The Abuse Out Cast

The Past; Kissing Cousin's

                                                                          April 18, 1805

                              Dear diary, Last night was a wonderful night as well as a trying one. I shift into my wolf we are larger than any other wolf plus we have a double crown on my shoulder in purple. My wolds name is Angelica she told me she old as time, she funny and sweet. Angelica is wise an old soul she has a lot to teach me. She has been telling me a few things that I do need to know now, my father tries to kill us last night. Angelica said he will keep on trying till he is killed. My brother came as fast as he could last night. but I was able to get free of him when he saw the warriors coming he ran. Nanna has already informed the king and he is now wanted by our King. Alfred is now the alpha to our pack father a rouge but Alfred said he is still on our land hiding. they will find him hopefully soon.

                            Angelica said we are still in danger so I need to stay close to my family. I also found my mate last night. he is a duke from Russia and a distant cousin to our family Nanna said. he is so handsome and dreamy, I can't wait to get to know him better. Nanna has filled him in on what my father try and he became very angry promising he would kill him himself if he tries to come near me again/

                            We dance and talked till three this morning and it was heavenly, I went to sleep smiling and dreamed of him. His name is Misha Nikalen Smmav he is twenty-four and here to see King Fredrick and Queen Isabel and Nanna. He wants us to take our time to get to know each

                            Nanna is so happy he is my mate. She said she knows he will take good care of me and protect me as well. I wouldn't be lying by saying I am frightened by my father you never know what he will do. He wants power over all he thinks it makes it easier to take over our King and he has some packs that are behind him in this. He has become a very dangerous man now. This puts Misha in danger as well just for being my mate, my father will try to kill him as well. Diary what am I to do.

                           Nanna came in to tell me to come downstairs and have brunch everyone is up and waiting on me. so for now I'll end here. After we have eaten then we shall leave with Alfred and Emma to see the ground and packs land. I think they are trying to get an ideal where he might be able to hide on the land and who may be helping him in this. later diary.

                          Dearest Diary, I had such a wonderful day we took a picnic with us and after an hour we stop by the lake and set it out. we four just sat there just talking about our pack and the land, Alfred talks about the things he has planned for this pack and the land seeing that it is so huge. This pack has been here for centuries and has grown in size and land. we first started in the Stated then move up towards Canada now we are half in each. Alfred wants to build a hospital with more doctors and nurses as well as a lumber business to start. He wants to make more jobs for our pack that they don't have to work in the human cities if they don't wish. Offer those who both parents that work someplace to take their pups to. He wants to better than or father making this pack stronger on its own better care for our people here. were father did very little for them.

               I'm so proud of my brother and what he sees is possible for our people and land making us only dependent on ourselves  We had a wonderful time this afternoon. but it had to end when Alfred was mind link that there was a sighting of father and for of his guards that disappeared from duty last night at the eastern border close to where we we're. So they pack it up and hurry and got us back to the house, still, Alfred had a small army of guards meet us on the way back. Once we reach the house Alfred had Misha stay with us and some of the warriors Alfred trusted to guard us, Nanna warriors were there as well. Not to say Nanna was not mad as hell over this. After some hours Alfred returned upset that they hadn't found him yet. He orders all houses to be checked all at the same time, this way those that are loyal to him can't send out an alert to him and his own. Everyone agrees that it was a good plan, thus making it harder to stay hidden our the pack's land. He'll have to leave our land becoming a true rouge.

                Our King has already declared his rouge and is sending some of the royal guards to help catch him and bring him to justice. Father is very smart, he knows these lands around us not just our lands. He and those that follow him can stay hidden for a very long time without being caught. This is what a fear most. what if he tries to get to our mother and kills her as he may have been planing. He was messing around with that little slut Laura but said he plans on making her his luna soon. Alfred has her in his office right now. She wouldn't be able to link father, Alfred saw to that at once. She was given a shoot with wolfbane in it. she can hear her wolf even, he will keep at it till she talks. He hates to torcher a woman even one like her so he will try this a different way not allowing her food, drink, or sleep hoping that after some time she will tell him everything.

                   Misha is being kind to my mother seeing how upsetting this all is to her. that mate's bond is hard to break. harder for her to believe he would do all this to his family.  Him trying to kill his own child, his daughter she can't understand it. She has been weeping all night and this morning. Nanna is trying to keep our mother as busy as she can. With this new thing with Laura, she is even more hurt. Misha told her we will go to Russia to visit that she will love it there. that has made her smile, she now has something to plan for us.

                   Nanna and Alfred think it may be a good idea to get my mother and me somewhere far away and safe till we can find our father. I would love to see Russia but I have a fear of water. this will be hard for me on a boat oh goddess help me. My luck I just may get seasick as well now that would be bad.

                  Oh, little one I think I will not like this at all. Sailing across the seas on a ship no, no, no I want to keep our legs on the land at all times little one. Wolves are not up to long rides over the waters on any ship. I will not go. 

                 I guess we will have to see you are asleep through this trip. Don't worry Angelica it will be fine in the end. You will love Russia as well as long as you are with our mate. Have you talk to his wolf yet Angelica. Or are you playing hard to get right now?

