The Alpha of my dreams

CHAPTER 6: MAKE ME YOURS

Savannah’s POV

(Flashback begins…)

Two weeks passed by since I met my dream guy and he appeared in my dream every night from then. Slowly, I accepted him as a part of my life and even grew to love him, even if that scared me. I mean, how could I love someone who didn’t even exist? But I loved him, and the little time I had with him was the highlight of my day. It just happened even before I knew it…

As the days went on, I grew bolder and bolder. After all, it was just a dream and no one would judge me, right? And my dream guy was all too happy to indulge in whatever I had in store for him. 

I had enough of just kissing him and I decided that I wanted more. I never had this feeling with George, my scumbag ex even after three years of relationship, but with this man, it all felt natural. I was ready to take the next step with him tonight and I could only wish it was real…

When I woke up in the middle of the night to find him caressing my face, I looked at him with my eyes clouded with passion. Seeing my look, he didn’t need any words and looked at me hesitantly.

“Are you sure, my princess? I don’t want to take advantage of you like that. Wouldn’t it be better if we waited until I could bring you to my world?”

I felt as if he had dropped a bucket of cold water on my head and scooted away from him. Tears brimmed in my eyes as I felt my heart shattering into pieces. I was ready to give myself to him and he rejected me! He had treated me as if I was the most beautiful woman he had ever seen, but right now; I was feeling quite the opposite. Even if I knew it wasn’t the truth, I felt like an ugly hag. Why? Wasn’t I pretty enough or did he never feel the same for me?

As insecurities reared up in my head, I bit my lips to keep myself from whimpering and averted my gaze from his perfect face. Right. He was too gorgeous to find someone like me desirable. What was I even thinking, getting ready to jump his bones? 

“My princess…” he called out in a whisper, his tone pulling at my heartstrings. He sounded just as tortured as me, but I refused to look at him. If I do, I would burst out crying and I wasn’t ready to humiliate myself like that. Not even for the man I love…

“Look at me, please…” he said and gently pulled my chin upwards. 

I looked into his green eyes and the tears in my eyes fell over as I stared at him silently. 

“Don’t cry… Please don’t cry. I can’t see you like this…”

“I am fine. Would you please go away now? I need a little time to myself,” I whimpered. Please go away. I want to cry at my pathetic existence. First my boyfriend cheated on me and now even my dream man didn’t want to have me even when I showed blatant interest. Am I that much of a loser?

Before I could fathom what happened, I was pulled into a hard chest and his lips met mine. I gasped in shock and he thrust his tongue inside my mouth. He deepened the kiss and as I stopped resisting; I melted into his arms. 

I could feel something hard against my belly and I felt all the blood rush to my cheeks as I realised what it was. Oh, God! Why was he rejecting me when he obviously wanted it just as much as I did? Why?

He pulled back from the kiss, and I looked at him questioningly. 

“You don’t know how much I want to make you mine. But you don’t believe me when I say that I am real, and I don’t know if it is something that you truly want. When we become one, I want it to be because you love me just as much as I do. Not because you think it is just a fantasy…”

I looked at him and my heart filled with so much love that I was afraid it would burst any moment. 

“Oh, God. I love you. I love you so much and even if it isn’t real, it feels more real than anything I have ever had in my life. I would never regret giving myself to you. I-“ 

Before I could finish speaking, he let out a growl that made me swoon with anticipation. And then he pulled me to him before kissing me again. But unlike the gentle kiss last time, this was full of urgency and passion. More. I need more…

He pulled back from the kiss and I let out a growl, much like he did. He looked at me with amusement before smiling mischievously.

“So you just want to kiss me all night? I thought you were ready for more?”

Oh yes! Was I ever?

