breathlessly as I jumped to my feet and in two seconds I was next to him and I flung myself into his arms, crying into his shoulder.

"shhh." He whispered into my neck as he smoothed my hair down, "Amy it's okay baby I'm here and I won't let anybody hurt you. I promise." I tightened my arms around Marcus' neck and clung to him shaking. I couldn't stop trembling as stupid as it was I wasn't in danger anymore, Matt had been gone for hours, he'd appeared outside my door only minutes after I'd fled and knocked on my door, he apologised and said he was going to go, he sounded so scared and ashamed it near broke my heart to hear it but my fear was stronger than my pity and all I'd done was curled up in the corner and whimpered. He left less than a minute later clearly after removing his clothes from the drier, And that was it that was where I had stayed curled up in the corner my arms wrapped around my knees I whimpered quietly as I rocked and cursed myself trying to calm down my ferociously beating heart. This silence forced me to relive the kissing with Matt. It had quickly become obvious to me that Matt was a novice when it came to how to kiss and touch a girl, after all he was the school looser , bad breath, spots and greasy hair doesn't manage to attract many teenagers. But despite his inexperience it had been nice as he was a bloody quick learner, and it really didn't take him long to develop a very nice inventive technique. Aside from that anyway up until he lost his sense of restraint he had been gentle, just so soft and gentle with me as if scared of breaking me. But he had honest to god scared me there was nothing I could do to stop him, I mean initially I hadn't wanted to stop him but then there were some feeling swirling in me that I did not want to address, and I suddenly realised I couldn't stop him he had lost control completely and there was nothing I could do, the horror stories I had been fed from Scott and Marcus had flooded into my brain. I had only moved from my corner for five minutes when Mrs Collins came to the door. I managed to calmly tell her I had a headache and I was sleeping. she had clearly noticed my eyes were rimmed red from Crying but she didn't question me she just nodded and let it pass, but I knew that keen look in her eyes I may have been here less than two weeks already but I knew that Mrs Collins saw a lot more than she said, so I knew that this was going to be put on file with my little team of social workers. After that I had returned to the corner still trembling. I couldn't help it Matt had scared me badly, because he had done or got close to being exactly who Marcus had warned me he would be. I know it wasn't helped by me in fact it was at least half my fault but I was still scared as I know the only reason I'd been able to stop him was because he hasn't transitioned yet, he was still getting stronger. So in my fear my wolf instincts had kicked in and a partial shift had occurred my nails had lengthened and strengthened into claws. I had also found my teeth turning to sharp fangs, in my terror I hadn't started a full shift I had instead initiated a partial shift with my body changing the parts of me that I could use as a weapon. But I'm not an i***t I know that slashing his face with my claws was not going to work when he could shift fully too and that's one of the reasons this situation scared me so much.

"what happened Amy?" he whispered, I gave a little smile into his chest, he knew I was upset otherwise he would have never called me Amy he hated that name because Scott had chosen it. Too me Desrae was someone else she was the girl I was before he had burst into my home and killed everyone I had, he had killed her so I had become Amy however much he hated that. Tears continued to leak out of my eyes onto the shoulder of his leather coat.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

"Amy talk to me." he muttered,

"No." I muttered into his neck "I'm okay now I'm okay."

"No your not." He said softly Pressing his nose gently into my neck, "and you know I can hear your heartbeat I can feel you trembling your far from okay." I pushed away from him as I suddenly realised what he was trying to do, he was trying to seek out the scent of who I had been with today. Trying to see if his scent was lingering on my skin, but that scared me as I knew that Matt's scent was still lingering on me.

"Don't." I whispered "please don't."

"Who hurt you?" he asked his voice an intense whisper.

"He didn't." I said in a breath, "he didn't hurt me he just scared me."

"your boyfriend?" Marcus growled, pushing me away from him holding me at arm's length looking into my eyes his gaze intense.

"He's just a friend." I whispered averting my gaze finding my thoughts safer that way.

"promise me it wasn't a rogue that scared you."

