Finding Paris

Shame On Me

Jack’s POV

It’s been a few months since I saw Paris. After that night at Prom no one has seen her. I looked everywhere and we just couldn’t find her, not even Danny knows. He’s been looking for her too. I’ve been dealing with moving Bethany and Jenna far apart in the pack house so they don’t kill each other. It’s been non stop fighting over who stays in my room or not. 

Unfortunately things have been worse since mom found out and is disappointed in me as well. She loved Paris. I know she has the same look she looks at dad towards me too. Betrayal hurts and I know she was hurt so I understand why she would be mad at me. I delayed the mating ceremony which made Jenna even more crazy and I’ve been having some type of doubts about if this child is mine. 

Bethany swears the child is mine but who knows who she's slept with this year. I have to just deal with it till the end. We will make sure a test is done right after to clear everything up. Danny won’t talk to me and Mars and Keyome both disappeared after Paris left. I hope they find her. I want to find her as well but things are just too difficult for me and I just don’t want to be here. 

“You two! How dare you keep up with this nonsense! You go back to your pack and come back in the 2nd semester of the school year. And you go home. Garrette take her home. She will not be staying here till she gives birth to the baby. I need to make sure that our blood runs through his body.” Father yells to Beta

“That will give enough time for you to think as an Alpha and clear your mind. The baby will be born and we can find out if that is yours. Then your mate will come back after all this s**t gets handled baby or no baby.” Father says to me 

“You are right!” I say to him 

“Son I know that you just had a s**t ton of bad luck happen to you in the last few months, but we move on. And right now you are not progressing at all and I can’t stand hearing them non stop bickering back and forth for hours and days and weeks.” Father says to me 

“Drives you nuts right?” I say back to him 

“Exactly!” he says back to me 

“I just don’t know how to handle things right now. My heart is in shreds and I can’t even hear myself speak or think.” I say back to him 

“You know that I have made mistakes. And when hearing those women yelling I allowed them to vent because they were hurt. Sometimes you have to just listen to them to understand them son.” he says to me 

“That makes sense.” I say back to him. 

“So what are you going to do then?” he asks me 

“Well if the child is mine I will take full responsibility.” I say to him 

“So move both of them in here?” he asks  

“No. We will share the baby and I will teach him/her our ways and his mother will do the same on her end.” I say back to him 

“So you don’t want to form any type of bond with her since she is the mother of your child or if she is?” he asks 

“No. Just because she is my child's mother does not mean I will need to be with her, but I will protect my child.” I say back to him. 

“You are your mother's child. She said the same thing to me.” he says to me 

“I didn't mean it like that to you Father. I just meant that I don’t want her to think she is the last person for me.” I say to him 

“I know son I understand. And your mate? He asks 

“If I loved her like how mates should, I would have never let her leave and I did. So does that mean I don’t love her?” I say back to him

“That just means you chose to not have her as the one.” he says to me 

“So what does that mean?” I ask him

“You know we have fated mates, but we always make and have a choice. We always have our natural instincts first and if we don’t feel right about it we will always harbor that in our heart and that will stop us from moving forward with that person.” he says to me 

“The Moon Goddess just gives us a little push to find our mates, but it really isn’t required. Only we have the choice to make or break the bond. And it looks like you chose not your mate since you met her.” he says to me 

“That is right. I chose Paris.” I say back to him 

“Then that is your answer. You just needed a bit of a push too.” he says to me

“Thanks Father, that helped me a lot.” I say back to him 

“I don’t want you to make the same mistakes as I have in my life. I lost my wife and the opportunity to see my daughter grow up over my selfish needs. It is worth waiting all your life to find your soulmate then to be with someone for a night or two. Learn from your elders so that you won’t live a lonely life.” he says back to me 

“One day you will feel the best connection in the world with only this one person who will make you happy no matter how mad you get at them. To lose that connection is a total heartbreak, worse than a sword cutting your chest. And then when you finally think you can’t take anymore, that feeling is completely gone. Like that story has never happened. I am telling you this so you can find her before someone else takes her from you.” he says back to me and pats me on the back and leaves 

Did mom just break the bond?