Not Mine

I'm Venezia Roseanne Mills. My twin brother goes by Galen Alexander Mills and his best friend who I've grown up with is known as Angelo Fairfax. Now I just want to say that their names are so ironic because they suit them so perfectly. Galen means calm and peaceful which is the perfect way to describe my twin. There's times when he'll get angry and lash out but that's probably very rare and you're actually lucky if you witness it because it never happens. He's always been the calm and laid-back one of the family. As for Angelo - well Fairfax means 'pretty hair' which suits him perfectly as well because Angelo's hair is always spot on. Whether it's messily combed through by his fingers because he was too lazy to make or if it was styled up with gel - either way, it always looks amazing which I was jealous of. As for me; well Venezia is literally an Italian place and I'm not Italian so there's not much I can say about that. Then we have Penelope Kennedy who is dating Angelo. Penelope is a very quirky and cheerful girl with long legs I'm jealous of. Actually no, screw that. I'm jealous of her in general. Not about one thing specifically but just of her. The fact that's she's tall, naturally always happy and positive, nice to almost everyone, the fact that everyone loves her - even my parents - but mainly the fact that she's dating Angelo. She's the perfect match for him too. Angelo's a softie but no one really knows that - it's kind of one of his secrets. I know that because I've grown up with the guy so I've learnt all I need to know. He's also very chatty and loud, funny, charming, cocky but also sensitive and kind. They both fit together like a puzzle with only two pieces and they're the pieces. They've been dating since last summer and now it's October so it's been four months. For four months I've had to watch the kisses and long hugs, the cuddles and lustful looks, the pet names and date stories. I've had to live with all of it and normally it'd be very adorable; I'd be squealing and eager to hear more, gushing about how cute it all is but in this case, my problem is that I stared falling for Angelo in junior year. It's been almost four years now as we are in our second year of college. The four of us - Angelo, Penelope, Galen and I all go to the same college. Angelo wasn't plan in on staying so close to home but had to when his mum got sick during our senior year. Luckily she's recovered and well now. Galen and I have always been fairly close and decided on the same place because we wanted to stay close to home and our parents. Our family had always been very tight knit so it's what we thought was best. Now, there's one more person I should introduce and that is Oscar McClain. My boyfriend. You see, it probably must seem so weird and bad of me to have a boyfriend when I like another guy and have for years now but things just happened very quickly and oddly with Oscar. Oscar and I met in the beginning of college as he was in my business class. We became good friends and then he asked me out eventually which was quite a surprise to me because I had always considered him a friend. I had agreed to date him and now we've been dating for almost 7 months. Part of the reason I agreed to go out with him was because first of all, I do genuinely like him. Maybe not as much as I should but I do. Most of the reason was because I had realized long before that nothing was going to happen between Angelo and I considering that he had dated many girls throughout high school and because he was my brothers best friend, he always took my as a younger sister as well, which always irritated me - still does. Three months later when he started dating Penelope, that's when I was convinced that nothing was going to happen between us expect for the sibling bond we had grown into over the 15 years we've known one other. I guess dating someone else was my way of getting over my long time crush on him. See now, when you've lived with a guy (that's not related to you) for your whole life, spent so much time with them, woken up to them and them being the last person you spoke to before sleeping, you can't help but get attached or feel attracted to them. I know it's wrong because he should be like a brother to me but we always were very close and I surprised myself when I realized I started to grow bigger feelings for him. My best friend - Shelby,  from back in high school always told me that it was bound for one of us to fall for the other. It wasn't a surprise to her though. Angelo and I grew up together, we spent almost everyday together; he became a part of my life I couldn't get rid of so it wasn't strange that a girl would fall for an attractive specimen like him. That's what happens when you spend so much time with someone. It just happens. You can't chose who you fall for. Oscar was quite the character. He was kind and charming but also aggressive and cocky but that wasn't something I saw as a flaw because when with me at the least, he was always just funny and straight forward. We had become pretty good friends because it was easy to talk to him. I never would've expected that I'd date him but you never know how things end up so I guess it's just a wild trip for me. I'm just going with the flow and trying to continue surviving my days...