"of course not" I lied easily. "

"but you've been making out with a guy today."

"what you want me to be a nun?" Marcus cursed fluently in Italian and I couldn't help but smile a little I liked it when he slipped up a little like that. He snarled releasing me and stalked across to the other side of the room, "Marcus." I said gently and he growled and kicked the wall hard his foot instantly disappeared into the plaster. He snarled and pulled it loose; I winced at the sight of the large hole.

"I'm going tear his f*****g head off." Marcus growled under his breath.

"No your not." I said gently "we've been through this your not my boyfriend your my Dam captor." "it's my job to look after you."

"you say that like you actually believe it."

"he hurts you, I kill him that's the deal, I thought you got that by now." I tried and failed to repress my shudder

"Scott never once hurt me." I whispered trying to be defiant but finding it hard not to slip back into the body of that scared little girl.

"Oh he did you were just too dumb to realise it."

"you won't hurt him. "I said simply I had to protect Matt as I knew Marcus he would honestly Kill anyone who he thought was a threat to me and I believed that. Matt may have scared me but I didn't want him dead. "Please," I whispered, the silence stretched out between us as he stood stock still my warm hand continuing to rest on his cool shoulder,

"okay." He said finally "I'll let it go, but you see him again even a hint I'll f*****g kill him."

"I know that." I said gently Marcus stood breathing slowly for a few seconds clearly having a chat with himself about the importance of personal restraint, "I guess I'll go." He said slowly,

"Do you have to?" I asked tentatively he turned slowly to regard me and a slow small perfect smile lit up his face as he shook his head. "Can we just" I mumbled awkwardly he nodded before I could even finish and he slowly shuffled in close to me(obviously trying to be non threatening not that it worked him approaching me in any way made my heart beat crazy fast). He slowly gently wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me into him so softly, he was trying so hard to be gentle, I might not be a human any more but he could still snap my spine without breaking a sweat. I smiled and shuffled in pressing my nose into his chest letting his familiar safe scent envelop me, this wasn't because his scent made me feel calmer even though it was familiar I was mashing his scent with Matt's meaning even if he did try and hunt him now he would definitely have problems. Not that he would find him anyway Matt was still a pre-trans and so his wolf scent was light just a hint but the scent I was marked by was a strong wolf scent as it had been those instincts that had ruled him as he had been driven to take a female in that way, so I had to muddle the scent up to keep Marcus from recognizing it . Marcus' his strong arms wrapped around me softly as he nuzzled down into my hair kissing the top of my head. He reached down and lifted me effortlessly, and laid me down on my bed lifting the Duvet which he tucked in around me. "Can you stay?" I whispered, "Of course Kitty." He whispered early and settled himself down on top of the Duvet and shuffling himself over a little closer, he reached out and slowly gently brushed a hand through my hair. I sighed and shuffled even closer snuggling down into his chest, stupidly I felt safe here I don't know why I did but I felt protected . He held me gently as he muttered gently in my hair in Italian. He didn't mention it but I knew he liked the fact that I was falling asleep in his arms, as I had never asked him to stay with me, I'd only ever asked him to leave. He had only ever been with me to feed and there was more trust in this action. It was a bigger thing for me too, ever since I was a child I had difficulty sleeping. Initially it was because I was scared of the dark as it brought my nightmares and though I never truly saw Marcus as a child I still knew he was there I could feel him watching me, and as I grew and learned who I was and who it was who stalked me my fears changed, grew and developed. Simply put a wolf's strength came from their pack I was made to be part of a whole pack but I was a lone wolf and so scared. All I had in my world was Marcus, he was it and yet I couldn't love him after what he had done, I didn't trust him, but I trusted that he was here for me and he wouldn't let anyone else hurt me, he knew that me falling asleep in his arms was a great sign of trust the most prominent

sign of trust I could give him, trusting him as much as I could,

"I'll watch over you." He whispered tightening his arms around me just a little this tiny hint of his protectiveness was my final conscious thought before I was dragged down to sleep.