The Moon's Warrior

Chapter 14 Breathe

“What do I do is someone touches me?” I ask Sara. “You take a deep breath and count to 10, if you need too.” She replies. We are going over all the what ifs and stuff with the pack breakfast. Jax says that he has informed everyone that they may talk to me but the cannot touch me. Being touched is a trigger and I go defensive. Sara says that it is normal for me to have triggers after being hurt. We have talked somewhat about what happened to me but not all of it. Are main focus being on the pack breakfast because the pack will meet me, their Luna. “What if one of them ask me about the scars on my arm or shoulders?” “You can say, thank you for your concern but that is none of your business.”  She says. “What if I dress wrong or say the wrong thing? What if I do something wrong and upset everyone? I ask panicky. “Elle, I want you to inhale as deep as you can and push it all out slowly, letting all the thoughts and worry out with it.” Says Sara. I do as she says and inhale and push out the air and all the worrying thoughts. “Better?” She asks. “Yes” I reply. “Okay, that is exactly what I want you to do, if somebody touches you. Now let’s discuss what you are wearing.” Sara tells me. “Well, Marissa and Jax ordered me some clothes last week and they are supposed to be arriving today. Out of the clothes they ordered Marissa is going to help me plan my outfit tomorrow and do my hair.” I tell her. “That’s good. However, did they let you pick out any clothes for yourself?” She asks me. “Yes, they did. However, I am not sure what I like to wear yet, I just picked out clothes that caught my attention. I let them pick out most of them though.” I tell her while fidgeting with my hands. “That’s good. That is exactly how you pick out clothes, plus trying them on. Now you said that she going to do your hair, what is she doing to it?” Sara replies. “Well, I found a hair cut that I like. She is going to cut it and style it for me.”  “That sounds nice. So, you are worried that you might say the wrong thing?” “Yes.” I reply nervously as I look down and away from her. “Well, if you feel like you do not know what to say. Take a minuet to collect your thoughts and then reply. Jax will also be there by you from my understanding. So, you can always look to him for comfort.  If he senses that you are uncomfortable then he will answer for you.” “Okay.” I reply back.  “Now, I do not think that you will do anything wrong, you will mainly be sitting down and eating. On another note, have you allowed Jax to touch you yet besides when his wolf nuzzled yours?” She asks me with curiosity in her eyes. “No, I haven’t, I am still scared that if he touches me, he will trigger Bellona or I and then I will hurt him.” I look down sadly after I told her.  That night when he nuzzled my wolf, I did not feel the “sparks” everyone claims that they get when their mate touches them, but I did feel comfort and understanding. It relaxed and I honestly felt the love he has for me and that scared me.  “Why not?” She asks me. I respond with “I am afraid that I will hurt him”. She then replies with “What if you touch him first?” “I did not think about that” I honestly admit. “Well, why don’t you try it tonight before the breakfast tomorrow.” “Okay.” I say hopefully. “One last thing before our session is done. I heard that your doctor has cleared you physically for working out and training. However, I would like you to keep the training with just you. No training with anyone else for right now okay?” She tells me gently. “Okay, I think that it is a good idea.” We say our goodbyes to each other until next week. I walk out and head to the lobby to meet Jax. I walk up to him and smile and give him a shy “Hello.” “Hey Love. So, I was thinking what if we try something different for lunch?” “Okay, like what I ask curiously?” “It is a surprise.” He says. “Okay, lead the way.” I say with a smile. I follow him back to the house but instead of going inside he opens the garage door and we walk in. He has quite a few cars in there, but he walks over to black sparkly one with dark windows and opens a door for me. I quietly get in and say thank you. He walks around to the other side and gets in. He puts the key into the hole and the car roars to life. It has a loud and deep rumble to it. “This is a challenger, I figured you might like this one.” He says hopefully. “I love it.” I say with a huge smile on my face. “I love how it looks and sounds.” I tell him happily.  He turns this knob to right and sound starts to come out of the doors. “This is radio, it plays music and sometimes people talk.” He tells me.  The car starts to move and before I know it, we are going through the pack town and the one big gate in the front of the pack. “Why do you have a gate and fence along this front part?” I ask curiously. “We have the gate to keep the humans out. If they think that it is a big gated community, they will leave us alone, there is also a little black box that they can push, and someone will answer to either deny or grant them access to come in. the wall is too also keep them out. Eventually the wall surrounds the community after we expand a little more to the west and there will be secrete exits that only pack members know.” He replies.  I look out the window and watch as pass lots of trees and then it turns into grassland that’s pretty flat but has some small hills. There is also cows and horses with fences around them. After while I feel my eyes get heavy and I drift off into a peaceful sleep. I wake up when I hear Jax softly calling my name “Elle. Elle, were almost there.”  I wake up and see a lot of little building as we are going down this huge hill. “I run my eyes and take another look. “Where are we? I ask. “We are coming into Missoula. It is the city closest to our pack.” He tells me. It is quite beautiful to be honest.  We make it into town, and he goes through this thing that has this little board with different pictures of food on it. Somebody starts speaking through the box. “What would you like it says?” “He replies with “Two boxes of Orange Chicken, Fried Rice, Crab Rangoons, General Tso’s Chicken, and two large cokes.” The voice on the box replies with “You want two boxes of all that?” “Yes.” Jax says back.  He gives the amount he owes and Jax pulls up to this window and hands the money. The guy gives him some money back and then hands him the drinks and then the food. We then go to a park and he stops.  He gets out and opens my door. He then grabs food out of the car, and we walk to a picnic table and sit down. I look to my right and there is big lake with mountains behind it. He pulls the boxes out and hands me silverware and some sticks. “This is Chinese food and those are chopsticks. Chinese is my favorite besides buffalo burgers.” He tells me and we began to eat, “That was delicious, and this place is beautiful! Thank You.” I tell him gratefully. “I am glad you like it. Let’s head back. Marissa is waiting on us. Your clothes have come in and she is excited for you to try them on and to do your hair.” He tells me. He opens my door and cleans up the mess. We then head back to the pack.

Jax's POV

"Kai! Kai!" I mind link him excitedly. " Yes, Alpha Jax?" He links back confused. "She touched my hand! Tonight during dinner as I sat the plates down she touched my hand and looked up and said thank you! But she touched me!" I linked excitedly. "That is so awesome! What did you do?" He links back with just as much excitement. "I did not want to scare her so I just smiled and said your welcome." "I am so happy for you Jax, that means she must be trusting you more." he links back happily. "Goodnight Kai, I will see you in the morning at breakfast." I link him.