The Silent Sorrow (GXG)

23. I am lucky to have you

I sigh as I see who is calling me on the phone. Dad only calls me on my birthday, Christmas and New Year, and maybe some random times. He is not much of a dad.

"Aren't you going to answer that?" Mom asks as she watches me. Her words make me roll my eyes, but then I look at Dandy, who seems worried as she notices who it is.

"Fine." I mutter as I get out of the couch.

"Hello?" I answer and then step out to the sunny on the porch.

"Hi, Kiddo." Sean says happily as always. It's always the same conversations between us.

"How are you?" He asks and I roll my eyes.

"I'm fine." I sigh annoyed as I itch my temple.

"Good. Your mom said that it was probably a bright idea to come and visit you one day," Oh god.

"And I agreed. So, what do you say about taking a cup of coffee, next Saturday?" Sean asks.

"Yeah, sure." I just answer as I shake my head. I really don't want to, but if that makes him happy, then fine. Last time he asked me to meet. He sent me a message that he couldn't come, and the time before that again. So, it's not a surprise if it happens this time as well. I have lost my faith in my own father since I was a little kid.

"Okay, great. I see you then."

"Yeah, bye." I say and hang on the phone. Then I look inside and meet my mother's eyes. This is all her fault and she knows it, but Dandy comes out the door. I smile to her right away, because she just has that effect on me. She watches me worried and I roll my eyes to that.

"I'm fine, just," I sigh.

"Dad." I say as I lay the phone in my pocket. Dandy take my hand in hers and lead me to hide so no one can see us.

"I am fine." I tell her again, but she won't believe me as she cups my cheeks, forcing me to watch her. She is searching my eyes, which I just roll.

"No, I am not going to tell you anything about dad, until you tell me what happened to you." I say strict and that makes Dandy's hands fall off me with a nod. She still seems worried though, but she does not need too.

I lay my arms around her neck because I just need a hug right now. I hate to hear my father's voice and worst of all is the tone he uses. It's like he thinks everything is okay between us, but really it's not. I am just a piece of his life that was a mistake, and he does not really have the heart to throw me away. Not fully at least. I feel the tears go down my cheeks, and I take a deep breath. Dandy holds me tight.

"Y-you are lucky." I sob. Dandy leans back and watches me confused.

"That you have a dad that cares for you." I say and swallow hard. Dandy just shrugs, which makes me, roll my eyes.

"Yes, he does. He loves you a lot. You might not see it, but I can." My words earn a smile on Dandy's face and she put her lips on my forehead. There is something about her lips that just turns my body frozen for a moment.

"But I am lucky to have you." I smile. Dandy watch me with her soft eyes as she brushes my hair behind my ear. Before she leans down with her lips on mine. I lose my mind, because of her softness on my lips, but we move back from each other fast at the sound of the door opening. Mom comes to my view and she watches me concerned.

"Are you okay?" My mother asks me, but I just walk past her in fury and shut the door behind me.