I know there’s nothing I could say to change her mind. She might not be conventional, but damn it, she was perfect. My pack was special, why not have a Luna who was just as special? I close my eyes and I still see her beautiful features sparking like a wave of electricity in my heart. Her long hair, that first night I saw her, she was travel ridden, smelling like a rented car and tequila. Through that scent I could smell her natural beauty. Fresh autumn rain and leaves. If I could run through the forest chasing her fox forever I would die happy.
Her pale skin could only mean she wasn’t accustomed to outdoor life, but she was not afraid to get dirty. Reluctant maybe, but I got the feeling nothing could make her truly afraid. Nothing that I couldn’t handle anyway. I was pleased she couldn’t reject me, if I could just show her we were meant to be together I knew she would have regretted it.
I sat in my office still pondering what else I could do. Mountains of paperwork flooded my desk but the only thing on my mind was her. That face I wanted to see smile because of me. Those hands I wanted to hold, those lips I wanted to massage with my own. She was a drug I was more than willing to get addicted to.
“Alex!” My betta entered the room, he was my younger brother and more than ready to help me win her over. “I need you to deliver this to Amalia.” I handed a box to him and he took it with confusion washed across his face.
“Care to tell me where I’m going?”
“She’ll be with Claire. Just drop it off. Also, let me know if she goes to leave the city. She shouldn’t be able to get very far, but just keep me posted.”
Alex nodded and left quickly.
I fiddled with my phone in my hands before deciding to call Claire, she answered but didn’t say anything. Claire was so much like a mother to everyone, she was the only one who could treat me like a child and I was glad she could keep me grounded when I needed it.
“Claire, is she with you?”
“Isaac, of course she is. I’m trying to explain to her what’s going on. She doesn’t really understand the mating bond we have. Kitune don’t really have that.”
Of course, I slapped my head, how could I be so stupid? If she knew exactly what it was maybe she’d understand. “Can you just tell her to not leave? The whole pack knows she’s my mate. I don’t want anyone hurting her.”
“I’ll run it by her, but Isaac, I can’t promise anything, and right now you shouldn’t expect it.” With a click she hung up the phone.
Being an alpha’s mate outside the city she would be faced with many enemies. While I trusted everyone in my pack, I knew there were always those who would work against me. Momentary lapse in judgements affect us all.
“Nate!” I called him in, my Gamma was a bit big for his shorts when it came to marking his place in the pack. He tried Alex’s patience many times and pushed the boundaries of everyone. If there was someone in the city who would spread the word about Amalia being my mate he’d know who and where to find them.
“What’s up?” He strutted in head held high, “Blue balls yet sir?”
I frowned at him, his humor was misplaced at this time, “I need you to make sure the news of Amalia being my mate doesn’t leave the city. It could have undesired effects.”
“Sure, but sir if I could can I ask you a question?”
I knew what was coming, he was going to ask whether I agreed or not. The downside to being a relatively passive alpha. The closest of my pack could get away with knocking me around slightly, but step on my toes the wrong way and everyone knew you’d lose some part of your body. I was still alpha after all and I was not a pushover, “Go ahead.”
“Sir, we all saw her rejet you. Do you really think she’s going to want to be with you ever?”
“I’m going to let you walk out of the room now and pretend that didn’t happen.” I crossed my fingers resting my head on my hands, “Go and only call me when you have news.” I didn’t want to admit Nate had a point, but damn it he needed to know when to shut his mouth.
Did they all think it never occurred to me that she may never love me? It hurt me every minute I thought about the possibility. The moon goddess gifted me with unconditional love for her, but truth be told I knew nothing. If we could get to know eachother better she would change her mind. I was sure of it.
How would I show her? If she was a she-wolf I would have a better idea for how to attract her. Then again if she was a werewolf she would have already been attracted to me. Half the fight would have been over. I would never ask her to change in any way, but there was a simplicity to loving one of your own kind. Her father apparently managed to love a kitsune, so why wouldn’t I be able to get her to love me?
More questions crossed my mind at the thought of her parents. Her father was a wolf, her mother was a kitsune. How did they meet? Were they also bonded? If he left the pack they had to have been connected by something powerful. Why would Jackson have refused it? He wasn’t the most open minded alpha, but surely he could have seen how important it was to not separate a bonded pair.
I walked over to the bookshelves that house the history of our pack. She was clearly between the ages of twenty and twenty five, so that left her father in one book. Taking it out I scrolled through until I reached Derrik’s page. Derrick Fernando Sirius, I read. Why on earth were we so terrible at picking names? My own Isaac Julis Jaeger wasn’t the best and if anyone middle named me they knew to run for the hills quickly afterward. Alex never cared for it, and Claire middle named him every chance she got. Still, we were terrible at picking names.
Continuing to read further his history was recorded as banished for treason. He tried to attack Jackson after he was forbidden from marrying his mate. So Jackson tried to break them up? For an alpha to over step their bounds like that, trying to force Derrik to reject his mate? No wonder he left. It was clearly going to be my job to bring her back to believing in the pack.