Accidentally in Love

Chapter 15

Jade's POV

I'm sitting down in front of a table in the library with my biology book around me. It's been three days, Ryder and I are kind of having a bad rough relationship. I just dont know how to tell him my fear and my secret. That's all. Even though it looks simpler if I tell him everything but I dont know how to do that.

I exhale and turn my face to my book and continue finishing my homework. But suddenly a shadow of a pink teddy bear hold a stalk of red rose is in front of me. And someone place it right in front of me.

I turn my face slowly and Ryder is smiling at me as he is standing opposite me until he sit down opposite me and holding that pink teddy bear. See? He is always can be cute and sweet at the same time.

"For me?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Yes as my apologize if I did a mistake." Ryder grins at me.

"Ryder.... I cant." I shake my head.

"Why? Tell me what did I do? Did I hurt you or something?" Ryder raises his eyebrows at me.

"You did nothing. I just cant." I shake my head and close my book then take my book and walk out from the library in hurry.

I dont know how to tell him. This is just freak me out and I cant handle that. And he is different and I love him. I know that avoiding him like this is really wrong but... I have no choice.

"Jade, what's wrong? You dont like this teddy? Okay I can buy you another bigger one. And I didnt give this to Marley. Just tell me what's going on?" Ryder blocks my way.

"This is really sweet but I just cant." I shake my head.

"Is there anything you want to tell me? You can tell me. We have to be honest to each other. That's the relationship key." Ryder says to me.

"Ryder, I...I...."

"Come here." Ryder takes my hand and walk lead me.

I just let my head down and follow him until we walk to the field and Ryder turn his way to the bleachers and sit down on the back row.

"You dont bring any picnic stuff around here, arent you?" I ask him and sit down opposite him.

"No. I know you hide something from me but you can always tell me what is that." Ryder raises his eyebrows at me. "Okay why dont we tell each other secret that we never tell anyone else before?"

"You want to tell me about your another bed sheet?" I chuckle.

"Probably." Ryder chuckles. "Okay, tell me everything."

"I'm afraid." I said to him.

"With who, baby? Did someone hurt you or something?" Ryder raises his eyebrows at me.

"I'm afraid with myself." I let my head down then turn my face at him. "You've been so sweet and so cute to me and all those guys I ever dated were jerks and you arent them. And I'm trying to fight with my instinct and myself. I'm afraid if I hurt you, I dont wanna hurt you so I'm just afraid but you-you always can make feel loved and special but my fear always coming down and scared me." I'm sobbing.

"Do you have any intend to hurt me?" Ryder raises his eyebrows at me.

"No." I shake my head. "But I'm just afraid if I do that one day." Tears slowly fall down to my face.

"Then dont be afraid." Ryder pulls my body and hugs me. "I didnt know that I'm really matter to you until you afraid if you gonna hurt me and you mean a lot to me."

I push his body away slowly and wipe my tears away. "You're special and I know that I'm in love with you and everytime you make some sweet and cute things to me, my inner fears always come to me and scared me and I cant handle that and I-I didnt know how to tell this to you so I kept it but it was wrong."

"You're the most amazing girl that I've ever met. Seriously you are." Ryder wipe my tears away. "You hurt yourself because you dont wanna hurt me. Well, from now on, I will stop make cute things for you so you wont be scared anymore."

"Dont." I shake my head. "Keep doing those cute things. I never had a cute relationship before." I smile at him.

"Then dont be afraid. There is nothing to be afraid of." Ryder smiles back at me and holds my hands.

"I'm trying to. I'm sorry for avoiding you." I said to him.

"At least I got a reason now and you told me your secret." Ryder kisses my forehead.

"Now your turn." I said to him.

"My turn? Okay well...."

The bells rings.

"Well, we have glee club now." Ryder says to me and stand up from his seat.

"You havent tell me yet." I groan.

"What about my home after school? My parents gonna work a bit late tonight so we can cuddle and tell each other story." Ryder smirks at me.

"Okay but I dont want something more than that." I said to him and stand up from my seat.

"I'm not your brothers, baby." Ryder chuckles and holds my hand. "Here. This is yours." Ryder give me that pink teddy to me.

