Jaded heart

Not of proud moment

Gabriella pov 

Leaving my apartment I make sure I have everything in my bag before leaving as the last thing I want to do is back track when I am half way to Sarah's house, she has been helping me finish school early. I have no idea whats next for me as the plan were to attend college but now that my father no longer with us I just couldn't go back to the place where everyone gives me pity looks. I just don't know what I want to do now that my father is no longer with me. Making sure I have my laptop I place it in the back seat of my car before driving to Sarah's, I am desperate to finish school as once I finish I will have nothing else tying me down to this town and I can decide where I go from there. I have thought about travelling around the world, or investing my father's life insurance but I'm at a stand still in my life at the moment unsure what I am supposed to do in my life. It's a short drive from mine to Sarahs, it doesn't take me long before I am pulling up to the house same time as a car pulls up behind me, we both get out the same time and I almost trip from having flashbacks, I stand where I am wondering if this is a trick on me or if this is for real. Sarah is out the house looking between me and two men dressed in uniform unsure what to do first, I know she want to grab me and hide me from what I will expect this to be Jackson death but I have already seen this once and now its this time she's hearing this. 

This is my life, one tragically after another. 

"Lucas was killed in action, I am so sorry" I barely hear as one of the men tell Sarah that she no longer see her husband and I know I'll never see Lucas or Jackson again, I want to go over to Sarah and help her but I am frozen where I am unable to do anything as it hasn't even been a month since my own father had passed, it feels like just yesterday I was told the news. Watching on from where I am I fall to the ground knowing now I have lost everyone I have ever known, Jackson was family to me and now theres no one left, I am alone. 

Closing my eyes briefly I don't know what to do or even how to comfort anyone so instead of doing the right thing and walking over to Sarah and being there for her like she was for me, I climb back in my car and driving away instead, I don't know where I am going but I know if I let myself drive I'll be fine, my mind will know where to go. Parked at a red light I quickly look around before texting Sarah telling her I couldn't stay around hoping she understands but as I press send I know she will, I love Sarah but the memories of my father will just come back and trying to move on from losing my father hasn't been easy. 

Me to Sarah: I'm sorry. 

Running a hand though my hair I try to relax but its a little harder when I have so much running though my head right now like the death of Jackson and his whole platoon and the death of my father, its like my while support system has been wiped out and I am forced to move on without anyone in my corner. Bring my car to a stop I look up before looking around as my mind has bought me here for a reason and as I look around I stop and my eyes are looking at a recruitment centre, I guess this is my sign. 

"I'm here to **" I say looking the recruiter in the eyes hoping he can help me whether he wants to or not, I may not be thinking straight right now but I do know I want revenge on the guys who took down my platoon and who ever killed my father. My father wanted me to live my life and after seeing him be in the army for over a decade or two and meeting a lot of great people, I now know this is something I want to do not only for him but for me. I plan on making him proud like I was proud of him. 

"Of course, lets start with your name" I hear him ask looking me up and down, I may look small but don't let my tiny figure confuse anyone, after all I was taught everything from my father and his platoon, they made sure I could look after myself when they couldn't be around to be in my corner and now that they are gone I plan to use everything that taught me. The only thing I need to improve on is my first aid other then that I have excelled at everything; my shooting, combat and handing weapons. I am an army brat so it comes to no surprise that I am trained. 

"Gabriella Lockwood" I say with pride as I remain eye contact with the man and I can see the recruiter fidget a little at the name, my father was a big name in the army that nearly everyone knew who he was and knew what kind of man he was. I know right away he fight me not to do this as I am not thinking but theres nothing he can do to stop me because I am doing this. 

Spending just over a hour talking about opportunity within the army I have already made my decision on what I want to be however first I have to pass basic training which shouldn't really be a problem as If I could take down Jackson, I'm sure anyone else will be a piece of cake. I did ask for one thing though and that was to be fast tracked I wanted to get to work today if possible and he looked at me like I lost my mind but I have nothing else stopping me and I have nothing left in this town, I just want to get on with it. 

Having my start date for basic training I had made sure I have my priorities in order; I have sold my fathers house after putting everything in storage, his life insurance is in my bank getting interest the longer its in there and I have made sure my apartment is secure. I have nothing else I have to do before leaving but I know this will be the longest weeks off my life as I just want to get on with it. 

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Currently sitting in a first aid training class I cant help but think about basic training how everyone knew who I was and they knew what I was capable off, word had got around that my father and platoon taught me everything I knew and I even knew some of the secrets to being a good sharp shooter, they weren't happy to know my father trained me but whats the worse they could do as my father is dead so is his platoon but now I have eyes on me making sure I stay in line and thats the plan till I choice to stand out instead of fitting in. 

"Gabrielle, whats ABC mean?" I hear the soldier teaching this class say and I have already read everything on her, Laura Halley. its hard not to listen to everything that everyone says about who's who and apparently she is someone everyone has been talking about recently and someone you need to have a clear understanding on medic training, she'e the women everyone wants to become. 

"Airways, breathing and CPR" I answer knowing basic first aid training as my father taught me what he knew and not even himself knew more than basic as he was more like me, hands on and thats the way he liked it. He would have told me stories about the good days and I would listen as I adorable my father and I would hold onto every word he says and now that I am in this class, I have a rough idea why he only knew basic training as he didn't want to further his training. 

The rest of the training flys by and before I could disappear for the day and continue with my training I head outside needing some fresh air after thinking about my father and his platoon but as I step outside I hear a large bang followed by dust flying towards the fly, I am slightly interested with whats happening over there so I follow and as I get closer my thought of what happening is correct. I experienced with wires during my off days and I am quite interested in the way bombs are made and how they can come in all type of sizes. Watching on from the side line I wonder if they have any opening or if I could get someone to teach me a few things on the books, I'm sure I could find someone to teach me a couple of things they look like they are good to get to know.