Hardest Moments

Note to Readers: in No way am I suicidal. I use figurative language to describe my emotions. I apologize ahead of time for any triggers. My story is meant to be an encouragement. Please be aware I use strong language. I love you like a vampire loves blood. Your eyes are so black like a swirling ocean of darkness. It's calm and quiet like death. It terrifies me yet exhilarates me. I'm breathless. The darkness embraces me like a blanket. I don't run from it. I whole heartedly embrace it. It makes me feel peace. I am free. Why do I feel free? Why did you save me? I am not supposed to feel this way. Why are you not hurting me? I am supposed to suffer. How dare you save me. I am no longer vulnerable. at least when I was hurting nobody could take advantage of me. Nobody could fool me. Now I am lost. You have forced me to fully trust you to depend on you. And I love it. I didn't know that pain I am feeling now could feel so good. You saved me my Black Knight. and I don't mind drowning in your darkness. I will let myself be consumed by your darkness as long as it means I will never lose you. My love for you pains me so much that it burns. My desire for your darkness has become a fire that refuses to extinguish. I burn for you my love. I desire your soul. Your heart is mine and so is your body. No one else is allowed to taste what is mine. My anger and vengeance is a thirst that cannot be quenched by anyone. I will destroy anyone or anything that burns your light. Only my knight has the power to burn me alive. And it excites the daylight out of me. My life source comes from you. Without you I'm dead. Is it worth risking my sanity on this knight? "Hell yeah it is. I am only alive through pain. I don't mind touching and cutting myself on the thorns of this black rose if it means I will be wanted. If I had the choice to choose between natural death caused by natural pain and dying by the hands of my black knight I would choose my black knight. Nothing can be any better than being killed over and over again by this knight. Drain me of all life. I am not afraid of you. I welcome your darkness with open arms. Kill me slowly make me drown in the ocean of you. I need to drown. Your darkness is my d**g. I am addicted to it.