Loving Professor Gill

I woke up to sun rays hitting my face; glancing over my alarm I realized I was already late for my class. Woke up in a hurry heading to the bathroom, my eyes were all swollen from lack of sleep. I kept waking up due to the nightmares every time. This had become a routine for me since that fateful night. The night I lost the only person who ever truly loved me unconditionally. My name is Annabel Luaan, am 21 in my final year at the university. I have no relatives and I got through my studies through a scholarship, which I’m really grateful for.  Am pursuing a Bachelor’s degree in Business Management, which I’m supposed to be over within the next four months. I work two jobs as a tutor for a rich girl in the city four blocks away from my apartment building; the second job is at a diner where I work the night shifts. I have only one friend and that is Alexandria the girl am tutoring, we have been friends since our senior year in high school. She is the closest thing I have to a family, I call her Alex As I entered my final class of the day I saw Alex sitting alone at the corner towards the back of the room or as they call it the nerd’s corner, yea weird you would think they were grownups but I reality they acted like kids.  At the front seats sat the flirts with their short skimpy dresses the middle belonged to the less popular group. The back seats belonged to the nerds, the weirdoes, and the always absent-minded group who couldn’t even know why they were in class in the first place, I’m just grateful to be leaving all this behind in a few months. I walked to where Alex was, greater her, and sat down to do some work. After a while the professor came in, he had black shinny silk hair neatly kept with a well-pressed button-up white shirt. His black suit clinging to his body revealing a well-toned body with a protruding chest, He had a serious aura around him as usual and an emotionlessly stare in his eyes. This was no news because he was always either angry at something, yelling at someone, or not showing any feelings at all. The flirts at the front started fixing their revealing crop tops smaller than their actual sizes. Alex gave me a side glance motioning to the group with her eyes. She passed me a note saying “I think Mr. Grumpy is going to get a B J today from the head b***h”  I looked at her with a suppressed laugh. I bet he already got one. I passed her the note and went back to my laptop trying to finish what I was doing before Mr. Grumpy starts yelling. Right after I finished Mr. Gill started the lecture if you can call it that because he was rushing through it like he had been threatened to do so. As usual, he yelled at me the most in class without even a reason to do so. I was already used to him picking on me and Alex the most in class, so I just ignored his outbursts which angered him the most since he expected me to go all defensive on him. How can a person that hot have a stinking personality, wait did I just call him hot what’s wrong with you Anna he is not hot he is repulsive. OK maybe he is a little hot, a little?? Freaking hot and you know you want to kiss him; “just shut up ok” I didn’t realize I had said that out loud till everyone’s eyes were on me. Mr. Gill had a surprised look then it changed to fuming anger within seconds, probably thinking I was addressing him. He walked toward me then stopped right in front of me. He was towering over me like a wounded lion 6′4′ figure frame. He leaned closer and his scent was breathtaking. “What did you say? “I snapped out of my fantasy the moment I registered the anger in his voice “No... No... Nothing sir′ I started not being able to form a correct sentence. He looked amused thinking I was afraid of him but he was wrong I couldn’t give him the pleasure of humiliating me. I gave him a what- the -heck - do you -want- look not breaking the eye contact. If he was trying to intimate me, two can play that game. I couldn’t care less if he kicks me out of the class, I didn’t benefit from his teaching plan anyway it seems he only wanted me in there to humiliate me anyway so I might as well face him head-on. After some time he smirked and headed back to the front I was surprised because he never lets any mistake from me slip by. Even if I make the slightest mistakes on my tests he would announce to everyone in the class. Even though I was an excellent student it bothered me a lot when he did that, what have I ever done to deserve this treatment from him. A year ago when it started right after he arrived at our school, I thought it would change with time but it only got worse. Can’t wait for the four months to be over. Why is he always yelling at me? I passed the note to Alex. After a moment she replied with an I think he likes you and is trying to hide it I gave her a questing look the wrote on the same paper that is just bull