CHOOSING TO BE NUMBER 2

do you ever feel that one day you will stop being number two for everybody men family friends even your C/O. Well let me tell you i have i been the other woman for 13 years and let me tell you honey the Bull s**t get old you have to hide and pretend and submit and give people your all and return what do you get what the f**k do you get not a b***h ass thing why cause I'm the stupid b***h. I allow family friends and even lovers treat me as such second dog me use play with me abuse me an took my self esteem my self worth my diginity away why you ask me why? i say because im stupid b***h with a good heart ?. I use to be quiet family child a child of God but all that change when i met my first lust at 14. His name was TJ he was cute had the cutest smile nice body he was everything i wanted a bad boy that loves church he was my bad boy til one day he hurt me. One sunday i was going to church and he said he will meet me their i as i come upstairs to attend sunday school there he was looking all sexy in church wadrobe then there was this girl standing there touching him of course me i reacted and got out of character in church yes honey in church. As I'm getting upset the girl walk away and tells him to check me and you know what this son of b***h did slap me yes the stupid b***h hits me in church yes excuse my language. But anyway so you know what i did I did what any crazy black b***h would defend