Being Enamored By Him

Bacherlor's Party

When everything around you suddenly becomes perfect then it is an indication of something worst yet to come.....

Naina's POV

It was almost at twelve when my phone vibrated and seeing that it was Kabir I finally sighed but I was angry at him too for not calling me the moment he landed! According to me, his flight landed at eleven and he was calling me at twelve! full one hour late. putting my fake anger aside I answered the phone and his voice was enough to make my heart melt....

"Hey cutie pie... missed me?" Kabir asked the moment I answered. now a days he is flattering himself way too much!

"Only possible in your dreams cutie," I said smiling to myself. I can imagine the scowl on his face! He thinks he know me better than I know him!

"You are soo mean you know this?" he asked sounding annoyed. Before I could even say anything else he continued.

"And this is my nick name for you. So don't be a cheater and invent something new." He huffed and this made me laugh but somehow I controlled it. Kabir and his antics my God!

"Nope cutie suits you," I said enjoying this lovely stupid early morning bickering with him that too when he was not even near me!

"Okay then if I am cutie then you are my pie and mark my words Naina Kapoor I am gonna eat my pie as soon as I will be there with you," Kabir said with so much confidence which made me blush like anything.

"Okay okay fine enough of this," I said to him to which he laughed soo hard that it made me blush like a tomato.

"By the way, Kia is coming over today to stay with me for the next ten days," I said to him all sincerely and even he was listening to me intently.

"Ooh, that is good! Atleast for the next ten days, I will not worry much as Kia will be with you" he said making me smile.

"You don't have to worry for me, Kabir. And yeah tonight I, Kia, my office friend Jennifer and Kia's office friend Emma are going to celebrate Kia's bachelor's night" I said hurriedly as I surely didn't want to listen to any lecture on this and I also knew what was coming next!

"And?" He asked in the anticipation of knowing where we are going to celebrate this party?

"well umm, most probably we will go to a club" I whispered.

"Don't tell me you girls will all go to a strip club please" he almost yelled but I could sense he was just worried nothing else.

"No way Kabir are you out of your mind or what? By the way, em( Emma) do suggested this but Kia and I both didn't agree so it was dropped then and there" I said to him remembering the conversation when we all were on the conference call discussing about what we should do tonight to make this night special for Kia.

And when Emma suggested going to a strip club Kia gasped although the idea was not too bad as according to me here in canada this all is so normal besides it will be her last day as a bachelor but it was not also a very good idea so we all dropped that idea then and there. then we just decided to go to a high profile club so as to save ourselves from anything which is inappropriate.

"Thank goodness... then what are your plans?" Kabir took a deep breath to relax himslef. Honestly, nowadays I am really enjoying this possessive and jealous Kabir more who gets over protective in a minute that too when everything is normal. I am really feeling like my husband is madly in love with me which makes me all the more happy knowing that he loves me like anything.

"We will just go to a club then they will get drunk as you know what happened when I got drunk last time...." I trailed off and Kabir chuckled.

I still remember that day like it just happened yesterday but again that day was special for me as I realized how much Kabir respects our relation and he will never do anything to jeopardize our bond even if it is me who is forcing him to do it. All this make me respect him more and more, I fell in love with him again and again hopelessly!

"Are you even listening to what I am saying?" Kabir said bringing me back to earth.

"uhh... yeah sorry I zoned out," I said to him.

"It's fine just remember you have your appointment due today and don't you dare miss it at any cost" he literally threatened me and honestly the way he said it I genuinely felt scared.

"But Babir...." I tried to protest but he was in no mood to listen to me.

"No ifs and buts Naina, you never take your health seriously ever. Also, I am not there to drag you to the hospital so stop being difficult and go to the doctor" He said calmly as if controlling himself.

"Okay," I said feeling defeated.

"Naina I will call you later just take care of yourself cutie-pie," He said and I could listen to the commotion in the background that he had finally reached home safely.

"Okay. You too take care" I said and after exchanging love you soo many time we both finally hung up. I again felt lonely all of a sudden and didn't know why but I was missing Kabir way too much so instead of being alone I decided to go to the doctor as it was already one in the afternoon and my appointment was at 2......

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"Mrs. Kapoor?" Nurse called my name and I don't know why but I was nervous like hell. It was for the first time that I was in this dreadful place alone!

"Yeah it's me," I said and made my way towards the doctor's cabin..

"So Mrs. Kapoor how have you been feeling?" Dr. Verma asked me eyeing my head with the weird equipment which every time gives me chills.

"I am good now. In fact, now I am better than ever. I hardly get a headache now" I said truthfully and she continued her work.

"Hmm. Naina look don't get me wrong but as of now everything is looking good and it is definitely a good news that you don't get headaches anymore but" She trailed off as if searching for the right words.

"Last time when you came here we did certain tests and I am afraid but I have to ask you this when was the last time you had your periods?" She asked me and trust me I was horrified even by the possibility of being pregnant.

"Umm doctor my periods are not regular. It's been almost two months by the way" I said to her and she hummed.

"Hmm... Naina look I am afraid but you may never be able to conceive ever" she said sadly.

The moment those words left her mouth my eyes widened and I was beyond shocked... it was as if somebody was stabbing me repeatedly without even feeling guilty.

"Naina," Dr. Verma said to me keeping her hands on mine.