he just wants to make my life miserable. I tried to pass the note to her but it was already too late it fell down and Mr. Gill came and took it if looks could kill I’d be sprawled out on the floor right now. I panicked knowing well what was to come, he was going to bury me a life I looked at the door but it was far I’d never make it out of this, goodbye world. He read the note looked at me as if surprised,” what does this mean Miss. Luwan? You’re talking about boys in my class?” He was now fuming mad “see me after this” he hissed. There goes my dinner I couldn’t make it in time to make dinner so I will just have to head to work direct. Why is my life such a mess??. The flirts in the front gave me looks, Jessica the head of stupidity gave Mr. Gill a flirtatious grin trying hard her cleavage which was almost out of her top, flirt I said between my teeth causing uproar in the room. She gave me daggers which I couldn’t care less since she wasn’t the center of my world. After class, I went to rush out the door with Alex trailing behind me but it was already too late “Miss Luwan, where are you rushing to?” Came Mr. Gill’s voice, ”I guess I’ll see you tonight Alex,” I told her “but how will you get to work if I go ahead of you,” she asked me since I don’t have a car Alex drops me at work then later picks me to go tutor her either in my place or her place “Don’t worry I’ll take a cab or the bus I’ll figure out something”, I told Alex then turned to head back to class He looked up at me with concern in his eyes then it disappeared replaced by a look of indifference he dug into his pocket removing the note. “Care to explain this?”, he asked me slowly I rugged my brains trying to find a befitting lie to give him. ” Ooh that ...it’s just nothing sir” I replied nervously.” Didn’t seem like nothing to me, who is the guy Anna ?” he asked using my fist name which I must admit it felt really good hearing to sound of my name in his lips. I woke with a startle to find him waving a hand on my face. He was standing too close that I could take in his scent.” Do you always dose off when talking to people “he stated with clear annoyance in his voice.” you haven’t answered my question, who is the guy you wrote about? and don’t even try lying to me” he asked again” OK it was Jason Kippsy, he has always given me weird looks” I told him. Poor Jason being dragged into a mess he did know about. Jason was some weird boy in our class who is always tuned out of every lesson he had been following me around since our freshman year. “Are you in a relationship with him? Since when has it been going on” he yelled. Making me move back a few steps away from him, He looked really mad and ready to beat up someone; I was worried if I was going to become his punching bag. That brought back terrible memories and everything started coming back, the beatings, the shouting, and the blood. I held on to the nearest table as I backed away from him. Mr. Gill looked at me with worry, I could see him in Mr. Gill, and I could see the man who ruined my family, the man who ruined my life. He kept coming closer and I kept for him to stop, I begged him to stop hitting me I turned around ready to run instead I collided with a wall and everything went blank. I was in a dark place, I could hear someone calling my name, have heard that voice but I couldn’t distinctively remember whose it was. I felt a hand on my forehead, I tried opening my eyes but I couldn’t. “Anna! Anna! Please wake up, don’t do this, my love please wake up” mother?? How?? It was only my mother who called me by that. I listened and discerned it as a male voice but who would call me that. Could be him. No way he doesn’t care about you Anna, remember he hates you. Then it went quite all together. I woke up with a start, I rolled on my bed feeling the warmth and comfort it provided, wait this wasn’t my bed, and what’s with the scent of the billows my bed was never this comfortable. Where am I, what is this place, the room was so big with thick carpet and glass walls I walked to the wall and slit the glass open to be by fresh air it overlooked the ocean I realize I was probably on the Third floor based on the distance to the ground, I watched as the waves hit the shore only to retreat back to the ocean. What is this place? How did I get here? I went back to the room started snubbing around on my left was a door I opened it to be met by a very huge clean bathroom, everything was stainless the bathtub was big and spacious Holly Molly. I walked out of the bathroom and noticed a walk-in closet to the right it was filled with suits and tux of different styles they looked so neat and expensive. I finally found my way to the kitchen following the scent of food being cooked; standing at the counter was a shirtless man with a built body as he moved around his shoulder muscles looked really good from the