Accidentally in Love

Chapter 16

"I guess I should start being honest with all people in glee club." Ryder says to me.

"You want to tell them about your secret?" I raise my eyebrows at him.

"Look I trust so bad and I'm glad that I can tell you everything but to be in a team, we have to be honest to each other just like how I be honest with you." Ryder holds my hand.

"Well, what kind of secret you want to tell them?" I ask him.

"I'll tell them that I'm a gay." Ryder simply said.

"What? You used me?" I frown.

"Haha of course not. If I were gay, I wouldnt fight so hard to get you. Besides if I were gay, we wouldnt make out and I wouldnt give you many things." Ryder grins at me.

"Ugh I though you were really gay and you used me." I sigh.

"Dont be freak out." Ryder chuckles. "I'm just gonna tell them about my dyslexic and the things that I told you last week." Ryder says to me.

"You sure?" I raise my eyebrows.

"I ever been catfished by someone else and it sucks and since then I kinda hard to trust someone but the voice inside me told me that I have to tell my secret to people I know in real not only by online." Ryder says to me.

"You never tell me about that." I said to him and shut my locker.

"Never told anyone before but I told you now." Ryder says to me.

"See? There are many things that you hide from me." I lean my body against my locker.

"There is nothing more I hide from you. I just want to take it slow and you said yourself that you dont want to force me to tell you something that I dont want to tell." Ryder says.

"Yeah but sometimes it makes me think that you didnt trust me at all." I let out a sigh.

"I trust you so bad okay. You're really matter for me. You're mean something special to me. I told you everything before I tell anyone else." Ryder rubs my cheek.

"I'm just feel bad for you about what happened with your baby sitter and then catfished." I half-smiled at him.

"But now I got you here and I will tell you everything include my bed sheet." Ryder smiles at me.

"And those cute baby picture." I giggle.

"I will replace that baby picture with your picture." Ryder chuckles.

"Aww sweet. I will place your picture under my table so no mice want to get in." I grin at him.

"That is unacceptable." Ryder simply said.

"Just kidding. What is your sense of humor huh." I laugh and start walking while holding flashlight.

"Dont start walk away like that, this is dark and I dont want to see another guy kidnap you because I'm not around." Ryder walks next to me and put his hand around my shoulder.

"Ow protective much." I turn my face at him and pinch his cheek.

"Ouch your nail." Ryder groans.

"I'm sorry." I said to him.

We keep walking in the hallways until we enter the choir room. Ryder and I sit down next to each other and I turn my face to his cheek also my flashlight.

"Babe, you were trying to blinded me?" Ryder cover his eyes with his hand.

"Jade is always wrong." I mumbled and place my flashlight on an empty seat next to me.

"Just kidding. Where is your sense of humor huh." Ryder smirks at me.

"Not funny." I simply said and turn my face to my nail.

"So you're the one who mad at me now huh?" Ryder pinches my cheeks and make me facing him.

"You want me to claw you again?" I raise my eyebrows.

"No more." Ryder giggles and shakes his head.

I roll my eyes and turn my face to the front as Mr. Schue give us some flashlight to spread it around us so we have get some lights.

"All right, I know these conditions aren't ideal, but I want to thank you guys for toughing it out. And we have our first volunteer, who is going to show us how to get back to basics and really strip it down. So, let's give it up for Sam." Mr. Schue says to us and sit down on the front row. Sam walks to the front holding his guitar anf sit down on a bench. "Right. Uh, take it away." Mr. Schue says to Sam.

"Thanks. Um, well, when Mr. Schue started talking about being big, I started thinking about Phil Spector's legendary Wall of Sound, and how he would use, like, thousands of instruments so his songs could really fill a stadium. And then I started thinking about stripping, um, out all that extra noise to get to the essence of the song. Plus, my mom said that I was conceived to this song, so I kind of literally owe my existence to the Righteous Brothers. Anyways, uh, here it goes." Sam says to us.

Sam:

You never close your eyes anymore when I kiss your lips

And there's no tenderness like before in your fingertips.

You're trying hard not to show it

But baby, baby I know it

Ryder suddenly join Sam sing this song on the refrain part. I turn my face at him and smiles at him as he is still singing and smile back at me.