"I know every girl wants to be a mother. I can understand what you must be going through right now but still don't lose hope. Your womb is too delicate to carry a baby. And Naina there is one more thing if ever you conceived then there is a high chance of miscarriage. If by chance you had a miscarriage then you might never be able to conceive ever." She said calmly as if she was making things understand to a five year old kid.

"Doctor, what are the chances of my baby's survival if ever I conceived?" I don't know why I asked this question but before I could analyse what I asked it was already said out loud.

"Naina honestly as a doctor I cannot say much, it truly depends on how much healthy your womb is and how much healthy you are at that moment. Also, Naina miracles happen on this earth just don't lose hope" She said kindly reassuring me and I nodded without actually feeling anything.

After that, I left that room without saying anything. Even if I wanted to I couldn't say anything. I was blank completely. Have you ever experienced that moment in your life when you wanted that one particular thing so badly but when you were just inches away from it suddenly something happens that thing goes far far away from you!

This is what I was feeling defeated, helpless.. never for once, I thought that I will never be able to be a mother which I wanted so badly. I wanted to live my childhood through my baby's childhood. I wanted to give my baby everything that she deserved and not only that I wanted to pamper her like anything but now all my dreams were once again shattered into pieces. What scared me the most was the fact how the hell I am going to tell Kabir all this. I still remember that day when he suddenly asked me about having kids!

Naina you know what sometimes I think about our little child who I preferably want to be a babygirl. I want her to look exactly like you. Your eyes your smile everything should be just like you. Umm, I am not been able to express myself but you know what I am talking about!"

I couldn't get this thing out of my head what Kabir said that day. It is obvious that he wants children but I cannot give him that. When everything was finally so perfect again why my fate has to play this cruel game. I was walking without even thinking about where I was going. There was a park nearby I went there and sat silently asking questions to no one in particular.

I was so lost that I didn't even realise that somebody kept their hand on mine.

"Don't cry." A sweet melodious voice said.

When I turned I saw a cute little chubby girl sitting just beside me observing me keenly. She was not older than five definitely but the way she was staring at me it looks like she was way more mature than her age. I was so lost that when I didn't respond she stood up on the bench and wiped my tears with her small hands.

"Mommy says you should never cry" She again said in her baby voice which made me smile.

"What is your name?" I asked her caressing her cheeks.

"Hope," She said in a baby voice and beamed at me.

I was startled when she said her name is hope. It felt like she was an Angel Sent for me to tell me everything will be fine, to make me realise have Faith and everything happens for a reason.

She was soo cute with blue eyes long curly hairs and she was smiling at me. Then she bent down and kissed my cheeks, before I could even say or ask anything her mom called her name and then she was gone....

It was as if God was trying to tell me something but I was unable to understand what he wants me to know. One thing was sure my heart was beating so wildly as if telling me to have some faith on myself and God, with time everthing will be fine.....

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After putting myself together It was almost six in the evening when I was back to home. The moment I entered Kia was looking all worried and she hugged me.

"What happened?" I asked her hugging her back.

"What the hell Naina do you even have any idea how worried I was? Where the hell is your phone? Why you were not answering my calls? I told you I will accompany you to the doctor but you being you" She rambled and honestly I felt bad this time, actually I felt horrible for putting her into this.

"Shh. I am.sorry.I didn't want to disturb you, Kia! You are getting married, nowadays you are already so stressed, and I forgot my phone in the car." I said and smiled sheepishly.

"You nuthead! I was worried Naina" She said and hugged me more tightly.

"I know. I am really sorry, forgive me please" I said to her as normally as I could.

I did want to tell her about what doctor said but this moment was not the nicest one and today was the day when she should be happy, I certainly don't want her to be worried for me....

"Let's go don't you want to get drunk and have fun?" I asked her with zeal, she immediately nodded a yes and finally smiled at me...

The moment we entered in the club we were straight escorted to the VIP area which was far more better than the normal one, people were much more sophisticated and the ambiance of the club was really good.

I was dressed way too casually that for a moment I felt odd being there in just a crop top, leather jacket and jeans whereas all the other three were looking gorgeous and were dressed in beautiful dresses, not that I didn't want to dress up, but I was fine the way I was looking.

I ordered a virgin mojito for myself whereas Jennifer, Emma, and Kia ordered vodka for themselves. At this moment I really don't want to stop Kia from doing anything, she can do whatever she wants to do but in limits, this is the reason I don't want to get drunk. I am the one who is responsible for their safety and I am really glad to be the one.

All the night I was disturbed like anything, I was just smiling when it was needed and thank goodness Kia didn't notice this change in me. I didn't want to spoil her night. After getting hopelessly drunk all three went to the dance floor and much to my dismay Kia dragged me to the dance floor and made me dance......

It was almost one when we were back. I dropped Jennifer and Emma to their respective houses and Kia was really getting out of control minute by minute.

"Arghh Kia, will you just stand straight for a moment?" I shouted at her but she ignored my question completely and was muttering something which was not audible to me. After struggling for fifteen minutes I finally put her to bed and checked my phone but still, I showed no new notifications.

Throughout the day Kabir didn't call me at all, we last talked in the morning, although I don't really want to talk to him right now, I was truly not prepared to tell him about what the Doctor said. I need to figure out something.. with this thought and hope I drifted to sleep..