For you, I hope the grass is greener

Chapter 5 On My Mind

Daniel's POV

I get to my car and starting up the engine just to sit in it for a moment to take a deep breath because when I'm in that house I now feel suffocated as if there is a weight on my chest.. and that weight is from being a father and husband. It's sad, but I know I can't handle this, and that's hard for anyone to admit.. but to know you're not good at something and failing horribly and about ready to hurt the best people in your life is completely frustrating. It's hard not to hate yourself after a realization like that.

I punch my steering wheel as I start to back out of our driveway and head to the coffee shop. I find myself pressing down on the steering wheel that I have to keep telling myself to calm down before I do something stupid and even get hurt. I finally pull into the place I have been almost every day for months now.. It's a little hole in the wall coffee shop that has decent food but better coffee.

The rambling of people around me that aren't putting any pressures on me as I sit and soak in the scent of coffee somehow helps calm me down. So I willingly walk into the little shop as I go straight to the countertop. "Yes sir, how may I help you?" the barista asks as I quickly reply. "Large black coffee with the ham and swiss breakfast sandwich."

She smiles before giving me the price as I quickly throw out a 20$ bill. "Keep the change." I say before walking over to a table by the drink pick up area. I have a seat pulling out my phone as I scroll for a moment before I hear the chair in front of me being moved. "Hey.. Is it ok that I sit here?" I'm annoyed with this question when there are plenty of other seats available in this place.

Until I look up to see a beautiful young woman who looks all put together, smiling down at me. "Yeah, of course." I casually say to her as I watch her sit down. I keep glancing from my phone and over to her. but tying ro act like I don't even see her. But with uiw amazing, she looks it's hard not to notice.

She has a very tight fit suit that exposes her long legs in tights. I keep looking to see she has a silky light blue shirt that makes her eyes just pop while showing the top of her obviously large cleavage. but only showing what she wants to show. It seems to only be a little bit but just enough to make me wonder what she is wearing underneath.. if anything. I can see her n*****s straight through the shirt and jacket, which means she is either cold, has them pierced, or is turned on.. and I find myself wondering which one it is.

"Sorry to bother.. You just seemed so nice and sitting alone, so I figured I would join while waiting for my stuff." She says sweetly to me as a bright wide smile appears on her face and thrown my way. Her hair is dark brown but not as dark as Daphne's but has red streaks in it as well, giving it a highlight I never expected. I like it.

I clear my throat as I notice her staring, so I quickly respond. "Well, I'm not usually that nice.. you caught me on a decent day." She giggles at that comment as she playfully hits my hand from across the table. "You slay me.. of course you are, or you wouldn't have let me sit here... besides, I have never met a bad person who likes just straight black coffee like I do.. So you can't be that bad." She says before leaving her hand out across the table but not on top of mine anymore. She is leaving it out and next to my hand.

"You heard my order?" I ask her as I glance away from her to anyone around, feeling almost guilty for talking with her even though it's pretty casual.. because I know that my thoughts about her so far aren't. "Yeah, I'm sorry. I was standing right behind you, and you got my exact order, so I thought it was fate." She states to extend me a seductive look. I clear my throat as I show her my wedding ring. "Well, my fate has already been decided.. I'm taken." I sate between gritteeth, hating myself for claiming that when I could have easily lied.

"Oh... that's fine.. I'm sorry for bothering you." She says, standing up without hesitation, but that has me standing up just as fast. "No, you're fine.. I wasn't trying to offend.. you can still sit here." I say as my hand opens up, showing the still open seat. She smiles over at me as she quickly sits back down. "See, I knew you were sweet whether you want to admit it or not." She states this smiling big at me, and I can't help but do the same to her. She makes me feel attractive and young again.. I haven't been hit on in a very long time, and this is stirring up feelings inside me I never expected.

We talk for an hour about anything and everything as if we are old friends. She is laughing as she radiates happiness with me until I stand up, making her look sad and surprised. "I'm sorry to cut this short, but I have to get to work.. to get some stuff done before I'm late." I explain to her as she quickly asks me. "Do you want to do this again sometime?" she instantly shakes her head at me as she says. "I'm sorry nevermind I don't want to bother.. this is just the most fun I have had with someone in a while and... I know you're married, and I don't want to cross lines.. so, just forget I said anything." She says sadly, making me sad at that sight.