"Thank you. I will call him Mr. Lynn." I giggle as we walk together in the hallways next to each other.

"Pink Teddy is the better one." Ryder chuckles.

I chuckle and keep walking with him as he hold my hand and my other hand hold this pink teddy until we both walk enter the choir room and Mr. Schue arent coming yet so everyone just talking to each other.

Ryder and I walk to the back seat and sit down next to each other on the back seat. I cross my legs on my chair and place that teddy on my lap. "I guess that this pink one is kinda too childish." I said to Ryder.

"Really? Last night, I though it was white." Ryder says to me.

"Are you colourblind? Ugh forget it but thank you once again." I smile at him and give him a quick kiss on his lips.

"You're welcome." Ryder smiles back at me.

I turn my face to the front until Mr. Schue walks in and smiles at us. "Looking good, Unique." Mr. Schue smiles at Unique. "You, too, Tina. Very Jules Verne." He chuckles.

Everyone just raise their eyebrows. Yesterday he stormed out at us and now he is being so nice at us and I dont understand what he just mean. The others sit down on their seat and look at him.

"Hey, Blaine. Sam." Mr. Schue smiles at Blaine and Sam.

"I'm Evan. Sam moved to Alaska." Sam simply said and sit down on the front row.

"Oh. Well-well, tell him he's welcome back anytime." Mr. Schue says to Sam until he standing in front of us and looking at us. "So just about 20 years ago, I was sitting right where you are now. I was co-captain of the soccer team with a forehead full of acne and a dream of being the next Vanilla Ice. And standing right here was Mrs. Adler. She constantly mumbled to herself and she stuffed used Kleenex up her sleeves. We all were convinced that she was crazy. But you know what? That's why we loved her because we were crazy, too. This is the room that always felt like home. Maybe because we knew Lillian Adler loved music almost as much as she loved us.And that's how I feel about you. Every one of you. And-and I'm sorry if I made any of you feel like you don't have a voice in this room. You do." Mr. Schue smiling at us.

We just smiling back at him. Well, at least he finally realize that what he has done yesterday about being acceptable.

"All right, down to business. Marley, you're up." Mr. Schue points at Marley.

"Okay. I haven't quite memorized Dream Weaver yet, but I think I have "Sweet Dreams." Marley stands up from her seat and says to Mr. Schue.

"Didn't I tell you? Those are out. I want you to teach us one of your original songs. If that's okay." Mr. Schue smiles at Marley.

"I'd love that." Marley grins happily.

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Now we are in the auditorium. Marley said that she wanna teach us to write a song like what she did and I never do that before. Literally.

Marley is standing on the stage and we just sitting down on the stage line. Well, actually I'm standing in front of it and Ryder is sitting down behind me and pput his hand around my shouder.

"Well, to write a song, sometimes you dont need to write it down on a paper. You can just let it out by singing it out." Marley says to us.

"Like you have bacteria inside your stomach." I mumbled.

Jake cover my whole face with his hand and rolls his eyes at me. But Ryder pushes his hand away and I just glare at him and roll my eyes.

"Can you just give us an example?" Mr. Schue asks Marley.

Marley nodded and turn her face to the band and they start playing the music instrumental and Marley start singing.

Marley:

Who's to say,

Who's not okay?

The breakaways,

Will outlast, will outlast

Jake stand up from his seat and start singing then he hi-five with Ryder and walk to the stage and join Marley.

Jake:

Sticks and stones,

Won't break these bones

They're just some drones,

To get past, I'll get past

Unique walk to the stage and smiling at them and join them to sing this original song.

Unique with Jake:

Feeling downcast,

Like an outcast

Underdogs, it's time to bite back!

Kitty and I grin at each other and hi-five then we make a little run to the stage and singing with the others until they one by one follow us.

Marley with Kitty and New Directions:

We are, we are, we are, (Marley: Are!)

Stronger from every scar, (Marley: Scar!)

Brighter than any star! (Marley: Star!)

Marley with Jake, Kitty, and New Directions:

We're the outcast! O-o-outcast!

There's nothing you can say, (Marley: Say!)

To blow our dreams away! (Marley: Away!)

We rise above the fray! (Marley: Fray!)

