Sweet Destiny

Chapter 5

I gave up on the kitchen and decided to clean and do the dishes the next morning. I didn't have the strength in me to do it, I just wanted to watch some Netflix with my full pint of my delicious cookies n' cream icecream and sleep. It always make the loneliness go away.

My house was a thirty minute walk from the store but I didn't feel like walking or doing anything that would cause me to use up energy so I just hailed a cab. I'm not really a fan of cabs but you have to take desperate measures when you are lazy.

I pretended to be on my phone through out my time in the cab, I didn't have any one I was calling or texting but this will provide the illusion needed to keep me away from getting kidn*pped.

After an uncomfortable one sided conversation with me switching from calling to texting, I came down from the cab and paid the cab man immediately disappearing into the grocery store.

I knew the store like the back of my hand especially the chips and ice cream section. So unfortunately, they were out of my favourite cookies n' cream ice cream so I started scanning other options. Mint chip, Vanilla , Chocolate, Strawberry, Mint chip.......

" Which flavour are you getting?".

I jumped at the sound of the voice that gave me a scare and turned to face it's owner.

" I'm so sorry I didn't mean to scare you".Xander apologised.

"Ohhh no problem.... it's okay. And ummm I don't know, I'm not so sure yet".

" Alex claims that cookies n' cream is the best but i feel Peanut butter and Vanilla is the best".

" Well Alex will obviously love my taste in icecream" I said giggling.

" So I think I will take peanut butter ice cream then since cookies n' cream is not available".

I smile and reached for the Peanut butter ice cream. Vanilla really wasn't an option since I really didn't like Vanilla ice cream so I had to trust Xander on this one. He smiled at me and picked up one pint each of Mint chip ice cream and Peanut butter ice cream.

" if you don't mind me asking, Where is Alex?". I asked

" No I don't mind, and Alex is with the housekeeper she is helping me watch him for the main time".

I nodded and started walking towards the front desk to pay for my stuffs.

" Is everything fine Anita?". Xander asked

I nodded. I couldn't find it in me to lie to him because I knew I was obviously not okay.

" Are you still going to get something else?" I asked.

" No I just came to get some ice cream".

Xander and I walked to the checkout counter with a comfortable silence between us and we both paid for our ice cream.

" Are you sure there is no problem?".

I nodded and we walked out of the store. I turned to the direction of my house and started walking away when Xander voice stopped me.

" Are you going home?"

" Yes"

" Okay you wouldn't mind if I dropped you off then" it wasn't a question it was a statement.

Xander jerked his head towards a car screaming luxury. " Come on".

I followed Xander to his car and he opened the passenger door for me as a gentleman that he has. I slid in and he closed the door before going around to his seat.

" Okay,so" he said once we got settled in and he started driving" Are you going to tell me what is bothering you now?".

I looked at Xander and opened my mouth to tell that nothing was wrong but I didn't seem to want to come out. Instead" it is just one of my days".

" Alex didn't do anything right???".

" No, No" I assured him " He is my motivation and he was one of the brightest part of my day.

"I'm glad".

And then we were at my department"Thanks so much for the ride".

" Anytime"

Xander made sure to wait till my door was locked . Once he was gone I went upstairs and collapsed on my couch with my chips and a pint of ice cream.

He was right. The Peanut cream flavour is good.

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Anita

I felt so much better after watching my favourite TV show and eating my chips and ice cream. I couldn't quite determine if it was because of the ice cream that I took that made me feel better or me talking to Xander. He was so nice to me when he didn't need to and I was so grateful for that, he owes me nothing and he still drove me home even though we were not going the same way. No one has ever done sometime like that for me before.

Growing up in the Foster system was difficult and didn't give a kid like me support, love and stability so I had to learn to find that on my own. At a point I closed my self off and never let anyone in because I felt like in the end none of them will stay and I'll be alone once again.

I worked that mentality into my system for years that when i finally decided to leave it behind I literally had no one on my side. And I didn't know how to change that I still don't know how to. Ten years later I still don't have anyone to call my own to talk less of family.

But Alex and Xander have given me a glimpse of that. And while they make me so happy, at the back of my mind I still feel like they will realize that I'm not worth it and eventually get tired of me and I will be back to square one again.

But at least my pint of ice cream helps because I don't have to share it.

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" Anitaaaaa".

I had not heard the sound of the bell since I was so lost in my thoughts but there was Alex running towards . He immediately left into my hands hugging me and I easily caught him.

"My boy" I said tickling his sides.

"How are you doing today?" Xander asked " I can keep her with me if you are not feeling too well.

" No,No, there us no need I'm okay now" I insisted. And since it is my off day I thought me and Alex could go to the park. "How does that sound baby boy?"..