"It's not a problem, I swear.. I had a wonderful time today, too.. I was having a bad morning, and you made it so much better.. that it almost made me forget about the work I have to do, or I would just sit here with you all day." I say to her as she reaches into her purse and pulls out a card. She takes her pen out and writing something on it before she smirks over at me.

"Well, if you get any extra time.. just give me a call, and we can get together again.. Or you could even just text me if calling isn't always available to you being married and all.. But.. I hope you have a wonderful day, and thank you for this.. it really made my day... I will be thinking about this all day." She says, caressing her card over my arm as I let her do it for a moment before taking the card into my hand but holding her hand with it.

"There will be extra time for this again." I say without hesitation as she smirks up at me and says. "I will be waiting for your call.. have a good day." I stand up with her as I feel my heart racing. but I instantly want more time with her. "Wait, I never got your name." I declare as she flips around with her hair bouncing as it flows over her shoulders. "It's Delilah.. and yours handsome?" she asks as I feel my face heating up. "Daniel." She hums out as she states. "I like that.. Daniel.. Can't wait to talk to you later.. I just hope you don't forget about me." I shake my head before quickly replying. "I won't.. believe me, I won't."

She winks as she walks out of this place. I find my eyes glued to her perfect frame as it sways from side to side with each step she takes. Making me want to skip work today and follow her out to have so much fun with her.. But I can't do that and I won't. I have to keep reminding myself that I'm married. I have never cheated, and I won't start now, no matter how tempting she is.

I let out a deep breath as I grabbed my things and headed out to my car. As I plop into my seat and put the keys in the ignition, all I can do is think about her and how incredibly sexy she was not doing much at all. I stare down at her card in my hand as I pick up my phone about ready to text her. I stop myself as I put the car into drive, taking off for my work.

It doesn't take long until I'm at my building, and once I park it, I find that I want to text her.. maybe just send her a short text, making sure she has my number... you know, just in case.

'Hey, it's Daniel.. thanks again for talking with me. I hope you have a good day.'

I send the message without hesitation before I get cold feet. I don't know why I feel so ashamed it was a very platonic message and just friendly. I hear my ohine beep, so I look down as I see she wrote me a message.

'You made my day something to remember.. I can guarantee I will be thinking about you all day.'

I have to keep reminding myself this is onyl for a friend.. but.. if it's only for a friend, then why do I feel rock hard right now thinking about her?

'Me too.'

I quickly respond because I know I will be doing the same as I have to tuck away my boner.

'Well, maybe, if you're not too busy.. than we can do something tomorrow night.. I will need a drink after my long day, since I'm busy tonight and all.'

I quickly think about that, and there is absolutely no objection in my mind at that thought.

'Yeah, that would be great. I would love to see you again.'

I smile as I get out of my car and head straight into work to get this day done with.

They day goes on as it always does the same old same old.. the only spark in the day is her.. she keeps messaging me every now and then just about random stuff in her day.. asking how mine is going and how hers is.. very boring but nice that she is thinking about me as much as I am about her.. as bad as that sounds.

We just continue to talk throughout the day and make me want to see her after work today, but I can't.. I need to try to show up for my family.. I need to try.. for them.. because no matter what, I do love them.

I finally get off of work.. it's been a long day, so I head straight over to my kids' school, knowing where every single one of them is at. They sit in the same area right behind the team because my wife is always early enough to do so.

I get into the gym, and she sees me as she waves.. the game is most of the way done, but as long as he doesn't know when I got hwre but that I am here is what matters.. because at least he knows I'm trying for him.

She leans in kissing my cheek as she points out our son as if I don't know what he looks like. My daughter sees me, and as I smile at her, she quickly sends me a small smile, and after a little while, my son looks excited to see me. They are kicking ass in this game, and there is no wondering who is going to win. I couldn't be happier for him. This distracts me enough to take my mind from that sexy woman today.. only for a little bit, but that's good either way.