We're the outcast! O-o-outcast!

Ryder with Jade:

In this skin, I'm better than,

I've ever been, so take that, yeah, take that

Jake with Marley:

The test of time will show who shines

It will be mine

Yeah, the last laugh, the last laugh

Unique with Jake (New Directions):

Feel (Feel) ing (Ing) down (Down) cast (Cast), (Marley:You're feeling)

Like (Like) an (An) out (Out) cast (Cast) (Marley: Like an outcast)

Un (Un) der (Der) dogs (Dogs), it's (It's) (Marley: Yeah!) time (Time) to

Jake and Unique with New Directions:

It's time to bite back!

Marley with Kitty and New Directions:

We are, we are, we are (Marley: Are!)

Stronger from every scar, (Marley: Scar!)

Brighter than any star! (Marley: Star!)

Marley with Jake, Kitty, and New Directions:

We're the outcast! O-o-outcast!

There's nothing you can say, (Marley: Say!)

To blow our dreams away! (Marley: Away!)

We rise above the fray! (Marley: Fray!)

We're the outcast! O-o-outcast!

Jake and Marley:

I'd rather be outrageous than,

Jade and Ryder:

Just another dull cliché again!

Jake and Marley:

I'd rather be a rainbow than,

Marley and Unique:

Just some shade of gray!

Ryder (New Directions):

We are, we are, we are (Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah)

Stronger from every scar, (Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah) (Marley: Yeah...)

Brighter than any star (Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah) (Marley:Yeah...)

The outcast (Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah)

Jake:

The outcast...

New Directions:

Oh, whoa, whoa!

Oh, whoa, whoa!

Marley with Jake, Kitty, and New Directions:

Stronger from every scar!

Kitty with Jake and New Directions (Marley):

The outcast! (Outcast!)

O-o-outcast! (Outcast!)

New Directions:

Oh, whoa, whoa!

Oh, whoa, whoa!

Jake and Kitty with New Directions (Marley):

(Oooh!) Brighter than any star! (Oooh!)

The outcast!

Marley with New Directions:

O-o-outcast! (Jake: The outcast...)

New Directions:

Oh, whoa, whoa!

Oh, whoa, whoa!

Marley with Jake, Kitty, and New Directions:

We are, we are, we are, (Unique: Yes, we are!)

The outcast! O-o-outcast!

We ended up our song with make show circle and huddle up and hi-five at each other. Yeah we finally can make one of our original song by ourselves.

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"So this is my room. Stay here, I'm gonna take some drinks." Ryder open his room door for me and let me in.

"Dont put any poison in that drink okay." I said to him and get into his room.

"I wont." Ryder chuckles and walk away.

I walk to his room and look around. As big as my room actually but he sleep here alone meanwhile Jake and I share a room when actually we also can have our own room.

I place my ransel on the ground and take off my shoes and push my body to his bed. I turn my face to his side table and see Ryder's old picture when he was younger and toddler also baby. That's cute.

I take his baby picture and looking at it while I'm laying my body on his bed. He already become really cute since he was little even until now he is still the cutest and the sweetest one.

"What are you looking at?" Ryder walks in and bring a bottle of cokes with two red cups also some bags of potato chips.

I sit up on his bed and put that picture back to his side table. "Your baby picture is really cute." I giggle.

Ryder sits down in front of me and place those food on his study table. "I think you are the cutest one." Ryder smiles at me and cup my cheek.

"Well, you might be right but I'm already hot since I was baby so deal with that." I smirk at him.

"I love you so much." Ryder smiles at me.

I raise my eyebrows and smile back at him. "I love you too."

Ryder is still smilling at me and cups my cheek until he push his face closer to me and kisses me. I cant help it and kiss him back while cupping his cheek until I lay my body on his bed with him ontop of me and we have a make out and this is first time for us since we had this relationship.

We finally stop and looking at each other then smiling at each other. Ryder kisses my forehead then lay his body next to me. "The things that I love the most about you besides your genius brain is your lips. Since the first I kissed you, I cant pull it off." Ryder says to me.

"Yeah? You kissed me on New Year Eve but on Valentine's week you kissed Marley." I simply said.

