"Nothing happened!" Ricky shouted and he's absolutely right dahil wala talagang nangyari sa amin.
His parents caught us in bed together this morning. We just literally slept last night and that's the truth. The reason why I’m scared right now is because I know that I am at fault. It’s my fault why Ricky is mad and I am the reason why he’s trying to explain himself to his dad. It’s my fault because I love him.
I was just eighteen back then, too young, very teen when I felt something for Ricky. It’s not really my fault why I felt that way. I was just so fond of him. I just like him so much.
Ricky's my bestfriend's brother and I wouldn't have done my plan if Myla didn't lie to me. We started planning this stupidity because Myla, his sister, lied to me. She said they were planning to get married already, I thought it was true but Myla just said that for me to plan this kind of s**t. The news truly agitated me! Nagawa ko iyon dahil nataranta ako. Akala ko ay totoong ikakasal na si Ricky at Joan.
"Reasons! Don't deceive me.."
I winced upon hearing Tito Roy's voice. At dahil sa mga naririnig ko ay mas lalo akong natakot, hindi ko maisip kung tama ba ang ginawa namin ni Myla. Well, I know it’s not right but I know it’s right for me. Selfish ako at alam na alam koi yon sa sarili ko. I can’t deny that.
"Kilala mo ako, Dad. I will never do that." Ricky defended himself.
"No, I don't really know you yet, Ricky. Kaibigan siya ng kapatid mo. Paano mo nagawa ito?"
"Oh please Dad, don't talk like you didn't do anything before." Mahina ngunit madiin na sambit ni Ricky. Kahit hindi ko naintindihan ang ibig niyang sabihin ay mas lalo akong natakot. They’re obviously mad at each other!
"Don't use my past, Ricky. That won't clean your mess! This is a very different situation!"
Napalunok ako. No, ayokong mag away sila. Hindi ko inakalang mag aaway sila ng ganito. And I did not think na sasagutin ni Ricky si Tito ng ganito, I expected him to just shut his mouth and say sorry. Pero mali ako, I just realized it now.
I stiffened when Myla grabbed my arm. She’s just beside and worriedly looking at me. Nandito kami sa labas ng kwarto ni Ricky. Alam kong natatakot din si Myla dahil nararamdaman ko ang lamig ng kamay niya.
"Mali yata ang plano natin, Amy. I suddenly got scared." bulong niya na mas lalo pang nagpakaba sa akin. Yata? No, hindi yata dahil maling mali talaga.
I closed my eyes then I thought about what we did last night.
We followed Ricky and his friends last night. We know that it’s already their routine to visit their favorite bar, not to drink but to talk about things and to chill. Kaya malakas ang loob naming ni Myla na puntahan sila kagabi.
We were together last night but he didn't say any words. He's not really talking to me that much since then so I was not surprised when he ignored me last night. But I know he got mad when we followed them inside their VIP room. Of course he got mad! There’s no reason for us to be there and he knew that. He talked to Myla and he really wanted us to go home but we I insisted. His friends tried to convince him and they did, wala na silang magawa. His friends versus Myla and me!
Myla got him drunk and I didn’t really notice how she did it, maybe she added something in their cocktail.
I just waited for the right timing because honestly, I was really scared. Hindi ko alam kung saan ako natatakot, kung sa kanya ba o sa susunod na mangyayari, maybe both.
Nang malasing si Ricky ay inuwi agad namin siya ditto sa bahay nila, he was half-awake and the bouncers helped us because his friends too were very drunk.
No one helped us when we arrived here, mabuti nalang at medyo nagising siya nang makarating kami dito kagabi. Tinulungan lang namin siya ni Myla na maglakad dahil kaya pa naman niya. Siguro ay hindi siya masyadong nalasing kaya alam niyang walang nangyari sa amin. Tinitigan ko lang siya buong gabi, I memorized every inch of his face. Iyon lang!
"You should marry her...” Tito Roy's voice interrupted my thoughts.
My eyes widened for what I’ve heard.
Hindi pa ako nakakapag-isip ng matino nang agad bumukas ang pinto ng kwarto ni Ricky at lumabas doon si Tito Roy. Nang makita niya ako ay wala siyang naging reaksyon, alam kong binigo ko din sila.Iba na siguro ang iniisip nila sa akin ngayon.
Nilampasan niya lang kami ni Myla pero hindi pa siya nakakaalis ay muli niya kaming nilingon.
"You two should quit drinking." Pinagpatuloy niya ang paglalakad at bumaba na ng hagdanan.
I can’t look straight into his eyes. It seems like his eyes would judge me or something, nakakatakot tumitig. He didn’t say anything to me, maybe he wants my parents to teach me the lesson.
“Dad, can you please listen to me?" Napatingin ako sa pinto dahil lumabas doon si Ricky.
Ricky frustrately ran his fingers in his hair; I saw anger in his eyes.
When he noticed us in the hallway, he just gave me colder stare and a frightening look. Huminga ako ng malalim dahil sa takot, ano pa nga ba ang inaasahan ko. He also looked at Myla ngunit yumuko lang si Myla.
Ano itong ginawa ko? Is this even the right journey for me, to marry a Ricky Montero?