Ryder and Sam:

You've lost that lovin' feeling,

Whoa, that lovin' feeling,

You've lost that lovin' feeling,

Now it's gone...gone...gone...wooooooh.

Sam:

Now there's no welcome look in your eyes

When I reach for you.

And now you're starting to criticize little things I do.

It makes me just feel like crying

'Cause baby, something beautiful's dying

Ryder and Sam:

You lost that lovin' feeling,

Whoa, that lovin' feeling,

You've lost that lovin' feeling,

Now it's gone...gone...gone...woooooah

We had a love, a love, a love you don't find everyday

Sam:

Oh, babe

Ryder:

Oh, baby

Ryder and Sam:

So don't, don't, don't, don't let it slip away

Sam:

Baby (Ryder: Baby!) Yeah

Ryder and Sam with New Directions:

Bring back that lovin' feeling,

Whoa, that lovin' feeling

Bring back that lovin' feeling,

'Cause it's gone...gone...gone,

and I can't go on,

Sam:

Whoa, oh, whoa, oh, whoa

They ended up their song with applauding and smiling from us. That was really beautiful. I smile at Ryder and lean my head on his shoulder.

"Wow, you see that, guys? That's the kind of power and passion that we need for regionals. Good job, Sam. Um, next up, uh, Artie. Show us what you got." Mr. Schue says to us.

Artie wheel his wheelchair to the front of piano and try to play it but then he shake his head. "I'm sorry, Mr. Schue. I can't do Miguel without my synth. I needs my synth!" Artie shouts.

"No, you needs to man up." Sam frowns.

"Excuse me?" Artie raises his eyebrows.

"You know how often the power went off at my house, how many times my dad couldn't afford to pay the stupid bill?" Sam raises his eyebrows at Artie.

"Relax, dude." Artie says to Sam.

"I had to entertain my brother and sister with just my guitar and my voice, and we didn't have any synth. I mean, like, I saw you texting during my song, and it's not just you; It's all of us. We're so focused on being plugged in to the Twitterverse and the Blogosphere that we don't appreciate what's actually right in front of us. And I think that that's just sad and lame." Sam says to us.

The bells rings.

I take my flashlight and stand up from my seat and Ryder holds my hand. We then walk out from the choir room and holding hand each other.

"Still want to tell the others about your secret?" I ask Ryder.

"I have to. I dont want to live in the dark anymore." Ryder says to me.

"We lived in the dark now. Without electricity and it sucks." I simply said and turn my way my locker and open my locker.

"You're funny." Ryder giggles.

"I know I am." I grin at him. "Wanna come over to my house? Jake has his dance class and my mom must be work overlate." I said to him.

"Sure but cook me something." Ryder smiles at me.

"I will." I nodded and shut my locker.

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"You know what my cheek is still kinda hurt when I wash my face." Ryder walk out from my bathroom.

I turn my face to my nail and shake my head. "But I dont wanna cut my nail. It's beautiful. I got my nails with black nail polish."

"But be careful when you wanna pinch someone. It can make me bleed if you claw me." Ryder sit down next to me.

"How many times I have to say sorry to you?" I said sadly. "Claw me again if you want."

"I dont wanna do that to you." Ryder shakes his head.

"Then what should I do to make you forgive me?" I raise my eyebrows.

"Hmm..."

"You think too much." I simply said and kiss his cheek.

Ryder turn his face at me and raises his eyebrows at me. I smile at him and chuckle. "That was the second time you kissed my cheek."

"Forgive me now?" I grin at him.

"I never mad at you, baby." Ryder give me a quick kiss on my lips.

"Okay that's good because we're gonna watch this movie. The Reader. I repeat, it's The Reader not The Ryder." I chuckle and put the dvd into my dvd player.

"You know that you really know how to make me laugh." Ryder chuckles.

"And I'm really proud with that." I grin at him and sit down next to him.

"Things going better between you and Kitty now." Ryder says to me.

"I never fight with her. I mean I made fun of her but since she told me the truth about you kissed Marley and since that day I decided to trust her besides nowadays she talked s**t and still being a b***h but a bit little better now, I guess." I said to Ryder.