"Okay, how many times I should apologize to you about that? You said that was fine because we werent dating that day." Ryder turn his face at me.

"You dont need to apologize. I'm just the one who cant easily forget it. Or maybe this is what people called jealous? I dont know." I chuckle.

"You never get jealous with your ex-boyfriend?" Ryder chuckles at me.

"No, never. I didnt love them so when I got bored, I dumped them. I dated them for chill." I said to Ryder.

"Will you dump me when you get bored with me?" Ryder raises his eyebrows at me.

"Depends." I chuckle.

"I wont make you bored." Ryder smiles at me. "You wanna watch movie?"

"I though we are here to tell each other story and I just realized that I've been talking too much so now is your turn." I said to Ryder and sit down in front of him.

Ryder let out a sigh and sit down in front of me. "Did I ever tell you that you're kind of my first love and my first girlfriend?"

"I already know about that without you tell me." I grin at him.

"How could you know that? I never told anyone this before." Ryder chuckles.

"The way you kissed me for the first time really showed me that you never kiss a girl before but I knew that you ever kissed Marley for the Grease show but seriously it was like amateurs." I chuckle.

"So you're proffesional huh?" Ryder chuckles.

"What do you think?" I raise my eyebrows.

"When you asked me that I'm wondering about how many ex you have now." Ryder says to me.

"Twelve." I simply answer.

"Babe, seriously?" Ryder frowns.

"Haha of course not. Only ten. But I never cheat on them and I wont cheat on you. Cheating isnt in my book." I said to him.

"I wont cheat on you either." Ryder half-smiled at me.

"Okay tell me your secret. I already saw this Star Wars sheet then I knew that I'm your first girlfriend then what else?" I raise my eyebrows at him.

"There is one more thing that I never tell anyone before not even my parents." Ryder exhales.

"Well, that's really private, I guess. You dont have to tell me if you dont want to." I said to him.

"No. I want to be honest with you. So.... when I was 11, I was molested by my babysitter. She just walked in on me in the shower, and she touched me a bit." Ryder says with his head down.

"An old woman or a young teeanger?" I raise my eyebrows.

"She was like 17 or 18. I dont know. I was freaked out but I didnt know what to do." Ryder says to me.

"Why you never tell anyone about this? We can report that. It was seduced and molested and those are kind of violence." I hold his hand.

"I dont know. I... It kind of messed me up a bit. Like, I have trouble trusting girls because of it, I think." Ryder exhales.

"But you told me this. Ryder, since the first time I know that you had so many things you hide and I never convience you to tell me everything because if you dont want to, that's your choice but sometimes if you keep your deep dark fears alone, it will hurt you. And sometimes some people rather to be in between. Or didnt tell anyone because there was nobody to trust." I said to him.

"I trust you. And I just wanna be honest with you and I dont want hide anything from you. I'm dyslexic and that's me. I just want you to accept me for the way I am. That's all." Ryder half-smiled at me.

"If you need someone to lean on. I'm right here." I smile at him.

"I need someone to cuddle. You want?" Ryder smiles back at me.

"Hmm... I guess, I'll think about it." I chuckle.

"You dont need to think, I know what's inside your mind." Ryder grabs my body and pull me closer to him.

"What?"

"Me. Obviously." Ryder chuckles.

"Dont be so over confidence." I laugh.

"Well, I got the hottest girl in McKinley, she is co-captain of the cheerios and I can say that she is also the most popular girl one that every guy been talking and crazy about." Ryder says to me.

"Feeling better now after telling me your secret?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Yeah." Ryder nodded. "You're the best girlfriend ever. I dont need someone to give me advice but I just need someone who want to being quiet and listen to me."

I turn my face at him and smile at him then cup his cheek and kiss him softly until he hold the back of my head and kisses me back. "Okay let's cuddle and watch movie. You must be have something interesting to watch." I grin at him.

"And you always know that." Ryder giggles and stand up from his bed and walk to his tv cabinet and put the dvd to the dvd player.

After that he walk back to his bed and sit down behind me and put his hand around my belly as I lean my head on his chest and feel his big arms around me.

"Sometimes when I hold your hand, I just wanna eat you and feel hungry because your arms is so big." I simply said.