back. I swallowed hard still looking at the Adonis in front of me. ” Like what you see? Take a picture it will last longer”  Wait I know that voice, what’s going on. Then he turned to face me. He took my breath away, his shoulders were broad and masculine his chest was divine well build. My eyes went down to his apps he had eight of them they were amazing I felt like running my hands through them, his pants which were riding low revealed a v shape turning down to God knows where. I felt my heart pumping in my chest harder than usual I felt a chill run down my spine. What’s happening to me, have never felt this way before? All this time he was staring at me in awe I swallowed hard and he smirked taking a step towards me I backed away instinctively not knowing what to say. Suddenly my back hit a wall he came and stood in front of me, I couldn’t dare raise my eyes to look at him I was staring at his chest. He put a hand under my chin, ” look at me Anna” I instinctively raised my eyes to be met by blue eyes, ” God, you’re so beautiful that it hurts” he said and I was confused I didn’t know what to answer ” and your eyes they are so breathtaking Anna” I felt my temperature rise at that my heart making wild noise on my chest. “You look really nice in my clothes, you don’t know what that does to me Anna” I hadn’t even noticed I was wearing nothing but a big shirt reaching my mid-thighs. He leaned in and I thought he was going to kiss me, I don’t know why but that thought made me feel good He suddenly took a step realizing what he was doing, I instantly missed his body heat, what is happening to me  “How did I get here Mr. Gill, and who undressed me? What happened, did you do something to me, this can’t be happening” I said all kinds of thoughts “Wow slow down there Missy I only brought you here because u passed out yesterday, I didn’t know where to take you,” he said with sincerity” and what exactly happened back there? You were screaming and begging not to hit you” " And I didn’t do anything except remove your clothes, what makes you think I’d be attracted to you, don’t flatter yourself, sweetheart, now come and eat” Somehow him saying he wasn’t attracted to me made me feel bad but I didn’t show. I sat down opposite him. “so tell me, why were you begging me not to hit you?, has someone done that to you before Anna?” he asked after I was sited. I sat there silently not saying anything, he didn’t have to know most people look at me differently after knowing my story, and didn’t want that from him too. It was better that way instead of him thinking I was some weakling .after a while he dropped the subject and we sat silently eating. “I hope you don’t mind that am wearing your sweater, ill return it to you tomorrow I promise,” I said looking back at him after he dropped me at my place. He looked at me with something strange in his eyes but it was gone before I could find out what it was. “you can keep the sweater, don’t want your sweat all over me” he said looking at me with cold eyes. So he was back to treating me coldly. Well, I don’t care he can die for all I care. “And why do you live in a run-down place like this, doesn’t that boyfriend of yours know how to take care of you?, I can never let my woman live in a dumb like this, even if it means working my butt off day and night,” he said with a hint of disgust. “Listen here you, have had enough of you looking down at me like the lowest of the low, I won’t take any more insults from a pig” I looked at him with hate “I don’t need your opinion in how i live my life, i***t” I got out of his car trying to keep the tears from falling, crying is for the weak Anna, you don’t need a prick like that in your life, don’t let him see your tears. i didn’t need him, or anyone for that matter, the can all go to hell for all i care. I’ll show him i can be better than what I am today. I had heard it from everyone i meet, the place i lived in was unfit for anyone to live in, I didn’t care what they say but hearing him say it hurt the most because am in love with him, yes i loved him and the i***t didn’t even know. it was painful watching him every day and not having him, i had tried to forget about him but with no success, since the first time I set my eyes on him a year ago I had been attracted to him like a moth to the light. He was my only weakness Alex alone knew about my infatuation with professor Gill, she had tried to set me up on many dates but they were all a waste of time. as i sat in my almost empty apartment i promised myself that I will not let a man determine my fate, I was done feeling sorry for myself. I will not let comments from some professor get to me, but even as I said that to myself i knew it will all go down the train the moment he opened his mouth to spew insults at me. But I was willing to take it all if only to get through this remaining four months.