His Last Desire

Emily Wails

MAX'S POV

"You're free to go now." The chubby police officer smiled as he looked at me.

"Make sure not to stalk anyone again or else, it'll not be as light as this." Another added and I couldn't help but nod.

Why the hell were they treating me like a kid when I had done nothing wrong? It was all a misunderstanding, but no matter how much I explained, they weren't going to listen to me.

After getting to the station, I had no other choice but to call my sister who, even though had said some unpleasant words, came to bail me out.

"I'm disappointed in you Max, you came to Wales and the next thing you do is stalk someone." Emily sighed as she shook her head.

I sighed as I wanted to say something. But then I knew nothing was going to make her believe whatever I was going to say. No matter how hard I try to explain, it was only going to worsen the situation which I didn't want.

I had no other choice but to smile bitterly as we entered a taxi. In no time we were back at home.

"Emmie." I sighed calling Emily by her pet name I used to call her during our childhood.

Immediately, Emily froze on the spot and her body shook violently before it went back to normal.

"Max, I think I told you seven years ago that you're nothing but a stranger to me, so you have no right to call me that. The only one who has the right to call me that is my brother. And when I say brother, I mean not the person who had caused the death of our parents and abandoned me for seven years without even caring how I lived." Emily spat coldly.

"Emmie, believe me, I wasn't the one who caused the death of our parents" I sighed as I didn't even know where to start.

"Humph, Lair." Emily snorted.

"Emmie, I'm very sorry for all that has happened for the last seven years. I know you blame me for not coming to look for the past seven years, but I also have not had it easy in those years." I sighed as I apologized.

"There's no use in apologizing, you're not my brother and you'll never be." Emily groaned and I could feel the pain in her voice.

"Ever since you left me, I have been having nightmares for the past seven years and I haven't been able to sleep comfortably."

"Liar."

"I know you'll take me as a liar, but believe me, Emmie, I wasn't the cause of the death of our parents and also your brother hasn't had it easy. I knew you'll find it hard to forgive me, but I hope you can look for forgiveness."

"You don't deserve to be forgiven, Max. You left your kid sister alone for the past seven years and yet you came looking for forgiveness. Do you think it's gotten easily?" Emily frowned, turning around to look at me.

Her eyes were red and tears were threatening to come down but she was forcefully holding it back. I knew how stubborn she could be.

"You've got to believe me even if just this once I'm very sorry." I sighed.

"Do you think I'll forgive you so easily Max?" Emily yelled, tears flowing down her cheeks like water and I knew she couldn't hold it back anymore.

"Fine, I believe you weren't the cause of the death of our parents. But what about me?" She sobbed as she continued.

"You didn't make any attempt to find me for seven years, even though you knew I left that day out of anger!"

"I spent every day thinking, my brother loves me, he'll call soon to apologize then he'll beg me to come back!"

"Sometimes, I'll even fantasize about you coming to Wales to beg me to go back to Oxford!"

"I spent every f*****g day thinking about you. Thinking that you'll surely call me and beg me to come back to Oxford since you've promised to change!"

"I waited and waited for seven years! Then after seven years you suddenly called and told me you were in Wales!"

"What did you expect me to do? Jump up in the joy that my brother whom I had been expecting for the past seven years was here to pick me. Or what do you want me to do?!"

"All of a sudden you came back and started asking for forgiveness? Do you think you deserve it?"

"All these years, you knew well that I don't have friends and that you were my only friend with whom I do convey my feelings to. You were both a brother and a best friend to me!"

"You knew all these and yet refused to look for me for seven years, and then now you decided to come and ask for forgiveness!"

"It's never done that way!"

Michelle sobbed as she raged. My eyes became red as I listened to it. Each of her words struck my nerves and I knew she was right.

"Do you know how many times I have almost killed myself due to depression? I had to go to therapy for many years before I could suppress it and here you come asking for forgiveness, do you think it's so easy to obtain forgiveness!!"

"Now tell me, what would you have done if you were in my place? Would you still forgive me?" Emily raged as she sobbed.

"I..." I shuttered not knowing what to say next.

"You don't have to say anything, just know that I can't forgive you, and mind you, you're still a stranger to me, don't try to act too formal." Emily sneered and walked away with tears streaming down her face.

At this moment I was in a dilemma as I didn't know what to do next.

Though I had successfully made Emily state all her grievances, I realized how much I had hurt her with my nonchalant attitude. She must have been living in pain for the last seven years and yet I didn't care about her.

It wasn't that I didn't care about her, but the fact that I didn't expect her pain to be this much. I had done too much wrong and I wondered if she was going to forgive me.

It was just too much, I knew I was a bad brother. But what could I do to mend this? I needed Emily to find a way to forgive me.

I couldn't allow it to continue this way. There must be something I could do to make her find some space in her heart for forgiveness.

I was no more than a beast. I was sure that even a beast wouldn't have been that heartless. I just didn't know what to do next. All I could think about was Emily.

She was broken. The pain she was in now was nothing compared to that of seven years ago. Since I had made her burst out with all of her grievances, all the pains she must have been suppressing would burst out and I was sure there would be adverse effects.

What the hell had I done? I hurt my sister this much. She was someone I loved and doted on. How did this even happen? I just didn't want to think about it, but no matter what I couldn't help it.

Emily was literally in pain and I had to do something about it. I didn't know how I did it, but I managed to stagger back to the toy room. Emily's words had just me reflecting on my actions seven years ago and I knew I had to do something about it.

Even though I had pretended not to notice it, I couldn't deny the fact that tears were streaming down my face. Seeing my kid sister cry in pain hurt me badly more than anything and I wanted to badly redeem myself. But now was I going to start? There must be a way and I was sure of it.