21 • I'm Sorry
Fifteen minutes later everyone had left after being kicked out by Spencer. They complained but eventually left. Now it was just him and I. I'm perfectly fine. Not dying inside at all.
"Honey, do you want anything?" I wince at the term of endearment. God I'm a f*****g terrible person.
"Earl Grey would be nice, please" I reply "coming right up" I sit down on the couch. Then stand back up and begin pacing.
Ten minutes later I'm still pacing. "Zayleigh, what's wrong?" he's standing in the doorway, looking so concerned and he shouldn't be. He shouldn't worry about me because I'm a terrible person and I don't deserve him. Not at all. So why can't I let him go?
Why, despite knowing that I don't deserve him, that I'm going to hurt him, do I still want him to stay? Why am I hop
