When the queen loves

When the queen loves

Will you believe me when I tell you that I adore the same moment, I adore the same state , I am not you, that I do not adore you! You are far from my imagination, far from my life, but it is the state, the feeling, it is what remains..and you disappear, I now hear the moan of your questions and see the eagerness and surprise of your eyes and you ask me why and how? ,, Do you know why? Because this feeling is sincere to me, and that moment is honest and never deceptive, but you are the traitor, you are the treacherous, angry, ignorant, I really do not want you, I do not want you at all.. I want the same honesty, the same sincerity, tenderness itself , and the very warmth, it is the warmth of the moment, its honesty and its innocence that your hands did not pollute, nor did your cruelty kill it, nor did your stubbornness, stupidity, or arrogance kill it. My eyes and disappear forever, even if we had a share to meet, I don't want that, I don't want it at all, you are in my eyes nothing more than a pile of burning ash, it was a fire one day and then it was extinguished.. I'm nothing more than a painting that was sold for cheap after the painter spent an eternity In drawing and coloring it, then suddenly he felt the disappointment of a candle who sacrificed herself to light up a blind room ! How difficult it is to discover suddenly and too late.. you have always dealt with the likes! Semi-lovers...like friends...or even like men...it's a very bad feeling..I have realized that nothing is real and constant in my life with you..nothing but looks..like things..like feelings...and similar situations .. Just to change..this is how I am with you, man! . You are very far away from me, but farther than your imagination can imagine, and bigger than your memory can accommodate, it is true that we did not part, but we will never meet! ,, May you stay the moment.. and perpetuate you feeling..but for you, please,, please and swear by all your preciousness to go away and leave me alone, go leaving behind you the pulse of feeling and the warmth of the moments..it was few,, yes a few..but it is very much as much as I said it .. very long as it is short,,, very warm despite the cold that surrounded it!!! And do not be surprised by my demands .. Never be surprised.. And remember that this feeling and that warmth.. One day came to you running and hit the rock of your stubbornness and slaughtered its honest moments under the blades of the sword of your lies and evasion .. And this warmth of feeling cooled in the frost of your fear and cowardice... But my tender hands I fixed all the fractures.. and cured all diseases and ailments..until I recovered completely from you..from your ignorance ,, from your arrogance,, from the darkness of your heart..please...don't put yourself or me in this critical situation..I am no longer I want you..and your pleas to me no longer do me any good or harm ... even a feeling of pity, I believe in you! Even this feeling, you don't deserve it..I no longer need you..you no longer mean anything to me..My advice to you is to keep what is left of your face and go away from me...what is the most difficult need for someone you don't mean or you no longer mean anything to him.. Believe me. (I overcame to reconcile in my soul so that it would not satisfy you) It no longer has a place for me.. I expelled it from the depths of my heart.. and from all that is evil, it was expelled without return.. The truth is that I no longer find in you my pleasure, my comfort, nor my comfort.. these things no longer amuse me. The little girl who comforted me on the day you were gone, or the day we met, or we met together...my dear, you lost the battle and I won it...Let you come out of it blameworthy and defeated forever...I am not accustomed to losing, no matter how much I suffer, no matter how much I suffer, no matter how lost my paths are. Victory is always my ally in the end...I am very sad because I see that you are ignorant of the truth that I knew..How difficult it is for someone who knows the truth alone..Woe to you! Who knows, who does not know.... I hope you realize that one day... It is better for a person to be miserable and knowledgeable... than to be happy and deceived!... Why do I see you looking at me silent as an i***t? Were you surprised by my words..or did my words scare you..or did you want me to be a wreck to collect and to always need you..this is what you want and what you wish for..but no way...(I still remember my heart, my hand is safety) There is a difference between what you want and between love and giving. The real ones...I see that the gap is wide between the two of them!!!! There is a discrepancy between what you want and what they wanted for me....we are two parallel lines, each of us walking in a different direction..It is true that we have not separated, but we will never meet! I prefer to live in the shadows..I prefer to live immersed in this life..and even more than that , it makes me happy to find myself in it a small corner or a small corner.in any spot on the globe and I hide between its walls happy and peaceful to be away from you..proud My freedom that released my hands from your heavy chain and freed me from it... Let it be hidden or buried or even on the sidelines... But I am happy. Free and free... My wings are flapping in the sky of my freedom that I struggled for until the sun rose and filled its rays with light in my life ... Ah Now, do not disturb my absence, or your stubbornness, or your vanity, or your cowardly pride ! The thunder... The important thing is that I found myself... after I searched a lot in the sides of myself that were lit by your darkness!!!? I asked myself one question? Are there things that only happen in our lives once? Then it does not repeat after that..Does a person sometimes see the reality of things at the end of the hallway of the corridors of this harsh time? This has already happened .. Do you know when? One day I thought I could see everything, but in reality I didn't see anything !!!! And after I fell into the abyss of your inferno.. At that moment I asked myself a question that he should not have asked? where am I now ? At the bottom... Yes, at the bottom.. I laughed myself sarcastically by saying : Good.. At least we won't fall again... What's after the bottom?!! All my words and actions .. and you make fun of everything I say and what I do..Then I asked you to put an end to my story with you, so I sighed with fidgeting and burned my face with the breath of your scorching summer. The title of this anecdotal farce is (Wrong Idea).... Oh, that's how I thought the wolf could be a gentle lamb! To this extent, you denied the truth and believed the lie! What a well-made deception... I have seen artificial colors as a real paradise! I didn't think it was nothing more than a peel or a mask for a raging hell ! I laughed so much that my throat shook and my laughter made fun of me...Then I laughed and laughed so much that my tears flowed...The sarcastic laughs mixed with pain! Dirt mixed with water ... and fire with air...I remember this day..before you asked me..I will answer you.. It was the day you came to me confident of stepping as a king to tell me in one way or another that you will live and live in a house next to me and near me..we thought that I would fly with joy at this news...what an irony of fate...I don't know whether fate mocked you or me? It is true that you are breathing the air that I breathe. And you live in the neighborhood in which I live.. and you pass from the street in front of my house... true... true all of this I do not deny... you have become very close to me.. but the closer you are, the farther from me... you exist, you are already near me. But you are not in me or in me at all!!!! As close as you are, you are far away !!! How close you are to me and how far you are from me!!!! I am very sorry to inform you that your hopes have been dashed... I am no longer me... I came too late my dear... Too late .. Do you know that with what you did you became like someone who asks for warmth after the winter has passed !!! And as someone who asks for life after annihilation!!!...You should know, sir, that the time has passed and the cord has been cut....but may I now send you a short message that I am confident that you will receive letter by letter and word for word : ( Dear man, I did not affect me Everything that happened and I was not affected by the accident ... but I am the one who affected the accident, rather everything that happened ) ...