Can't Hate You

Kisses

Sun

I was so sad.. how was it possible that there were still people who never ate cotton candy? Of course not everybody had to like it and it was totally normal that there were still people like these existing but he made it sound so sad.. like there would be more behind it all..

Somehow he didn't seem so difficult and harsh anymore. I knew that he was still annoying and all.. but at the end he was a human with feelings too.

Dean

"What about you? What made you love it so much?" I asked her trying to smile so it wouldn't be an awkward moment.. and I wouldn't lose myself and talk more than I had to.

She swallowed and looked at the soft candy that made her happy..

"Well... when my mom was pregnant with me she had to stand a lot of pain because I was a very very inpatient baby. I was a little too active and somehow she started craving cotton candy during that pain." she started and laughed. I saw how her eyes were shining and how she knew that this was silly. "So she told my dad about it but it was already really really late so it was very hard to find. Nobody would be selling cotton candy during that time. Especially because it was raining and very windy. Moon was probably pretty angry in that moment I guess." she continues and looked at me when she said 'Moon'.

I listened very carefully. The more things and details I got to know about her, the better. "So while my mom was in pain my dad rushed out, called the whole team and they looked for cotton candy everywhere because she insisted in getting it!" she kept smiling until she said 'team'. She froze for a second and looked at me like she said something that she shouldn't have said. She was really bad in hiding her feelings or lying.

If she would've only know that I already knew about her dads team and everything else about her..

"Uh.. he's playing.. football.. he WAS playing football.. the team,,. anyway.." she added and cleared her throat. I smiled so she would know that I didn't mind.. Very cute how she tried to make it up.

"They found it and drove back as fast as they could and after she ate it I stopped kicking and hurting her. She was in the eighth month as this happened. She probably passed her favorite down to me." her voice as so soft.. like she was telling me a fairytale. I could be listening to her for Horus. Her smile was so warm and so soft.. so beautiful. I fell for her.. I mean I fell for that smile.

"After I was born and grew up a little bit I always freaked out when I saw cotton candy.. well I still do. I just can't control it." she chuckled and my heart started racing. I cleared my throat. How could someone so sweet like her have an even sweeter obsession? That didn't matter because I wasn't going to care about her anyway. I was only going to do my job.

"That's.. cute." I said and looked away.. I wished my family would've been as amazing as hers.. although I hated her dad and her brother.. My mom died after she gave birth to me.. well actually I wasn't even sure if I had a mom or not.. of course I had one who gave me life but I couldn't remember anything about it.. all that dad told me was that she died. In the eyes of my dad I was only a project. That's why I didn't matter as well.

"Okay, let me help you to eat it. You didn't even touch it yet." she said still smiling and her positivity.. the way she was shining.. made even me happy..

For a second I just looked at her.. and realized something.

She was the only one one on this planet who didn't look at me like she was hating me.. who didn't look at me like I was her enemy.. or like I was worth less. The only one who had good intention, happiness, love and hopes in her eyes.

I got myself back together and raised my eyebrow. She took a piece of her candy and came a closer. I almost flinched like I thought she would want to hit me or something even though I didn't even know why.. I guess I was just used to it.

"Now open your mouth." she said and I raised my eyebrow even higher. She laughed.

"I promise it'll melt very fast on you tongue. You can only stick your tongue out if you don't trust me." she said with a soft voice and I did what she said even tho I was suspicious.

I stuck my tongue out a little bored and annoyed but when she put it on my tongue I literally felt like I was about to eat a cloud and I almost had to laugh. I closed my mouth and felt how it melted. I knew how it was going to melt and how it was going to felt but I never thought that I wold have to laugh. Especially because she looked so curious like something was going to happen.. I couldn't help but laugh. She laughed with me.

" never expected that eating cotton candy would feel this good..!" I admitted and she clapped. "See? It can make people happy."

It was very very weird but for the first time I felt something like happiness inside of me.. inside of my stomach.. I thought I was going to throw up.. but it wasn't that kind of sick feeling..

Then we just kept looking in each other's eyes.. our faces were so close to each other's... I looked at her lips and her smile got bigger..

Moon

I wanted to cry. I was driving around for at least more than a hour and I wasn't even sure how to find her. I didn't even know where I should look for her or where she was hanging around usually. I already checked the mall and a few parks but I couldn't find her. So I decided to call dad but he didn't pick up. That made me even crazier because he was always picking up, no matter what. I leaned back in my car and thought about places she could go to or he could take her too.

Even the thought of them both made me crazy. It made me want to punch him so hard until he would bleed out.. he literally took my sister and left with her.. thinking of them together and what they could be doing in that moment.. what he could be doing with her.. how he could be washing her brain.. I punched the wheel very hardly and a tear rolled down my cheek because I was so emotionally tired and angry.

This whole day was a mess and I just wanted to disappear for a while and get off all this stressing s**t.

It started raining.

They had to come back soon.. they just needed to because otherwise I was really going to kill him..

