The Silent Sorrow (GXG)

21. Oh my god, Dandy!

"This taste awful." I complain to Andrea as I hold the whiskey she stole from the bar-locker. Andrea and I have been sitting on the snow next to the frozen lake, for what seems like forever. I wish it was Dandy who was sitting next to me because the sky is amazing right now. It's drowning in the stars and the moon shines so bright still so beautiful, but not as beautiful as Dandy. I feel so awful for leaving Dandy with my family.

My cousin is now drunk and so am probably I. We have been sitting here and I haven't been on my feet since we found our way down here. It's cold, but nice to spend some time with my cousin. Even though we are actually sitting in quiet, both in thoughts. That is weird because Andrea is not someone that is just silence for no reason. We meet eyes and she rolls her eyes as she notices my confusion.

"I am just thinking." She say.

"Alcohol makes you think?" I chuckle and Andrea raises her eyebrow.

"And you are to talk." She tells me and I roll my eyes as I hand her the bottle.

"Yeah, just thinking about Dandy and what I ruined for just some few hours ago." I tell her and lay down in the snow watching the sky while seeing that bright smile on Dandy's face in my mind's eye. That smile is probably gone now, like everything else.

"I give you five bucks if you go on the ice." Andrea grin to me and I laugh of her tired eyes.

"Ten, then I'll do it." I say, and she takes a deep breath.

"Fine, but I decide when you can stop." She pointed at me and I roll my eyes.

"Okay." I say as I take off my jacket, and throw it at her.

"Hey!" She shouts and I laugh as I start walking on the ice very carefully, but it seems completely fine.

"How far?" I ask.

"Further!" She yells, even though she doesn't need to. I turn to her annoyed as I keep on walking, but I see Dandy stand some few meters behind Andrea. She is staring at me, while I am going further on the ice. The only place I want to be now is in Dandy's warm arms, but that is never going to happen now.

"How long?" I wonder annoyed. I have walked and walked.

"I give you fifteen if you jump!" Andrea yells, standing and I can hear her horrible laugh.

"You want me to go through the ice don't you?" I shout asking and she gives me both thumbs up and stumbles down in the snow.

"Oh my god." I chuckle to myself. Dandy starts walking towards me with worried and anger written all over her face, but I don't care as I jump. Then I smile because I just earned fifteen bucks for absolutely nothing.

Dandy doesn't seem happy at all as she comes towards me, but then I get swallowed by water. I kick my feet and reach for air as I come back up. My whole body is frozen, and can't just feel the cold on my skin, but on my bones. It hurt so much that I can't feel anything, but the pain. The next thing I know is being dragged up from the water and into Dandy's arms where I always wanted to be. But she is not enough to keep me warm now.

"I-I..." Dandy picks me up with my arms frozen around her neck and my legs wrapped around her waist. She starts walking fast, back to my cousin.

"I-I..." I cannot say a word right, but I can hear Andrea is totally freaking out as we reach her.

"D-Dandy" I stammer as Dandy keep on walking with me up the hill.

"I a-am s-so sorry," I manage to say, but Dandy just hold me tighter in her strong arms.

"S-so sorry." I cry as Dandy step into the cabin, and it makes me hear a worried voice, but Dandy takes me up the stairs.

"I am really, really sorry." I say once again, I just can't be quiet and I am in so much agony that I can't control anything. Dandy manage to open a door and she moves us into the bathroom. I cry, burying my face in Dandy's neck as she steps into the shower and I feel the warm water falling all over me. After a little while, I feel my body getting some of the heat back.

Dandy put me down and pull off my sweater and shirt. Then she cups my cheeks, searching for something. It would be so much easier if she could just use her words. I close my eyes of her wonderful soft touch on my skin.

"I'm sorry." I say, and Dandy shakes her head as I reach for the zipper on her hoodie. She watches me as I pull it off her. Dandy clench her teeth as I move my hands under her wet T-shirt. Feeling her strong stomach under my fingertips that I have always wanted to touch, but as I try to drag her shirt up, she stops me. I look into her eyes, waiting for an answer, but then she let my hands go. I stare at her for a moment, but then I move her shirt off her.

"Oh my god, Dandy!" I say worried as I see her shoulder and move my fingers on her wounded skin.

"W-what happened to you?" I ask as I feel the tears go down my cheeks. Dandy just look down as she clenches her teeth.

