Flashbacks: Head Versus Heart

Chapter Ten: We've Almost Made It

We quickly said our goodbyes to everyone, and packed up to head to Colt’s parents. He held my hand the entire ride, stroking his thumb over the top of my hand, just to let me know he was still there. I must have been feeling the whiskey, because it was driving me wild. I was zoning out in my own thoughts, when he asked me if I needed anything before we got back, the drive went by so fast.

I scanned for Vera’s car and noticed she wasn’t home yet. I didn’t get to talk with her at Tommy’s party, so I texted her to see where she was.

“Hey Boo. Where are you?”

“Don’t be mad. . . Staying with Chris tonight, long overdue. ”

“Not mad! See you tomorrow? Lunch date at Fawn’s?”

“Definitely. I’m sorry I have barely seen you, and you came to visit me! :( Worst Best 0Friend Ever!”

“YOU are not. It’s fine, I’ve stayed busy. ;)”

“Ewww, I bet. See you tomorrow, lover. XO”

I felt bad for almost feeling relieved that she wasn’t coming home, because it meant more time with Colt, without having to explain to her what was going on. I knew at some point she would want to know, not only as my best friend, but as Colt’s sister. I always knew how to make a complicated situation even worse.

“Babe. Vera just texted me that she’s staying with Chris. ” Colt spoke up, and startled me.

“Yeah, she just texted me the same thing. How are things going with them?”

“She doesn’t talk to me much about it. I don’t ask either. I guess, maybe I should. Come on, let’s get inside… we can watch a movie.”

“Sounds good, something scary!” I said as I put my hands up like monster claws and jumped out of his truck. He carried in our things. I was so tired, and totally ready to go to bed, but cuddling and watching a scary movie sounded much better.

We went inside and got situated. We grabbed a movie and went into Colt’s room to get it set up on his TV, and changed our clothes. Colt put on a pair of basketball shorts, which drove me crazy just looking at him. I grabbed a tank top and a pair of panties, I wasn’t worried about being decent if Vera wasn’t around. I had to make Colt feel the same way I did. As soon as we got situated, Colt realized he wanted something to eat. I guess some things never change about a person, he was always hungry.

“Do you want anything? I’m ready to eat an entire steer.”

“No, but I’ll come with you.” I could have eaten, but I couldn’t make a decision on what to send him for. Going to see what was in the kitchen made more sense. Colt found some popcorn, only it was that annoying kind that old people love to pop on the stove. We joked about how his parents were getting wild in their older age. I sat on the island in the middle of the kitchen, eating an apple, while he tried to figure out how to cook this popcorn. Technology has all of us spoiled.

He figured out the temperature and started the popcorn. He slid on the hardwood floor and stood in front of me, talking about how great this weekend was going. I agreed, it was so

unexpected, unpredictable. He wrapped his arms around me and put his head on my shoulder and sighed loudly, while I ran my fingers through his hair. My stomach was in knots. I was radiating heat from my whole body, and he must have felt the same way. He grabbed the back of my head and kissed me hard, shoving his tongue forcefully in my mouth.

“Colt…”

“Shh. . . ” he put his finger over my lips as he pulled me to the edge of the counter, he had desire in his eyes, and I wasn’t about to stop him. My entire body was overcome with goosebumps as I felt his hand slide up my thigh. He pushed my legs apart and ran his hand over my panties.

As he pulled my panties off me, he placed his hand on my stomach, pushing me down while he ran his hands all over my body. I closed my eyes and let out a moan while he reached his fingers down between my legs.

My thoughts went hazy, and I couldn’t breathe. With his hand still between my legs, he began kissing my thighs. I ran my fingers though his hair, grabbing on to the back of his head. I tightened my grip on his head as my moans intensify. Without a hesitation, he shifted his weight and pulled me closer to him, as he entered me.

He had his hands all over my body. He always took his time with me, exploring parts of me I never knew I even had. I was so lost in the moment, I didn’t think about anything else but the pleasure we were both experiencing. I didn’t worry about what would happen days from now, tomorrow, or even an hour from now. The only thing that mattered was that moment we were in. s*x with him wasn’t about getting a quick fix. There was so much more involved. There was emotion, passion, and heart. Most of all, there was love, real love.