                 Huff, he is a rude un manor wolf. Such rude suggestions he makes. I am A lady wolf, we need the time to get to know our mates Misha has it right with you taking it slow but his wolf grrrr, Stop that growling Angelica it will all turn out okay in the end. I THINK NOT IF HE DOESN'T START TO WISE UP.

                   Angelica stop yelling in my head you'll give me a headache if you don't. As I said it will all work out in the end for us, I promise you this. Misha and Nanna just want to keep us safe from father, when Nanna leaves for home mother and I are going to go with her for a while. this was decided that today. Misha also going with us  It will take us four days to get there. Bye Carriage, I wish we could by train but still, we have to travel by carriage, he and Nan for close to a day. We will stay there for a few months until Alfred feels it safe for us to return there. Tonight Misha and I will dine alone to a very romantic meal. Nanna said we need more time alone to get to know each other. for now, I'm just happy we been talking a lot learning more about our mate.

                             We took a walk around the garden talking about my life here, in my childhood growing up. we sat there for hours just talking about our childhoods what our dreams are and what our lives will be like together. I learn that his father was killed when he was six in the great war in Russia, his older brother was mured when he was just thirteen, Last year his mother was attracted by rouges in her rose garden. He has two sisters one is older than him and married, then he has a fourteen-year-old sister from his stepfather who also was killed in the attack on his mother trying to save her. Right now she away at school but once we are married she will come home. I was schooled at home so will she be then. father had talked about finishing school but I have found my mate Misha so I no longer need that. After the mating ceremony and wedding, my mother will come live with us. She'll help teach me how to handle my household and to be luna to the pack.  

                             Misha pack is larger than ours the blue ridge pack has for Thundred members, Misha pack the blue wolves have seven hundred members the second larges pack to the king in Russia. his king is also his uncle as well, our king in England is a cousin to the Russian king. Nanna said there is a lot more to the history between the two kingdoms that she will explain to me later. In a moment my maid will be in to help me bathe and get ready for dinner with Misha, just us two alone no others there to make me feel shy around him. When he takes my hand to kiss or just hold I blush when someone says how cute. Everyone looking to see if we will kiss, when he kisses my cheek they all just smile at us and it makes me feel very self congest all the time. Tonight is just for me, for us we start a new chapter in our lives. 

                        Maggie Lily is up she said she hurry can I give her a little something to eat so she settles down a bit. She woke two of the other children as well so we have foufor things we can use in here , as well as more vegetation and fruits for the children. r tods up right now. 

                        I'm sorry Lucy she should haven't done that. that girl is being a sassy child. Yes, feed all of them a snack this should make her feel a little better. everything that has happened in the past five days has her upset so she is acting out badly. She is so much like her father she doesn't handle change like this very well. Paul is one of the most stubborn man I ever met and so is his daughter. She misses him it's hard for her to be away from and she too young to understand all this at four she can grasp the meaning of everything. 

                         Maggie, I know this is hard on Lily as it is on you, all we can do is pray and hope for the best. I really believe our alpha is alive and out there waiting. He will find us safe there in his brother's pack. Right now we just need to stay safe and hidden from our enemy. right now we are safe here in this cave where no one can get to you and your girls. William talking with the warriors on your plan and some of the women as well on searching for anything that we can use in here, as well as more vegetation and fruits for the children. anything on who places the reward out on you to try and get hygiene While the warriors are out there trying to learn who is behind the reward and who the other alpha that helped him is. They are to get hygiene products for the pack in here if they find any of our people to bring them here. also, clothes or cloth to make some clothes for the kids.

                       Yes, I know he would we talked about it last night about training those women who are able to learn how to fight. those mothers who wish to train as well it be a good ideal if they did to be able to keep their pups safe and themselves. William will be training me himself. I want you and Trish to learn with me you two are their nanny and I need to know that the two of you can fight to keep them safe. I have told William this morning my wishes. I also want the older pup to be taught as well even Lily will start to be trained.

                     I would be happy to train with you and so will Trish, to train with our luna alone is an honor for us. Also, we may need to bathe Lily after she finishes eating she peed herself while napping. She refuses to let me or Trish remove her wet clothes and wash her. I think she is embarrassed about it.

                      Oh my, she hasn't done that in the two years she been potty train, I think she may be upset over it as well. It is because of all that we have just gone throw. My poor little girl, I will take her away from everyone then bathe her and dress in clean clothes then wash that one she had only three change of clothes in her backpack the twins have enough in one of the diaper bags

                     Don't worry about it Lucy it will be fine well I am bathing her I will talk with her try to make her feel better and safe. I will explain to her better what has happened and what we are here and where we plan to go on time. Hopely it will help her understand things and calm down some. I also hope it will here with her behavior. So now let's go and grab a snack for ourselves and some water, my mouth is dry from all the talking.

                     I then place the diary in my backpack where I had put her jewelry. After that, we walked to where those pups that were up with their mother are eating and has some more of the stew. everyone talking and laughing about the silly things our mates have done in the past years. After I and Lily had finished, I take Lily's hand and grab her backpack and mine, and head for the hot spring to bathe her and myself. and have our little talk. This was the best way to do it and after I hope she will e okay.

                      It hurts knowing she is scared and unsure of her future. She just a four-year-old little girl who has so much on her mind right now and I need to make her feel safe again. So we will do a mommy and me time.