"How could she knew that I kissed Marley?" Ryder frowns at me.

"I dont know." I shrug. "Maybe Marley told her." I turn my face to the tv screen and eat my popcorn.

"And you still mad at me about that?" Ryder asks me.

"No, I'm not." I shake my head. "Well, it's still running in my mind but back then I have no rights for that. I got mono and you were lonely and you did all those valentine thing to her so..."

"I'm sorry. I promise I will never ever lie to you again as long as you wont lie to me." Ryder rubs my cheek.

"I'm a b***h. Hot-mean b***h, I was a player and I love dump every guy buy I never cheat on or lie." I said to him.

"You will dump me?" Ryder asks me.

"Depends. If you can make me bored, I will dump you." I smirk at him.

"And that's really mean." Ryder chuckles.

"I though you were saying you love me." I simply said and turn my face to the tv screen.

"I do love you." Ryder moves his seat closer to me and lean his head on my shoulder.

"Aww you're cute." I chuckle and rub his cheek. "And get the hell way off my shoulder, you're heavy." I simply said.

"Fine." Ryder sighs and leave my shoulder. "But I think this is the better one." Ryder pulls my body and make me lean my head on his chest and he is hugging me.

I'm just holding the bowl of popcorn and show that bowl to him. "It's little dirty and sensual but this is better than The Wolf of Wall Street because this is Kate Winslet with another guy." I said.

"Are we going to watch Titanic afterwards?" Ryder chuckles.

"I love Titanic but trust me it's boring. I'd rather watch porn then." I simply said.

"Stupid." Ryder laughs and cover my mouth with his hand. I'm just laugh and push his hand away slowly and eating my popcorn and watch the movie together with him.

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Glee Club

"Boo!" I'm playing with my flashlight and trying to scared Blaine.

"I'm not five years old boy." Blaine rolls his eyes.

"Boo! Boo!" I smirk at Blaine.

"I'm sorry, my twin sister who is younger five minutes than me it's kinda crazy, sometimes." Jake says to Blaine.

I roll my eyes and didnt says anything and turn my face away and suddenly it's being quiet. I turn off my flashlight. Then... "Boo!" I shocked Jake and he is really jumps from his seat. I cant help it but laugh out loud.

"Stop playing with that flashlight or the battery will die and you dont get any light and you will be afraid." Jake says to me.

"I'm not afraid of anything." I frown at him.

Suddenly my flashlights is turn off and I guess what Jake said just right, the battery out of power because I cant stop playing with it. I roll my eyes and let out a sigh. Then I feel some cold air blowing through my skin exactly my neck skin and I know who did this. Jake of course.

"You make me turn on not make me afraid, idiot." I roll my eyes.

"You scared me." Jake simply said.

"Well, actually I wont get turn on with a guy with gross third n****e called Molip. Mole on the hip. Besides I've seen you naked everyday, Obama's White Chocolate Cookies." I roll my eyes.

"Alright, everyone Ryder has something to show right now." Mr. Schue walks into the choir room.

Actually we already sit down on the front and make a circle together with the full orchestra around us and I dont know what song Ryder gonna sing to us since he didnt tell me. And I'm just sitting down on a sofa next to Jake and place my legs on his lap like a boss. I'm a boss in our house when my mom isnt home.

"I know these songs are supposed to be unplugged, but I asked Mr. Schue permission to do a full orchestration." Ryder says to us.

"Which I gladly agreed to, because Ryder eloquently told me that what he wanted to unplug were his feelings." Mr. Schue says to us.

"I want to really reveal myself through this song. And frankly, I think I kind of need the support to get there. I'd like to dedicate this song to all of us, and for all the slushees real and proverbial that we've all taken to the face over the years." Ryder says to us.