Sun

It started raining and I looked at him very worried. "Noo!" I said and we stood up. He looked as worried as me but also confused. I looked around. We were standing there all alone with candy in our hand.

"Dean they're going to melt!" I said not minding that we would get wet. That candy was more important because it caused such a peaceful moment between us that I almost believed he wasn't an asshole.. but he convince me of that otherwise. First he threw his cotton candy on the ground and took off his jacked to put it on me and cover my head with it..

Then he grabbed my hand and rushed with me in the direction where he parked his car so I threw my cotton candy away as well.. Not minding that this rain came from Moon, I let him hold my hand.. I knew that this rain was from him because it was salty as hell.

When we were standing in front of his car I realized something. These things.. were so cool and so different.. these things were the difference I wanted and was talking about all the time. Doing spontaneous things that might seemed crazy because we didn't even know each other was more fun than I thought and it wasn't as bad as I thought. I still knew that I needed to stay away from him and that he wasn't going to be good for me because he was the opposite of me but he woke something inside of me.. a side that I've never been aware of..

He opened the door for me but I closed it again. He looked at me with furrowed eyebrows, totally confused and I could feel that my hair was already completely wet. Just like his.. and it started getting curly..

"Wha-" he wanted to build his sentence but I didn't even give him a chance to because I tiptoed, wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him.

I didn't know what I was doing.. I didn't even think about it. For the first time I threw all my plans over board and just handled. All I did was feeling like doing it. I wanted it so much.. I couldn't hold myself back and I knew that I was probably going to regret it and that dad was going to kill me but in that moment I preferred to risk my death only to taste his lips again.. so soft.. so kissable..

First he didn't move like he was frozen but then he put his hands on my lower waist and pulled me closer.. he kissed me back and ran a hand through my wet hair..

Then I backed off and looked at him.. my high blood pressure almost made me faint. I was breathing heavily and very very nervous but I also felt the butterflies in my stomach...

He looked at me very shocked and maybe even a little worried.. but then he kissed me again..

Moon

My phone rang. Dad was calling, finally. I felt so relieved and anxious at the same time.

"Dad!" I said without even greeting him.

"Moon! Sorry for not answering, I was too busy.." he said a little irritated.

"What happened?" he added.

I told him what happened and he went nuts. He almost freaked out and I could even hear his anxiety through his shaking voice when he asked me about the details. Of course I didn't tell him that she left with HIM because if I would've done that, he would've died or killed her and I was the one who wanted to kill him.

He told me that he is going to call the team and that I should come back home first.

Sun

He brought me back home. We were standing in front of our mansion, still in the car, not saying a word.. in total silence. I couldn't stop smiling and the heat in my cheeks just didn't want to go away. I was doing things that weren't usual for me.. things that didn't fit me.

Actually I wasn't sure how to feel about this all. I was really afraid of what he was doing to me and what was going on with me.. I wanted to feel the excitement that he gave me all the time. I wanted this feeling to stay.. I wanted to risk it even though I knew he was going to ruin it.. even though I knew he was dangerous and different. Maybe I should be giving it a chance. Maybe all that crazy stuff would turn out good.

My hair was still wet. I squeezed it behind my ear and looked at his jacket which I was wearing.

"Thank you." I said smiling at him. My voice was a little more quiet than I wanted it to be. He smiled too running his hand trough his wet hair. "I should thank you for making me love cotton candy." he said and I couldn't help but giggle. It was weird.. I felt like I've known him my entire life..

Then I took off his jacket and while I was doing that he said "You can keep it.. it's still raining." he said and I had to laugh. I handed him his jacket. "If you want to live.. take it.". He laughed too because he knew what I meant.

If my dad would've see me with the jacket of a boy he would've cut it into little pieces and make him eat it. Then he would've killed me.

I got off the car and as I took a big step forwards I thought 'come on Sun... make changes... makes differences. Don't be that boring and simple...'. So I rushed back, opened the door, leaned over, kissed him and left as fast as I could before he could do anything or my parents would see us.. I walked in without turning around but I knew that he was smiling. My face was already hurting from trying to hide my smile.. why was I so silly?

Things like these were so normal to other girls but not for me..

As I walked into the living room I saw Chloe talking to my mom. They both looked at me eyes widened. Mom rushed over and hugged me really tightly but I didn't understand what the hell was going on and why Chloe was here.. I couldn't understand why they seemed so worried and confused..

"Where have you been?" she asked me very worried and Chloe said "You forgot your bag.." very pissed. I was confused. But then I got what she meant..

I forgot my bag. I forgot it at school before I left with Dean and I didn't come back.. I just let it there and forgot about the rest of the world while I was with him. I couldn't believe myself and the world that I've entered with him collapsed. I came back to reality and to myself and realized how I f****d up..

Then my dad walked in. "I'll call you as soon as we find he-" he stopped as he saw me. He was wearing the clothes that he was always wearing to his missions.. my stomach dropped and I've seen him this angry or the very first time in a while...