"I got this arms to hug you and make you feel warm around me." Ryder simply said.

"Sweet." I giggle.

Ryder just giggle and pulls my body closer to him. Sometimes I've been thinking how could I fell in love with a guy like him who at first are not really my type.

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Now we are in gymnasium and having a secret glee club meeting that Blaine held. I dont know what's going on now. Last time we held this, Mr. Schue stormed out and now I dont know what's next. Besides this gymnasium isnt that empty. The cheerios and the marching band also some another club are here.

"I hold in my hand our competition's setlist." Blaine grins at us.

"Isnt that illegal?" I raise my eyebrows.

"I hacked it. So thank me later." Blaine grins at us. "Alright The Housierdaddies will sing Clarity by Zedd."

"Easy one." I mumbled.

"And Wings by Little Mix." Blaine added.

"I lived that song." I simply said.

"We can even sing that song better." Kitty smirks at the others. I smirk back at her and hi-five with her.

"Okay but you have to see their moves." Blaine says to us and plays a video from his laptop.

"That's basic level. Even under level one." I said to him.

"Basic ground floor level." Kitty simply said.

"And we still can win regionals as long as no one fainted. No offense." I said to them.

"True." Kitty nodded as agree.

"I dont get it. Why you both so confidence with this?" Tina frowns at us.

"They stole our nationals champs moves." I said to them.

"And by nationals which mean the cheerios nationals champs and we lived that song. So what else? Jade and I can easily teach Marley, Tina, and Unique for the booty shaking like that and those dance move even better than that." Kitty says to them.

"Without twerking obviously." I simply said.

"Like?" Blaine raise his eyebrows at us.

Kitty and I look at each other and stand up from our seat. We cross our pinkie and walk to the middle of gymnasium and turn our face to the marching band and the cheerios until they standing around us and the marching band play their drums.

Jade and Kitty with The Cheerios (The Cheerios):

(Ah-ooo!) Mama told me not to waste my life (Ah-ooo!)

She said spread your wings my little butterfly (Ah-ooo!)

Don't let what they say keep you up at night (Ah-ooo!)

And if they give you hell,

Then they can walk on by

Jade (with The Cheerios):

My feet, feet can't touch the ground,

And I can't hear a sound

But you just keep on (running up your mouth, yeah!)

Kitty (with The Cheerios):

Walk, walk on over there,

'Cause I'm too fly to (care... Oh, yeah!)

Jade and Kitty with The Cheerios:

Your words don't mean a thing

I'm not listening

Keep talking, all I know is,

Mama told me not to waste my life

She said spread your wings my little butterfly

Don't let what they say keep you up at night,

And they can't detain you,

'Cause wings are made to fly

No, we don't let nobody bring us down

No matter what you say it won't hurt me

Don't matter if I fall from the sky,

These wings are made to fly

Jade (with The Cheerios):

Hey, hey

I'm firing up on that runway

I know we're gonna get there someday

But we don't need no ready steady go, no

Kitty (with The Cheerios):

Talk, talk turns into air

And I don't even (care... Oh, yeah!)

Jade and Kitty with The Cheerios (The Cheerios):

Your words don't mean a thing

I'm not listening

Keep talking, all I know is,

Mama told me not to waste my life

She said spread your wings my little butterfly

Don't let what they say keep you up at night,

And they can't detain you,

'Cause wings are made to fly

No, we don't let nobody bring us down

No matter what you say it won't hurt me (And I, and I)

Don't matter if I fall from the sky, (And I, and I)

These wings are made to (fly)

Jade (with The Cheerios):

I don't need no one saying,

(Hey!)

(Hey!)

(Hey!)

(Hey!)

I don't hear no one saying,

Kitty (The Cheerios):

(Hey!) Hey!

(Hey!) Hey!

(Hey!) Hey!

(Hey!)

Jade and Kitty with The Cheerios (The Cheerios):

You better keep on walking

I don't wanna hear your talking, boy

You better keep on walking

I don't wanna hear your talking, (boy)

Jade and Kitty (with The Cheerios):

Your (words don't mean a thing)

I'm (not listening)

They're just like (water off my) wings!

