I'm sorry
1333 Words
Chapter 29
Alpha Erubas
"s**t!" I curse under my breath as I slump on the chair, adjusting my tie that suddenly feels like it's choking life out of me. I'm frustrated, and I hate that I'm venting it out all on her, but I don't even know what to say.
"You are just a weak Alpha that doesn't even deserve to be a leader," I mumble under my breath as I rake my hair with my fingers. It feels like I'm drowning in fear and heartbreak, and I don't even know what to do.
"Why am I doing all this? Why have I been treating her like this?" I have been asking myself and I just asked myself again, but there seems to be no answer to the question I seek answer so badly.
'You need to bring her now to clear the rumors, Alpha' as much as I want to do what Ares told me, I feel like it'll be unfair on her end. It's just like using her, and that is the last thing I want to do to the mate that was cursed to be with me. Yes, any woman that is destined to be with me should be cursed. I am a curse that shouldn't even have anything to do with any woman. If I am the only one that will suffer later, I will be very much happy with it, but it'll be a disaster if anything should happen to my people. Their blood won't stop haunting me.
"It's me, Sir," Sophie's voice sounds from outside after the knock pulls me back to reality, and waves of guilt wash through me. I don't want to face her, but I know that I also have to.
"Come in," I usher her in. The door opens, and she walks in with the file in her hand. I throw my face away, ashamed of looking her in the eyes after everything I've made her pass through these past few days.
"I brought the file, Sir," She utters in a low tone with sadness resounding in it, as she drops the file on my desk.
"Hmm," I only hum.
"Uhm... I'm sorry about this. I should've been more careful," She apologizes to me before she turns and walks out of my office, closing the door gently behind her, and I release the breath I've been holding unknowingly.
A few minutes later, we left for the meeting. The meeting was successful, although I was finding it difficult to concentrate, seeing the sad expression she had on her face. I feel guilty for what I did to her, and I can feel my wolf sad about our mate being like this.
The meeting finally came to an end, and everyone left the hall except us. She was trying to gather the files together.
"Sophie..." I call her as I stand up to my feet, and she stops to look at me.
"Yes, Sir? Do you need anything?" She inquires as she stares at me, maintaining the boss-employee relationship. Well, I started it in the first place.
"Uhm... Did you sleep well?" I ask her, and she quickly nods her head with a small smile playing on her lips
"Yes, Sir, I did," She replies to me before she turns to leave after she packed the files.
"Uhm... Should we have lunch together later?" I ask her, and she stops on her track before she turns to face me.
"No, I have a lot of work to handle later," She utters before she turns to leave again, and this time, I hold her hand, bringing her to an abrupt halt.
"What are you doing, Sir?" She turns to look at me and blinks her eyes cutely.
"I'm sorry," I apologize to her since I can't keep up with this. I can't even explain to her why I'm doing this, and she will feel like maybe I don't want her, or something like that.
"Why are you apologizing, sir?" She inquires after she yanks my hand off and steps away from me.
"I shouldn't have treated you like that, but I had to sort myself out. I am going through a hard time now, and I needed some time alone, I..."
"And you thought pushing me away and treating me like a piece of trash would solve things?" She scoffs as tears brim in her eyes, and I feel a sting in my heart.
"It's not that... I'm sorry," I apologize to her as I try to touch her, but she steps away from me.
"I know you can't tell me everything going on with you, but you shouldn't have treated me like that. Do you know what I have been through since all these days you have been treating me like I didn't even matter to you? Do you know what I have been through, trying to act like everything was fine when it was not?" Tears finally stream down her cheeks as she stares back at me, and waves of guilt spur through me.
"I'm sorry," It's all I can say to her because I don't even have the right to say anything else to her. I wish I can tell her my worries, I wish I can open up to her at least, but sadly, I have to keep this to myself and suffer in silence.
"I'm sorry, Sophie. I won't ever treat you like that, and I promise you," I finally pull her close to myself, and cup her cheek in my palm while staring into her beautiful eyes.
"And what makes you think that I will forgive you, huh?" She rolls her eyes at me, but I can see the sarcasm in them.
"How about I buy you ice cream tonight? What do you think, hmm?" I ask as I tuck the strand of hair on her forehead, behind her ear.
"Tonight?" She inquires, and I slowly nod my head.
"Why? You won't be free? Are you having a date with someone?" I ask as my eyes narrow at my question.
"Kind of such. Don't worry, I will tell the person that I have to go out with my boyfriend. He will understand," She replies to me, and I slowly clench my fingers as I let out a scoff.
"Who the heck is that? It's even a 'he', what the f**k!" I mumble angrily as I throw my gaze away, waves of anger spur through me, and my blood boils in rage.
"Were you going to go out with him? Who is the person?" I blink my eyes at her rapidly while waiting for answers.
"Yes. I felt like you didn't want me anymore, so shouldn't I move on? And you don't really need to know who the person is," She shrugs, and I can't help the scoff that tears through my throat.
"Are you kidding me? When did I say that I don't want you anymore, huh?" I huff angrily as I tilt my head sideways before I adjust my tie that's suddenly suffocating me, because why not?
"Who the heck was that?" I ask angrily, but she just scoffs and rolls her eyes at me.
"Are you going to fight him if I tell you who he is?" She smirks at me.
"No, I won't fight the person, but I will make sure that he doesn't live to tell the story of going out with my woman," I reply to her, and a thin line appears between her eyebrows as her eyes narrow.
"Huh?" She blinks her eyes in shock, and I scoff.
"Don't panic, darling. I will see you later," I pat her shoulders before I stride out of the hall with my hands tucked inside my pockets.
"Was it Jason?" I ask myself as I head to the marketing department later since I have a file to get from there, but I bump head into someone just when I push the door open to enter the office...
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