Battle Of Survival

Episode 17

Irish's Point Of View,

I was scared like hell already, his angry was telling me a story that how badly he wants to f**k me and want to make me his wife officailly and there is no way that I want that, I would rather die to be his wife,   I know life is so precious and it is so tought to get a life in a human skin but when your become real hell, you could do only one thing and that is you can wish for death, I know that only coward people does that, and I am not a coward, I was never a coward and I was alwaya brave, I used to fight with every damn situation, no matter what that was, it is the very first time in my life when I am being like this, I was never weak like this,  my dad used to call me a tigereass, coz I was just like that, I could kill people if they try to hurt me or my family or even my friends, I was always there for them, and people were scared of me fo real coz they know that I do not scare of anyone and I will give them a strong reason to cry if they dare to hurt anyone who are related to me.

This man was a real  monster in a human skin and I know one thing so well that he only married me so that he could rape me and f**k me every single night and I am not ready for that,  I am also a human being and I am not a f*****g s*x doll, he can not use me like that, I will not endure all this, I will f*****g kill me before he could do that to me again, I am feeling so damn disgusting already, he can not do that to me, I am also a human being and it hurts a lot when someone touches you without your will and force you for things that I dreamed with someone else, now I can understand so well that how they girls used to feel who gets rape and tourture for only pleasure of those monsters, I feel so pity for them and right now I also know that I am also in a vunerable condtion and here is no one who can pity on me.

But right now I am still feeling a  little safe coz he left me alone, thank god that my lie saved me and also thank me that my mind is creative that much so that I could save myself from all this, I just know that it was not easy for me to handle all this, but thank god that I did this, it was only option I had, coz I just know wo well that no matter how much I cry and please him for leave him, that monster will never listen to me, so I just had to do this, I do not think that I did anything wrong, even god also said that he helps people who help themsleves and I am ready to do anything to save myself, no matter how much energy it will take

I just got up from the bed and sat on it, I still could not beleive that he left the room just like that, I mean I just thought that he will try to force me or try to check if I am lying or not but he did not do anything like that, I just know that he was so angry and I made him angry and I was even ready to get hurt but I am so glad that at least for some days I am safe, I will try my best to save myself from this monster, I only belong to the Nile and only he could touch me the way I want, no one is allowed to touch me against my will and if anyone tries to touch me I swear to god I am ready to finish myself, I was breathing hard as I just took a deep breath to calm myself, a smile appeared on my face after he went from here, the door of my room got open again and I got scared that monster came back again, but I just took a deep breath in relif when I saw Shimmy walked in the room and closed the door and a big smile appeard on my face,

"Hey", I just said to her in excitement and she also smiled back at me and sat beside me, I just know that she was also very curious to know what happened just know coz I already wore my shorts again, I just can not express how happy I am, I mean I just know that I am not safe in this house until he is here but still at least for few days he will not come to me and I am so thankful to him for this,

"Hey now tell me fast what just happened here", she asked me and looked at me and I just put my hand on my mouth as I need to control my laugh at this house, as we all heard a famous quote which says that walls also has an ear so you should be careful with your words when you are at a different place, I just gulped hard and told her what just happened, she just put her hands on her mouth in shocking and I just tapped her shoulder, I just do not know how should I calm myself down as my body is still shivering and I am just feeling that he will come back anytime soon and attack me and I will not be able to save myself but still I just feel that I can do anything that I want and also I can save myself, yes I can do that at any cost,

"Hey Irish, that is your name, right, tell me what are you thinking and why he just got out from your room like an angry bull", she asked me and her words just made me laugh so hard but she just gave me a signal and told me to laugh a little slow or else anyone can suspect us so I just put my hands on my mouth and laughed so hard,

"So do you know that he got so angry when he got to know that I am on my periods", I said to her and I just saw how her expression got to change but she just forced a smile on me and I also smiled back,

"I know that man is full of lust and I am sure that he thought to f**k you but when he got to know that what he wants can not happen, he got so angry", she said to me and I nodded my head, she is so right and I am just so glad to have her as my friend or maybe a friend to be,

"Did he check this or just got agreed with you said", she asked me again and that scene came in front of my eyes when he pulled my shorts down to my legs and I was so f*****g scared at that time but thank god who gave me the sense to behave properly,

"No he did not, I mean he just pulled my shorts but when he saw that I am already wearing a pad, he got so angry and he held my jaw so tight, first he thought that I am lying but then he got to know that I am not lying he just got so angry and shocked", I said to her and we both just laughed a little, she just caressed my hair like a big sister and my eyes just build up with tears, I am the only child of my parents, sorry, I mean I was the only child of my parents so I always wanted to feel how does it feels when you have a big sister or brother and right now I am just feeling the same, and this feeling is simply so pretty and I am feeling so blessed, to be honest,

"Why you are looking at me like that", Shimmy asked me and I just forced a smile on her, I just do not know what should I say and how should I express what I am feeling,

"I am just thinking if I would ever have a sister, I wanted her to be just like you, so pretty and caring just like you", I said to her and she just looked at me with intense eyes and I just smiled again, I just know that what happened with me is so wrong and no matter how badly I want this to change but I just can not change it, but still one good thing happened to me and I got a friend here who is Shimmy and who is treating me like a sister and caring me like a mother and I just do not know if I ever could be this blessed after getting this cruel punishment, she smiled after hearing my words and her smile made me smile too,

"You think that I am pretty", she asked me with so much curiosity and I just looked at her with wide eyes, what is wrong with her, did not she sees a mirror, she is the most beautiful girl I have seen ever,

"Are you crazy or what", I asked her and she again looked at me with confused eyes and I just put my hand on my head, how come she is so stupid, can not she see how pretty she is, if I would be at her place then I would consider myself the luckiest and pretty girl in the world coz she is just like that, she looks likes a princess but the only difference is that she does not have any expensive clothes,

"Hey, you are trying to mislead me and I really did not get what you mean", she asked me and I just smiled at her,

"You are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen Shimmy", I said to her and I just looked at her as her eyes build up with tears and I just wiped her tears,

"Hey, why are you crying, what happened, did I say something which I should not say", I asked her and she just shook her head, but she was still crying and I did not like it, she is crying coz of me and I did not even know what did I say wrong,

"Shimmy, I am asking you what happened", I asked her again as it is hard to see her crying like this, and she just wiped her tears with her own hands and smiled at me,

"You know, no one ever call me pretty before", she said to and I just looked at her with wide eyes, how the hell this is possible, she is hell pretty and why no one ever said t her this, maybe people are jealous of her that is why no one ever said this to her,

"Are you f*****g serious, I mean it is so hard to digest, I just can not even believe this", I said to her but she just forced a smile on me,

"But that is true, no one ever said this", she said and I just pulled her into the hug and wrapped my arms around her,

"Trust me Shimmy, you are so pretty", I said to her again and she smiled at me with so much love and care,

"Thank you so much, Irish, you are the best thing ever happened to me", she said to me and I just wiped her tears,