Finding the serial killer

Chapter 35

Chapter 35

Jake’s POV,

I opened my eyes with a hope that all the horrors of last night were a dream, like all those horrifying I've lived in silence all my life and I will woke up to the pastel colours and husky fragrance of my room. Somewhere I also knew it was just my wishful thinking. Nothing has ever gone the way I wanted. I should have known something big was coming, things have been eerily quiet lately. Things won't be good anymore, even before my eyes were open, I have that realization. The ache in my back and the coldness beneath my feet rushed inside me like a reality check.

Bang, bang, bang.

Three loud hits against the metal bar ricochet through every inch of the room piercing my sleep into pieces. I'm too scared to open my eyes, I will have to lose all hopes if I were to ever open my eyes. even those nightmares are better than reality.

“Someone is here to meet you.” This is not my precinct, he is not the person I know and work with, but the way he glares through my eyes to my character, I don’t think I'm coming out anytime soon. I have no idea what kind of a proof they have. How can they find my DNA on a crime scene if I never went to? if I'm being framed for someone else? I have no idea.

The officer left saying what he wants to and I desperately waited to whoever it was coming in to meet me.

“Jake.” I heard mom. Another officer recruited her to my cell.

“Mom?” her eyes are red, hair unkempt, outfit skimpy. Like she’s grown ten years older in a night. “I'm sorry.” Before I know my shedding tears, I hate when mom has to cry for me. I never wanted her to cry after that once. I don’t know why she cried, but she cried so much taking me in her embrace like I was dying or leaving her. I couldn’t be more than five, memories are still cracked and porous but they maintained their shapes. She never cried with such intensity before. “Dad must be so upset.”

“He is.” She nodded. “This isn’t what we expected coming here.”

“Does he think of me as a killer? You think he thinks I did it?” I don’t know why I even had to ask it when I knew very well that he does. Everything is happening like he wanted. When the people of this town find out that I've been remanded for all those murder charges, even when I'm innocent, I'll never be able to work again in this country as a cop. Being a cop is the only thing I can manage to do to this age, if I lose it, it’s all downhill from there. I smile at my own thoughts. I've been ruined. My life finally ruined me, myself finally ruined me. Big fat tears run down her eyes, I don’t even have the courage to slip it off her face. “Dad hates me now?”

I know the answer then and there. “No,” she denies what’s already on her face.

“It’s okay mom. I know what he thinks of me. it won't hurt me anymore.” It hurts so much to see how indifferent dad is towards me, his elder son.

“What are you going to do next?”

“I don’t know. The only people I can depend on don’t even trust me.”

She touched my hand around the bar, “I know you didn’t do it.” sometimes I wonder what my life would’ve been like if mom wasn’t by my side. I also wonder if she compensates on dad’s behalf. She loves me more so I can maintain a stable relationship with Jerry.

“Mom, please contact my lawyer. Tell him I need him.”

“Don’t worry, Jerry is on it. he’s flying from New York.” At least there is still some people who care for me even though I've made so many distances between us, I still have a part of my family by my side and that’s more than comforting. That’s sunlight, that’s water, that’s oxygen. I'm still alive because I have it. “Jake, promise me one thing.” I nod, I will do anything as long as she won't be any more upset. “When you are out, come back with me to New York.”