Chasing the Unknown (Boy's Love Series)

It's quite, so quiet and dark. I'm scared to keep my feet moving. A pitch of darkness surely devours the place, making it cold and screaming in eerie. Time seems stuck. Not moving like it always does. I'm quite afraid to break the innocent silence. Yet I'm glad to have him here by my side, he never makes any noise or even a mere sound. He's shaking like me while looking around hoping to see a light. We've been here longer than I remember. Looking at the hollowness of space, a void and empty space. Then suddenly from pitch darkness arose a blurry white, and I guess, light. Hope was raised in my heart and I told him that everything would soon be fine, yet he didn't bother to answer. "Sir! He's having it again". "Go! Get the syringe! You know the drill.. Calm him down first..." "I'm sorry".. "Sedating you was the best option..." I heard it from a man that I don't know who. Every word confuses me. Then the second man says, Affirmative, sure and steady.. "He's calming now." "What are they talking about, I can't understand them". I say inside my mind. Then everything slowly came back again. ~~~~~~~~~~~ The gray sky covers the enigmatic horizon . I was standing there for about an hour watching the waves keep on crashing into the shore. Watching the waves go crazy along with the cold wind and heavy clouds ready to pour uncountable raindrops at any second. Still, I'm standing here alone beside the waves and under the clouds with hands in my pockets. Perhaps thinking or something like reminiscing the memory of you. With deep thought of something unknown They thought, no-- perhaps I'm starting to believe that you are not a part of such a dream or either in this reality. Seems like I'm stuck to the memories that are fallacies. Your smile,laugh and warmth turned out to be my unspoken thoughts, my wildest imagination. A perhaps But I know you exist. You are here. Here in my heart. In the depth of my raging misery, I found you in an unexpected time and place like those love stories promising a happy ending, yet it saddens me to know I can't have you. I can no longer feel your warm hugs, touch your soft hands and I can't have you again. I wanted to tell you how much I like you. I wanted to tell you how much I adore you I wanted to tell you how much I'm hurt Because even if I flip the world upside down, There's no time in this world that can make you come back. I suppose in the end, our story could have a happy ending, but sadly, you slowly drift to the deepest part of my mind and become those random distant memories. Yet I still love you I'm still chasing you Still chasing the unknown. _________________________________________ PRESENT "Ali wakes up". "Ali~ .. Ali, open your eyes...... Ali", a voice keeps calling me, persuading me to wake up. Waking me up from my deep slumber. The dryness of my throat burned out. I tried to slowly open my eyes. Everything is blurry. So, I blink once and twice till I can see the clear white light in the isolated white room. Isolated room? White?? I'm I in heaven? Ohh~~ No, but rather perhaps in hospital? "I don't understand", I utter with such a confused face. "Why am I here?" I can't remember a thing. I suddenly held my head trying to remember. Trying to understand. But the only thing in my mind that keeps replying is that voice. It feels familiar. The voice that wakes me ....... came from....... The door slowly opened up, cutting me from thinking more.