After All This Time

I love you

Dear me,

Hey so quick update since I literally wrote in here a couple of hours ago, So I think I might be in love with Chloe Mason. I don't know if she feels the same way. I know she likes me and all but she never told me she loves me. She's the sweetest, most caring girlfriend I could ever ask for. I still don't quite believe that she is actually my girlfriend. My whole life I thought I would never find someone that would like me for me and I got this wonderful girl that first seemed to hate me but it turned out she liked me. Everything about her is so amazing. Her gorgeous blue eyes, her smile, her laugh, her hair (btw if I haven't told you, she has a blue streak in her hair and it's just so perfect). Just everything is perfect about her. Omg I love Chloe, but how do I tell her that? Should I tell her? Anyways I gotta go, sincerely me.

We're on the metro to Camden Town. I'm really excited about it. I looked into some cool places in London before we left home and when I read about this it made me so excited to go here. It seems so much fun, I don't think it's that touristy but it seems so amazing to be there. It's basically just a market I think but it still seems cool.

We get to our stop and we all rush out. The underground is so busy it gives me anxiety to be around so many people. People are pushing everyone so they'd catch the train and won't be late since it goes by fast. Sometimes people get stuck between the doors and I'm very scared that will happen to me. I don't think it would hurt that much but it would just be so embarrassing.

"Okay you can have some free time now but I want you to meet us here again at noon so we can have lunch together." Sherley says, We nod and me and Chloe take off. "Can I go with them?" Steph asks her parents and we wait a little to see what they'd say. I look at Chloe, I'm pretty sure she doesn't want Steph to go with us. "Sure you can." Sherley says. Well damn it. "Please look out for your little sister." Sherley says to Chloe and she nods. "I guess no kissing." Chloe whispers to me. "Guess not." I say back a little disappointed. I wish I could tell Chloe that I love her. I want her to know it even if she doesn't feel the same about me. I know she likes me. I want her to know how I feel.

Me, Chloe and Steph walk around the town and look in the cute shops that we see. Me and Chloe are each holding a hand of Steph. I stop walking suddenly when I see a Harry Potter shop. I look through the window at all the cool stuff. I'm so jealous of London, they have the honour of being the capital of the land where Harry Potter takes place. Okay nerd alert.

"You wanna go in?" Chloe asks me. "Nah I won't be able to buy anything anyways so it doesn't matter." I say and we keep walking. I wish I had money so I could buy something while I'm here but I don't have money so I won't have anything to take with me back home. "I have to go to the bathroom, why don't you sit here and drink a smoothie and I'll be right back." Chloe says as we're standing in front of a smoothie/ice scream shop, she gives us some money her parents gave her and she takes off to find a bathroom. That was kind of weird.

Me and Steph sit down at one of the tables. "Which smoothie do you want?" I ask Steph as I look on the menu card with all the smoothies on it. "I want strawberries!" She says excitedly. I laugh. I order a smoothie for Steph, Chloe and me.

Within 15 minutes Chloe comes back. "I bought a chocolate smoothie for you, I hope it's alright." I tell Chloe. "Thanks, that's great." She says and she sits down next to Steph. We drink our smoothies and we talk about how much fun we're having already in London.

We walk back to the place where Sherley and Jack told us to be for lunch.

"Today was fun." I say to Chloe as we're laying down on the bed in the hotel room. "Yeah, it was fun, would be more fun if I could get to kiss you more." Chloe says and kisses my cheek. "Yeah you're right." I say giggling. "Come on, we're going for a walk, just us two." Chloe says grabbing my hand and dragging me off the bed. Just then Sherley walks into our room and Chloe quickly let's go of my hand.

"You guys okay in here?" She asks checking up on us. "Yes, we're gonna go for a walk now actually." Chloe responds. "Oh okay, don't stay out too late and when you're lost call us okay?" Chloe's mom says. "Yeah will do." Chloe says and she walks out and I follow her.

"Where are we going?" I ask Chloe. She doesn't answer me. "Chloe it seems like the day you took me to the waterfall." I say but still she doesn't answer me and just keeps walking while holding my hand. "I'm not gonna get soaking wet this time I hope." I say and laugh and Chloe laughs too. "No you're not going to be soaking wet, I just want to give you something." Chloe says. "Why can't you give it to me in the hotel?" I ask her. "I want it to be special." She says and she stops walking.

We're on a bridge over a lake and the London eye is in our sighting but it's not that close. "What are we doing here." I ask her. "Today when I saw you looking in that Harry Potter shop, I saw you looking at one thing specifically, when I said I was going to the bathroom, I didn't actually have to go to the bathroom. I went back to the store and I bought you something." She says and grabs something from her back pocket. She hands it to me. It's wrapped in a little bag. "Chloe, you didn't ha-" I start but she cuts me off. "I wanted to, open it." She tells me and smiles. I open the little bag and take out a neckless that has 'Always' on it with a doe. "Chloe-" I start to tear up. "Shh." She grabs the neckless from my hand and she turns me around and puts the neckless on it. "Chloe I love it." I say as I look down to the neckless. I turn around and look at Chloe. "Thank you." I say smiling and kiss her.

It starts to rain really bad suddenly. "We should get back to the hotel." Chloe whispers to me. I hold Chloe's hands and I look at her. I stand on my toes so I could reach her and I kiss her deeply while the rain is pouring down on us. "I love you." I say and kiss her again forgetting the whole world around us is there. Reading or watching Harry Potter used to be the only thing I could forget about the world around me and dive into a new world but when I kiss Chloe it's something completely new and there's no place like it. We break from the kiss and she looks into my eyes with the brightest smile I've ever seen. "I love you too, Emma Miller."