"Is that the reason why you don't talk?" I wonder worried, and she just wrinkles on her cheek as she shrugs.

"I'm sorry." I tell her and lean down to kiss the scar on her shoulder, but then my hands start to shake as I feel it on the back of her shoulder as well.

"What?" I say stunned and move back her, only to see the same scar.

"Dandy!" I shout as I stand in front of her again.

"W-what..." Dandy put her hand over my mouth and when she knows I am quiet she cup my cheeks. Taking away the drops of water on my skin. I roll my eyes.

"Dandy." I whine and it makes her give in to me. Her hands fall off me, and her shoulders sink low.

"What happened to you?" I say as I watch her shoulder and feel the scar under my fingertips.

"Or what went through you?" I ask shocked, then my eyes widen.

"W-where you shoot?" I ask and I can barely stand on my own feet as I feel my heart sink down to my stomach. Dandy shake her head as I put my hands around her waist.

"T-then what happened?" I ask scared and kiss her lightly on the wounded shoulder. Dandy doesn't say anything or move as I do it. She just stands in front of me, staring. I sigh loud in disappointment as I lean my forehead on her collarbone. When I meet her eyes again, she watches me guilty.

"Don't look at me like..." She surprises me with that she crashes her lips on mine and it's sending me over the edge of a cliff. My stomach is tickling of the fall and I can't breathe. The only thing I can feel is her warm lips that are moving so soft that I think I am in heaven.

My skin is prickling, because of the shivers. This, this is just more than I could have ever asked for, and I struggle to stand on my feet, but Dandy keeps me up as she holds me by the waist. I wrap my arms around her neck, forcing her not to leave me just yet because I can't. I am caught in a fire and I love the heat of it because my fire is Dandy.

Then she moves back, but I can't seem to steady myself or open my eyes. It makes me realize that this is the best thing that has ever happened to me and I don't want it to stop. When I open my eyes for which feels like forever, I meet Dandy's tearful eyes.

"Oh my god." I say as I hold her in an embrace.

"W-why are you crying." I ask scared because I have never seen her cry before. She pushes me lightly back with her hands on my waist. She looks down at me and I take the tears away from her cheeks. Dandy closes her eyes hard as she kisses my palm. More tears flow down her skin. The view causes me to struggle to breathe.

"Hey," I smile as forcing her to watch me.

"I'm here, and I am fine." I promise her, but she clenches her teeth and just more and more tears streams down her cheeks.

"Dandy, you can't just kiss the sense out of me and then just cry." I chuckle and that makes her finally smile. She cups my cheeks and kiss my forehead. I smile of her warm, soft lips on me. We stand here holding onto each other with the feeling of the warm water hitting our skin, but most of all I can't get the kiss out of my head or off my lips.

After getting out of the shower, I am now wearing Dandy's clothes. So warm and comfortable, but most of all when I sat down on the couch Dandy wrapped her arms around my thigh. Holding onto me while shaking with her face buried in my stomach. Almost everyone has gone to bed. Expect Ryan, who is still watching the TV and Andrea, who is sleeping on the other couch.

Dandy clinging to me feels nice, but that she is shaking with tears is frightening me. It's been a little while since we came out of the shower, and she still can't calm down. Neither can I because what I saw on her shoulder scared me even more than her crying.

I have no idea what happened to her, but whatever it was, it was not pretty. I mean, something went through her and that literary. Which means the scar on her neck has something to do with it as well. Ryan turns off the TV as he stands up and then steps up the stairs. Leaving me alone with Dandy, but still my cousin, Andrea is sleeping on the couch.

"Dandy?" I say worried and she watches me with her tearful face, and it brings tears to my own eyes.

"Y-you need to stop crying. It scares me." I tell her and swallow hard, but it only makes more tears stream down her cheeks. She let go of my thigh and lay over me to bury her face on my shoulder. I hold her tight in my arms, afraid that if I don't, she might fall apart.

Not long after Dandy look straight into my eyes. Watching me with her sad, red eyes and I don't know what to do. Then she cups my cheeks, her thumb tracing my lower lip as she is studying me. Her soft touch forces me to close my eyes of tiredness, but not long after Dandy put her warm, salty lips on mine.

This time she is moving them almost desperately, and I can feel her tears on my own skin. She pulls her lips off me, but I need a minute to put myself together before I can watch her again. Her kissing me leaves me brain-dead for a while and I need some time before I can realize where I am.