Ryder:

When your day is long

And the night, the night is yours alone

When you're sure you've had enough of this life

Well, hang on

Don't let yourself go

'Cause everybody cries

And everybody hurts, sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong

Now it's time to sing along

When your day is night alone, hold on

When you feel like letting go, hold on

If you think you've had too much of this life

Well, hang on

'Cause everybody hurts

Take comfort in your friends

Everybody hurts

Don't throw your hand, oh no

Don't throw your hand

If you feel like you're alone

No, no, no, you're not alone

If you're on your own in this life

The days and nights are long

When you think you've had too much of this life

To hang on

Well, everybody hurts

Sometimes, everybody cries

Everybody hurts, sometimes

And everybody hurts, sometimes

So hold on

"That was amazing, Ryder. You certainly unplugged whatever you were looking to let out." Mr. Schue says to Ryder.

"I didn't want to just get them out. I wanted to get in touch with them so I could maybe have the balls to tell you guys something.

Something that's pretty hard to talk about." Ryder half-smiled at us.

I nodded and half-smiled at him. Yeah he planed to tell everyone about his deep dark secret that he ever told before.

"It's cool, bro. You can let it out." Jake says to him.

"First of all. I'm dyslexic. I cant read words. I knew that when we did Dynamic Duets week. I told the twins I cant read then they told Finn and Finn helped me out. It was kinda embarassed to tell you guys this actually so I kept it and only me, Finn, and the twins who knew this." Ryder half-smiled at us.

"You shouldnt be ashamed of who you are. Nobody's perfect. We all have vulnerabilities." Blaine says to him.

"And there is one more. I've actually only told one person this. Not even my parents know. I only told Jade and I dont want to keep a secret anymore. So before this gets out, I want to be the one to open the box.

When I was 11, I was molested by my babysitter. She just walked in on me in the shower, and she touched me a bit." Ryder says sadly.

"Wait, hold on. Did you just say "she"?" Sam frowns.

"Like, as in a girl? Like, a teenage girl?" Artie asks Ryder.

"Yeah, she was, like, 17, 18." Ryder shrugs.

"Dude, you were 11 and some hot 18-year-old plays with your junk? I'd have killed for that." Sam says to Ryder.

"Why are you ashamed of this?" Artie asks him.

"I don't know, I-It kind of messed me up a bit. Like, I have trouble trusting girls because of it, I think." Ryder says to us.

"Guys, this is not something to high-five about." Mr. Schue says to Sam and Artie. "Ryder, I'm sorry, but I'm obligated to report it." Mr. Schue says to Ryder.

"Whatever, she already got locked up. She was caught doing it to some other kid." Ryder shrugs.

"Okay, I'm sorry, but why-why is that a crime? I mean, it's every teenage boy's fantasy. I mean, there's, like, 50 '80s movies about it. I mean, My Tutor, Private Lessons, Gym Class..." Sam says to Ryder.

"We get it, Sam, thanks." Mr. Schue cut him off.

"Guys, this is so uncool." Tina protest.

"His truth is his truth, not yours." Marley frowns at the others.

"You know what, it's cool, okay? Uh, the guys are right. I don't know what I was thinking. Uh, I'm, like, the luckiest guy in here." Ryder fake smiling at us then hi-five with Sam and Artie.

"So you know, yeah." Sam says to Ryder.

"Good job." Artie says to Ryder.

"Thanks." Ryder half-smiled and walk out from the choir room.

"I mean, kid clearly has superior game." Artie says to Sam.

"That wasnt something to be high-five about. He kept that for years, he even didnt tell his parents about that and all you guys think that was cool?" I frown at them.

"Whoa-oh slow down. I know you must be jealous with that because someone touch his junk first than you." Sam chuckles.

"Say that again I will slap you face." I glare at Sam and stand up from my seat.

"Jade, calm down." Jake takes my hand.

"Okay we all know that he is your boyfriend and that was really...." Artie got cut off.

"What? Cool? Right where are your mind, people?" I raise my eyebrows at Artie. "And you!" I pointed at Sam. "You said that you have a little sister and little brother right? Now I ask you, how old is she?" I ask Sam.

"Going to ten." Sam answer.

"Have you ever think what the things that happened to Ryder also happened to your sister? An older guy or an older woman come to her and touch her junk. Do you know what you feel as her brother? You're her big brother and you should be the one who protect her!" I yelled at Sam.

"Jade..." Jake hold my shoulder and trying to calm me down.