I tried to keep the excitement from my face, but from the way he smirked at me, I knew that it was all in vain. He could read me like an open book. I didn’t know what to make of it…

As his lips trailed down my neck, I gasped in pleasure. My heart was beating so fast that I was afraid it would burst out of its cage at any moment. I was not so confident anymore, and nervousness assaulted me. And it was not because I wanted to back away from my decision to sleep with him. Instead, it was because my insecurities were rearing their ugly heads again, and I wondered if he would find my body undesirable. What if he thought I was fat? Suddenly I was aware of every mole and blemishes in my skin. Did I even shave today? I remembered I did before sleeping, but will that remain the same during the dream?

I was snapped out of the trance when I felt his hot breath on my face and blinked to see him looking at me with concern.

“If you are not ready, maybe we should wait…”

In the past, George had always demanded me to sleep with him and used to throw tantrums when I refused. And here this man was saying it was okay to stop, even when he was painfully hard for me. Could a guy even do that?

All my nervousness vanished, and I smiled at him.

“I have never wanted anything more in my life. Please make me your woman…”

He didn’t need any more prompts after that, and he lifted me in his arms as if I weighed nothing.

He gently laid me on the bed and proceeded to remove the stash from the sexy red nightgown I had purposefully worn for tonight. I fought the urge to close it and laid there, looking at his eyes as he removed it, baring my body to his gaze. 

He sat back, looking at my exposed body and under his worshipping gaze; I felt beautiful and desired.

“Beautiful…” he murmured.

My turn now…

I sat up before pulling at the edge of his shirt and threw it off his body. Then I fumbled with his pants and growled in irritation when it refused to budge.

He chuckled at my futile attempts before deciding to have mercy on me.

I sucked in a breath and looked with wide eyes as he pulled his pants off. Damn! That is huge!

I realized that I had said that out loud when he burst out laughing and felt my cheeks turn red. Really, Savannah? Can you stop being an i***t for a while and act sexily?

Then all thoughts left my mind as he climbed to the bed and pushed me down. He started kissing me while his hands wandered over my body. 

He pulled back from the kiss and trailed his lips down my neck and he bit down lightly on the place where my neck and shoulder met. As he nibbled gently on the sensitive area, pleasure mixed with pain and a bolt of energy zapped me. I threw my head back in ecstasy, overwhelmed by the feelings.

“Soon I would mark you right here, my princess,” he mumbled, but I was too lost in the sensations in my body to pay attention.

Then he climbed on top of me and as our bodies pressed against each other, I looked up to his face to see his green eyes filled with regret.

“Forgive me for the pain I am going to cause you, my Princess,” he said before looking at me as if to seek my permission. 

I gave him a gentle nod, and that was all the prompt he needed. Looking deep into my eyes, he pushed into me. I gasped at the sudden sting of pain and tears fell from my eyes unbidden.

“Ouch! It hurts!” I called out.

“I am sorry, my princess. But it is the only time I would ever hurt you, I promise.”

I looked at his loving face and smiled through my tears. I had given my virginity to the man I loved, even if it was just a dream. I couldn’t have found a better man for this.

“Thank you,” I said, and tears flowed down my cheeks. But this time, it was not that of pain, but happiness.

He leaned down and kissed my tears away and I felt a cool soothing sensation on my body and the pain vanished as if it never was. What just happened?

But I didn’t get time to ponder on it because he was moving again and as his thrusts picked up pace, all thoughts left my mind. I clutched his hair and pulled him towards me even closer, wanting him as close as I could have him. Soon, I was spiraling down an abyss of bliss, and I felt him shudder above me right at that moment. I felt a smile form on my lips as the feeling of being complete washed over me. Perfect. He was perfect…

We both stay there like that for a while before he pulled away from me. I looked up to see him dressing and felt a wave of sadness. Was he leaving already?

“I am sorry, mate. It is time for me to go. I couldn’t wait to be back here with you again tomorrow… I love you, my princess…”

I sighed and got out of the bed. Then I walked over to him. He pulled me towards him and pressed a kiss on my forehead before taking a tissue from my table and cleaning me up. Then he helped me dress again and as I laid on the bed, he blew at me like he always did. And just like every time, I fell asleep right then with a smile on my face. I love you, my dream guy…