Episode 19
1175 Words
Irish's Point of View,
I think god is hell angry with me and that is why he is punishing me like this for every single thing or may be for even breathing on this earth, I know that what all this is happening would not be easy for me but I did not know that it will be so hard for me that I will think that I wnat to die right here, I really wish that I could have some options at least, may be I did something wrong and god is punishing me for that but that does not mean that he should be that cruel, he should at least have mercy on me at least a little, it is going so hard for me to survive like this, even I can not take breath properly, I am getting so angry and frustated every passing moment, how the hell he can treat me like I am his slave, I know so well that he paid for me, but that does not mean that he can treat me like an animal, I am not a human, I am a f*****g human being and know I am hating this truth, it would be better if god have make me a cat or may be a dog, so that my parents would have love me enough and not sell me like that did to me right now, what should I do now god, can you please show me a way so that I can not cry anymore, or may be I can take a breath in relief, it is getting hard for me with each passing moment, I f*****g hate my parents but still missing them and I missing Bella too, where she would be, is she trying find me, what would have my parents tell her about me, gosh, I am drving so f*****g crazy.
I was just lying on the bed with teary eyes, I just do not know what the hell I did wrong to deserve this, I just still do not know how I will survive here, he beats me like I am not a human being, tears were still rolling down to my cheeks and I just do not know how to control my f*****g emotions, I was sobbing hard and then I sat on the bed, Shimmy walked to me and caressed my hair, she just made me look at her and I cried again so hard on her shoulder,
"Why the hell this is happening with me Shimmy, what the hell I did wrong to deserve this, there is no way that I am gonna survive like this", I said to her and she just wiped my tears, she was looking at me with tearful eyes, I just know that she was also sad for me and thing is that she can not even help me,
"Hey, hey, I know, I can understand how you would be feeling but trust me you will be fine someday", she said to me as she was carrying my hair and I just hugged her, I just know that this time will also pass as I will feel good or maybe I will forget this or maybe I will learn to live with monster,
"You tell me how I will stay like this, it is so hard to survive like this, I just do not think that I will be able to stay like this here", I said to her and she just made me drink some water and wiped my face,
"You just take some rest okay and also please just try to maintain some distance with him and just try not to anger him, if you will make him angry he will harm you and hurt you, so please just stay away from him until you want to keep yourself safe from him or else you just know him, he is a monster in human skin", she said to me and I just looked at her with tearful eyes,
"What you think why did he marry me, why did he take me here, you think that he took me here so that he could take care of me", I asked her as she was just looking at me with sad eyes but she did not say anything to me,
"He brought me here so that he could make me suffer, he brought me here so that he could rape me and f**k me and make me cry", I said and tears build up in my eyes again, I just know that my destiny just brought me here so that I could suffer hard, and now I just do not know where this suffer will take, I just do not know if I can survive this or not,
"Hey, shh, relax, just relax okay", she was just trying to come me and I also wiped my tears coz I do not want to cry anymore,
"I will not cry anymore, I am so glad that I have you, so I am happy until I have you", I said to her and she just smiled so brightly at me,
"Thank you so much Shimmy for staying with me", I said to her and she just patted my cheeks and I just placed a soft kiss on her face,
"Okay so now I just need to go, I need to finish some work, I will come back to you after finishing my work", she said to me and got up from the bed and I just held her hand and she looked at me with confused eyes,
"I am hungry, I just need to eat something", I said to her and she again caressed my hair and patted my cheek and smiled at me so brightly,
"Oh I am so sorry, I did not even ask you if you need to eat something or not, I am so stupid", she said to me as she put her hand on her head and laughed at herself,
"Hey, you do not need to say that but I am really feeling like eat something", I said to her and she nodded her head with a big smile on her face,
"Just wait for me here okay, I am gonna get something for you, just tell me what do you want to eat", she asked me and I was just looking at her with blank eyes, no stranger ever cared about me that much before, she just snapped her fingers in front of my eyes and I just came out from my imaginary world and looked at her and she raised her eyes brow at me and I just smiled and shook my head with a small smile on my face and she also smiled back,
"I will eat everything you will get for me", she said to me and left the room with a smile after locking the door and I just laid on my bed again and a tear fell from the corner of my eye,
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