"Okay we all know that you're trying to defend your boyfriend here now." Sam protest.

"No, I'm not. The things you said to Ryder wasnt cool at all. You dont know what he feels." I shake my head.

"Then why you pickin on me and Artie? What should I do? Feel sorry for him?!" Sam yelled at me.

"Just respect him. I know what he felt for over years!" I yelled at him.

"Jade, enough." Jake holds my hand but I push his hand away.

Tears slowly fall down to my face and glare at Sam. "I ever got the same thing like him. I never told anyone about this not even Jake or my mom or Ryder only a stupid girl who become my enemy now because she betrayed me. It happened when I was in sixth grade first semester. I finished my basketball practice in the school gymnasium. I packed my stuff into my bagpack and about to go out from there but my coach called me. He let me to sit down on his lap and at first he kissed my cheek and then he start kissed my neck and my lips and-and he touched me on that point. I was freaked out so without saying anything, I ran away and went home and pretend like it was fine. The next day, I'm afraid to met him so I decided to quit the team and I made my own trouble so my mom could transferred me to another school." I'm sobbing and sit down on the sofa and let my head down.

"Why you just being quiet and didnt tell me or mom at the same day?" Jake asks me.

"Because at first I though it was kind of affection that a father would give to his daughter since I never get a chance to get closer with dad even though I dont know where he is right now." I'm crying.

"What is the name of the school you been there? What is the teacher name? There is a teacher association in Ohio and we can report them if they do something out way of line. Even this is too far out of the line." Mr. Schue says to us.

"No. Last thing I heard. He got arrested because he did the same thing to another girls." I wipe my tears away. "And when I told this to someone who used to be my closest friend in middle school, she spreaded it out, she made fun of me and told everyone that I love messing up with sugar daddy. We had no friends during middle school. And since that day, I'm having trouble with trusting anyone. Like telling them my secret and anything so I'd rather to keep my deep dark secret inside or tell that to Jake. That's all." I half-smiled at them as tears slowly fall down to my face.

Kitty suddenly stand up from her seat and walk closer to me and hugs me really tight. "I'm so sorry for that but you can trust me now."

"Thank you." I'm sobbing and hug her back.

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I walk enter the field while holding my ransel on my back and my bagpack on my shoulder and I see Ryder is playing with a basketball and sit down on the bleachers alone.

"Someone will kidnap you here." I said to him and sit down next to him.

"I eavesdrop your confession in choir room after I ran away. Feel better?" Ryder turn his face at me.

"Yeah. Maybe you were right, spreading out our secret to everyone we know is a better thing than keep it alone." I exhale.

"And I didnt know you ever got the same thing because when I told you that, you were like fine." Ryder says to me.

"I hid it. I'm good in hiding something." I giggle.

"No, you're not." Ryder kisses my forehead. "Okay first as my thanks for defending me, what about we go to Breadstix for dinner?"

"I want to go Breadstix with you as a date not as a defended thanks." I said to him.

"Can I ruin your date?" Kitty suddenly interupt us and join us. "Just kidding, what about I buy you both dinner at Breadstix tonight? Just consider as my first annual friendship thing." Kitty chuckles.

"You wont put any poison in our food right?" I raise my eyebrows at her.

"No. I wont. I know that you both are sad now and as a good friend I want to make my friend happy. Come on. It's a rarely moment when I'm become nice." Kitty says to us.

"Yeah and it scared me." I simply said and stand up from my seat.

"But Jade and I are dating and you're alone, is that okay?" Ryder asks her as she is walk lead us and Ryder put his hand around my shoulder.

"Just pretending that we're having threesome and you both were make out." Kitty simply said.

"Hardcore." I turn my face at Ryder.

"You're stupid." Ryder chuckles.

"And I'm fine to be alone as long as no one of you make out in front of my face." Kitty says to us.

"I'm gonna make out with myself." I simply said.

"That's hardcore." Kitty laughs.

I chuckle and keep walking. I dont know what's going on with this girl. She become so nice to us and I hope that it could be a good start since Kitty is really become my homegirl now or maybe I can say that she is my closest friend here. Kinda cool one.