Kitty and The Cheerios (Jade):

Mama told me not to waste my life (Ooo, whoa!)

She said spread your wings my little butterfly (My little butterfly!)

Don't let what they say keep you up at night,

(with Jade: And they can't detain you!)

'Cause wings are made to (with Jade: Fly!)

And we don't let nobody bring us down (We don't let nobody, nobody!)

No matter what you say it won't hurt me (No!)

Don't matter if I fall from the sky, (Oh, whoa!)

These wings are made to, (These wings are made to)

Jade and Kitty with The Cheerios:

Fly!

And we don't let nobody bring us down,

No matter what you say it won't hurt me

Don't matter if I fall (Kitty: this sky!) (The Cheerios: from the sky)

These wings are made to fly!

We ended up our song with Kitty and I standing in the middle and those cheerios are around us. Yeah we rules this cheerios now especially since coach Sylvester gone and coach Washington isnt better than her. And last but not least we ended up our song with full of clapping, cheering, and whooping from all those people here. Even I can see some basketball player who were warming up on the corner cant stop smirking at me.

"So, what are you gonna say?" Kitty smirks at the rest glee club.

"You both can teach the girls to dance like that." Blaine says to Kitty and I.

"Okay, school studio after all the classes end." I said to them.

The bell rings. I take my bagpack and take my mineral bottle water and drink that as the others start walk away from this gymnasium to choir room for glee club.

"Those jerks cant stop smirking at you." Kitty says to me and points to the some basketball players who smirks at me.

I roll my eyes and turn my face to the front. "Screw them." I simply said and walk with Kitty.

"You dont see anyone else since you dated a guy with oldschool Justin Bieber hair." Kitty simply said.

"I used to didnt trust you but since you told me about Ryder and Marley kissed. I trust you now and since you dated my big brother, you changed into a bit better." I said to Kitty.

"Puck dumped me. He is too hot to pull of but he dumped last Friday and I'm single now. I dated Jake and he dumped me and Puck also the same." Kitty says to me.

"Well, Puckerman are dumper. We never been dumped but we dumped anyone else. Just go with that. But I'm sorry, there are only two guys in Puckermans." I said to her.

"So when you will dump Ryder?" Kitty smirks at me.

"Never." I shake my head.

Kitty just chuckles as we both keep walking until a jock blocks our way. "Hi Kitty. And hey hottie." He smirks at me.

"Hey. Have fun." Kitty grins at him and walk away.

I raise my eyebrows to that guy as he is still smirk at me. "So... I didnt know that you..."

"She had a boyfriend so back off." Ryder suddenly interupt us and takes my hand and walks lead me. "He is the fiffteen guys who were trying to tease you since we were dating."

"You count it?" I ask him.

"Because I have to deal with those guys every day and they cant stop teasing or smirking at my hot girlfriend." Ryder says as we walk enter the choir room.

"I can dump them." I simply said and sit down next to him on the back row.

"But dont try to dump me." Ryder simply said and put his hand around my seat.

"Guys, we got a problem." Mr. Schue walks in. "Her name is Frida Romero. With regionals only a few weeks away, I went to scout out the competition. The Hoosierdaddies have a secret weapon. She's a tiny little sophomore, never competed before, but her voice could fill an arena. I mean, it's big. And the only way to beat them is to be huge. I'm talking stadium huge. Epic songs that will blow the heads off of 100,000 people at a time." Mr. Schue says to us.

Suddenly the power went out. I look around and this is really went out.

"Zombie apocalypse." Sam says to us.

"Or Beyonce's halftime show." Unique simply said.

"Children, this power outage is not an emergency. Nor is it an excuse to go wilding through the hallways. While we're investigating the root of this near calamity, classes will continue and your brains are to remain in the on positions.nIf the darkness persists, candles and flashlights will be distributed based on grade point average.

I now have to turn off the P.A. system so I can save our precious generator resources for the coffee machine and my plug-in lower back vibrator." Principal Figgins says from the microphone.

"Okay, that puts a damper on our stadium songs." Artie frowns.

"Time for a new appropriate lesson. Ladies and gentlemen, it's unplugged week." Mr. Schue grins at us.