Mom Untold

This is only the start...

Snow's Pov:

I couldnt believe what she had just told me and that wasnt even her whole life. that was only like maybe 4 years. Yeah, i think so because she said that she found out her best friend was pregnant only a couple of months before she was supposed to graduate.

I noticed that its starting to get late but im not ready to go back yet and face Ryder. He told me he wanted an answer when i got back and i still hadnt made a decision. I havent even really had time to think except about what she was telling me and im still finding myself blown away. he was supposed to be her first love and everything. 

I look at her and I notice she is staring off into the distance. I want to ask her what she is thinking about but then again I'm not really sure that i want to know. Im not really sure of a few things at this point. 

I run my fingers threw my hair and look through the trees trying to be quiet until she is ready to keep telling me about her life. I see flowers and butterflies.. The birds are chirping and swooping around. I feel almost at piece.. Almost.. Do I want to get married? Do I want to have children? 

Before i can actually think about it and give myself an answer Trea moves over and takes my hand in hers and she looks me in the eyes. She takes a deep breath and asks me if i am afraid of getting married and having kids.. 

I just stare at her for a minute because i really dont know how to answer that question. i havent ever thought about if i was scared or not. To be honest I never really thought about doing either because of the life i had lead and it really wasnt the top of my lists of things to do.. 

I, Myself of course never really had a family. Except my mom but she hasnt been around much since she got remarried.

Now that i think about it I think i am afraid of getting married bacause of the things i have seen my mother go through and watched my family fall apart but never really had anyone to talk to about it because my mother really acted like it wasnt that big of a deal. Now mind you i know that this story really isnt supposed to be about me but its supposed to be about a mom.. truth is im starting to think that this story she is telling is going to twist and turn and go everywhere. Simply because just what little she has told me, she has me thinking about my own life.

I look at her and i admit to her that yes i am afriad. i dont know how to be a wife or a mother and im afraid of ruining everything and not being able to live with myself.

She laughed a little and reasured me that because i felt the way that i did only meant that i would be the total opposite.

I want to know more about her life. She seems to have this air around her that just screams comfort and safe. i want to know anything that she wants to tell me...

"Trea, can you tell me more about what happened? Or more of your life?"

She laughs "Do you remember earlier when i asked you if you were sure you wanted to know?"

she is answering a question with a question. But, now that i think about it she did ask me that.

"yeah i remember, and I really think i want to i know more if that is ok with you."

She smiles at me sweetly. "I dont think it will hurt. But its getting late. how about you go home to your man and tell him this." "I need a little more time, i dont want to make a decision that is wrong or that i will regret. I want to make sure that what im doing is going to be what is best for not only you but me to" "I want you to tell him" "making a decision about the future is a big deal and it will take a couple of days" "and for the next couple of days I will meet you here with Komo and we will sit and talk about my life.''

I looked at her shocked. She really thinks that telling me about her life story is going to take a few days and that me telling Ryder what she said will get him to stop hounding me? I guess the only thing i can do is agree and give it a try and then maybe she can also help me make a decision on what i really want to do with my life and my relationship.

"Ok Trea. I think that i will."

She nodded her head as if she knew that i was going to say that. But before i could say anything else she had already stood up as did Komo and turned top look at me.

"I have to go now but i will meet you here tomorrow."

Without waiting on me to reply she had already started walking away. I stood to leave myself but then  remembered we didnt set a time. I turned around to say that but she was already gone.