Stellam Matutinam

Happy Days: Part II

It makes sense as to why he also didn't want to sleep with me, again not a bad thing for both parties since I need to get my s**t together ASAP. I'm just glad it's that and not the dreaded thought of him finding out my secret f****d up f**k triangle I've gotten myself into.

"So what you're saying is I'm allowed to stay on the island?" I sum up playfully to try and lighten the mood, my tone still meek and mouse-like to show that I'm not writing this whole conversation off as a joking matter.

"Island?" he frowns with a crooked grin making its way across his lips, my gentle tone gently rising back to its usual inside voice when I sense he too is happy to take the conversation back to lighter topics.

"I'm asking if I'm allowed to stick around and annoy you." I put plainly with a hint of a smirk still lingering at the corners of my mouth.

"Ohh I see now, get ya. Yes you are safe for another season of Luca's Trust Issues & Lack of Love Life. Here's your rose." he goes along and passes me the bong, laughter instantly spilling out from both of us until it's dying down to giggles and sniggers.

"You're lucky, I only had one rose left." he adds with a goofy wink and instantly I'm pissing myself laughing again.

"You are a fuckwit but I'm loving the fact you went along with it." I admit while packing myself a cone then sliding the glass bowl across the coffee table towards Luca.

"Trust me, plenty of more where that came from." he assures me and once again I'm giggling away wondering how the f**k can someone make me laugh so much over the most stupid s**t.

Like I don't think I laughed this much when I was around Nessa and the others. Mainly Nessa and Josh for they brought out the flirty side in my just not as much. I find I'm doing most of the flirting with Luca and he's just sitting back, loving the fact he doesn't have to do the hard work in figuring out where the feelings lie.

I'm giving them up to him on a silver platter for his pickings and I'm just lucky he's returning what I'm giving, in his own weird and respectable way...

Even if I think at times he's planning out something in his head or searching around for incoming dangers. Sometimes I even see guilt written all over his face.

"Yeah well I'll have to catch that on the next round. You have an unwanted city trip that awaits you." I point out when he checks the time for about the third time now on his phone.

"I'm sorry I feel rude as f**k, I promise I won't be rushing to get out of here next time round. It's just if I f**k these people ov-"

"It really is fine Luca you don't have to explain to me. Now come on I'll walk you to the door." I smile gently in unison with getting ready to rise up from my surprisingly comfortable position on the couch just half an inch or so away from him, our body's turned slightly so that we're able to face each other, our joined hands now finally parted due to him standing up and assessing whether he should take the offer or not.

"Alright one more cone then I'm off." he sighs then collapses back down on the couch in the arse dent he's made in the couple of hours he's been here.

"Sweeeet." I say over the rim of my nearly finished energy drink before emptying the rest of it into my dry arse mouth.

Doing that we eventually make it to my front door with the both of us once again lingering around the still closed door, my mouth wanting to say something though it won't open since I haven't thought of what I'm going to say next.

"It really was good seeing you, and I'm sorry if I made you a little upset before when I said I was contemplating wiping you, I just-"

"It's. Fine Luca. I get it. I myself had those thoughts too but not just about you, about everyone. But I have had a change of heart as you can see, much like you have." I intervene with a small smile and lower my eyes to my shoes when he pushes his frame off of the closed door to come and wrap his arms around me, a gesture still a little foreign from him since we don't do it often.

Holding on for a few moments longer than I thought it would be, I feel the unmistakable gentle press of his full lips on my forehead, the same way he did last night only that was the back of my head.

If only he knew the real reason why I thought of packing up and ditching, he'd only make it easier by cutting me off and letting me get on with leaving this place behind. A place where new sad memories have been created.

Eventually the hug ends with my heart hammering away erratically in my chest, my being wanting more though I know it won't happen for we both sort of stated that right now isn't the best time. I just wish I wasn't mixed up with Nessa and Josh.

Calm Lilith, it's only a hug. A really good and warm hug...

"I'll see you later okay? Just be safe and let me know if anything happens, I'm only a phone call away." he promises with a blush subtly heating my cheeks when I can still feel his arms around me and body pressed hard against mine.

"You will and I'll let you know if anything happens. That and I'll let you know how I go with the flat." I add as the door opens and he's halfway out of my apartment.

"Please do, I wanna be the first person to christen it with a mix." he grins which instantly has one forming on my lips as well.

"You got it, thanks again Luca for everything and please again be safe as well. Make sure you drive sa-"

"Now now Lilith my dear, let me be the one to worry about you." he winks across me before making his way to the elevator at the end of the hallway, a couple from a few doors down stepping out and chatting happily amongst themselves in the background just as Luca makes it about ten steps in.

"f**k you man." is all I can mutter under my breath since the goofy grin on my head is making it hard to think of anything else other than the fact that we're getting closer each time we see each other.

Stepping back into my apartment and closing the door I make my way back to the lounge and retake the seat I was in before Luca left, a large sigh escaping past my lips though the smile doesn't falter once when my brain goes back over last night and today.

Fuck life is going good again.