BLAMELESS SORROWS

12. Sibling date.

Axel's Point of View

Present.

I was in my office going through some revenue document. And unsurprisingly, at this time Tilbe burst in acting all giddy and happy. What might have happen now?

But what I saw next was her panting and panting hard, trying to take a breath in.

I quickly get up and take a chair and make her sit while giving her a cup of water which she gratefully drank.

Then seeing as she is already settled in, I went back to my seat and tilt up my head and wait for her to burst out with whatever news she have, and true to my expectation she did burst out with it.

Tilbe(excited) : You won't believe what I just saw.

I just look at her expecting her to open up about it while she tap her feet totally excited.

Tilbe: Sis Heri and Galen are dating, can you believed it?

Galen Iam aware of and know about quite well but Heri, I have never met.

Axel: Who is Heri?

When I said that Tilbe frown up at me, and pout her lips is displeasure like she always do when something she dont like happen, a habit of her's since she was a child.

Axel: Is it this wrong for me not to know Heri?

I mean her expression is like I killed her rather than me not knowing her.

Tilbe: She is Vann's sister.

Oh! Yeah, the Awors have a heir and a heiress. Wait then again, why is Tilbe upset that I don't know her, I don't see a reason for me to know her here.

Axel: And you are upset I don't know her because?

I look at her confused, while her frown turned into a glare within just a minute making me regret what I ask in just a second.

Tilbe: She is one of the most frequent visitor of our palace and yet you don't know her. Besides, you have deal with many project from her family and read through many documents she wrote herself and yet you don't know her!

I look at her stupified not really knowing why she is pointing all of this out now. I mean it's a known fact that I never went out from here, so how will it be a surprised that I don't know Heri.

I mean, no one is allowed to come to this side of the palace anyway and I never went to the other side when people are there. So what is the problem here?

Axel: Yes I don't, I have never met her. So how will I know her?

Tilbe: And that is the problem!

Okay? Iam more confused! What is the problem here?

Axel: How is that the problem now?

She look more and more displeased as I said more and more. Okay am I missing something here?

Tilbe: Why won't you try going out at all? When we agree that we will stay in this palace with no one permitted to come in, it was just a temporary arrangement right?

I look at her a bit alarmed, why is she bringing this up now.

I was a bit wary of it a few years back that she might bring this up but I thought it will be over by now because she never bring it up anymore, but I guess I was wrong.

Axel: You know why.

Tilbe: But you said you will try to control the Tama and that once you did, you will start going out again right?

I slowly nod. I know I did said that, but frankly speaking since I was fifteen when the first Tama appear, I haven't step out of the palace at all. I have work and I work a lot not to feel any void or lonely and it did help, considering I know quite well that I cannot get out.

But then again, just like it was how we were younger, even now Tilbe is always around me. She is always with me and is there in everything that I do that frankly Iam not that lonely, and beside even when I did find myself desperately wanting to go out, I hate the fact that I can hurt someone so much that I can give up that idea constantly.

Tilbe: So let's try that today.

I stand up shock slamming my hand in the table making her shock as well.

Axel: You know very well why I didn't, don't joke around with such thing little gift.

Tilbe: And how long will you stay this way? I thought I gave you a home, a loving one at that. Am I wrong in that, did I gave you a jail instead?

I look at her shock, why does she think all this has to do with her. I knew since she was little that she thought the Tama come out because of her, I knew that.

Not constantly but from time to time, she always hint that if it has not been for her then I will be alright and everything will have been fine.

But she dont know that, if I have lost her that day I will be long death as well. She is the one who gave me a family again, who show me love, hope and light when I was filled with darkness.

And besides the Tama was in me originally and would always be mine and its coming out is also my doing not hers.

Axel: Little gift, don't think like that. You gave me your home and make me make it mine as well. You gave your family and make me love them as mine. You gave me yourself as my only sister, you are my gift and I need nothing and I mean nothing more than that.

Tilbe: I really wish I have been stronger at that time, I should have listen to grandpa and practice more. Then I could have save us both and nothing bad will have happen.

I look at her upset, she was beyond her own league right from when she was young. She was extraordinary and a genius of a kind.

Her talent was unique to begin with and the effort she gave in is no joke. But before I can say anything to comfort or encourage her, which Iam quite bad at, she spring up from her seat all energetic.

Tilbe: And this time, I have come up with a way to make myself be able to protect myself and anyone else when the time come, so nothing like last time will happen again.

She smile proudly and brightly at me as she said that while I look at her completely shock at how quick she can change the mood of a situation.

But then again it's Tilbe, so no surprise there.

Axel: And what might be the way to that?

I ask looking at her suspiciously, her bright ideas are known to be not so bright most of the time. She can be quite ridiculous when she want to be.

Tilbe: Come with me to see.

Ahh, I thought she gave up the idea of that. But I guess she just spin it off before, for now. I should have knew, she is not someone who gave up on something so easily like this. She is quite the stubborn little one.

Axel: But you know I can't me..

She cut me off looking at me pointedly and saying.

Tilbe: It's useless if you are going to say that you can't meet people cause we are not going to meet anyone.

I look at her confused, did she really give up then?

Axel: So whatever you are going to show me is inside the castle?

She shake her head in denial, looking at me as if Iam saying quite a foreign thing.

Tilbe: Obviously not, isn't that why we are bickering? Because you don't want to go out to where I want us to go?

Okay I feel foolish somehow, but I don't exactly know if Iam the foolish one or her?

Axel: Okay then now that we understand where we are, no Iam not going out.

Tilbe: But we won't meet anyone, I swear.

I look at her, totalling not believing her.

Axel: How are you sure that we won't meet anyone when we are outside. There might be anyone anywhere.

Tilbe: Because that place is closed off, and no one can enter.

A place which is closed off and no one can enter, then isn't it where we are staying? I look at her confused not really knowing where she is referring to.

Axel: How many place did you reserve behind my back that I don't know about?

She look at me dryly.

Tilbe: I mean my practise place.

Oh!

Then that is just behind the east side forest of the palace. Once we cross the small forest there, we reach her practise place. Although if other people want to be there, and they can't come through the palace, then it is a bit far away from the main city if Iam correct.

Axel: But..

Iam once more cut off halfway.

Tilbe: We will go through the forest, so meeting anyone is impossible since no one is allowed there. And also no one is allowed where I practised so no one will be there as well. Are you turning me down cause you don't want to be with me?

I look at her dumbfounded as she pout and act pitiful looking like a small injured puppy begging.

Axel: That puppy dog look don't work on me anymore.

She pout more, her lips puckering dramatically while her eye largened which make it glow more and more.

Tilbe: I ask for a sibling date just once in this lifetime and you are rejecting me this heartlessly. Come on, Ax please go out with me okay? Okay?

She pull on my sleeve like she used to do when she was a bit smaller, always trying to get her ways with anything. And she does not rebel rather she beg till you say yes, fed up of it or in my case give in to her cute acts and looks.

Tilbe: Axxxxxxx........... Just this once, come with me. We have not been out together even once, I want to experience going out with my brother too. Come on, okay, okay?

And she look at me expectantly, her natural baby face back with no pout yet looking more pitiful than when she act as one. And then the signature pout come back as she whine about it like a small baby.

And yes the puppy dog look still does work, my spoilt little sister. I knew I will regret this and I am so scared of going out but despite all that and looking over everything I nod my head as yes with a sigh.

Axel: Okay, let's go to a sibling date with your big brother.

As soon as I said that she put her hand in my arm and drag me out all excited.