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I felt even worse about everything the next morning.
It was already turning out to be a gray, dull day. Ariadne seemed even more uneasy than usual; almost as soon as we were up, she told us it was time to go back home to our place in Lawrence, so we dutifully got our things together and prepared to leave. Neither Ariadne nor Ash nor Ian had apparently noticed the absence of Gabe and me the previous night. Nobody even noticed how exhausted we both were. I tried to tell myself that maybe last night’s travesty wasn’t so bad after all; if Ariadne had found out, it would have been much worse.
But I was only lying to myself, as always. I knew deep down that it had been a disaster. And every time I tried to approach Gabe, he wouldn’t even look at me, much less talk to me. I felt awful, not
