Begging for rejection

Chapter 11 - Subs?

Derek POV

She grabbed my hands and I felt the tingles again, her hand fit perfectly in mine like it’s made for me, she is made for me by the goddess herself, I keep staring at our hands tangled together and I want this moment to last forever.

“I’m sorry” she says just above a whisper, I look at her and she is staring at our hands too.

“For what?” I ask her.

she looks up with eyes brimming with tears, I can’t stop myself from reaching for her cheeks wiping a falling tear and she leans into my palm and closes her eyes… she feels it too, maybe not as strong as me but she wants me, she wants this.

“For everything… for hurting you, you don’t deserve that” she opens her eyes and straighten herself, but her eyes doesn’t meet mine before she continues,

“But believe me it’s for the best” she finish saying.

this bullshit again.

“Whose best Alexandria? Because it’s sure as hell not mine. This is killing me, and it’s not for your best either, you want this, don’t try to deny it… so is it for Luke?” her eyes snapped to me and she pulls her hands from mine and I instantly miss it.

“Yes, In one way or another” she answers me.

“ALPHA WE ARE UNDER ATTACK, EAST BORDER” Sean, one of my warriors mind-links me, I just carry Alexandria bridal style and sprint to the pack house

“What the hell are yo-” I cut her off “we are under attack”.

I reach the pack house and find Dylan coming my way.

“I need you to stay with Dylan” I tell her as I put her down.

“no you need him I can take care of- ” I cut her off again.

“Not now Alexandria, I need to focus on the attack not your safety” I almost yell at her and she surprisingly stays quiet.

I look at Dylan and he nods understanding my silent command as he leads her into the house, I wait to see them going through the front door and I shift mid air to my deep black wolf except for a crescent shaped red patch on my chest and head to the direction of the attack.

I reach the east border and I see Dean’s wolf, black as mine but with white paws fighting two rogues, I see my other warriors fighting too but some are still in their human form fighting other humans…must be hunters, since when rogues and hunters fight together?.

my warriors are winning, both in wolf and human form, these hunters are weak, unprofessional so what the hell are they doing attacking the strongest pack?

“Keep few alive” I mind link the warriors as I fight my way through rogues and hunters without even breaking a sweat, this battle will end in minutes.

Alexandria POV

I do what Derek says and go with Dylan, I know, I’m surprised with myself too but he needs to focus, I need him to focus, he has to come back safe.

As soon as we enter the pack house we are met with a glaring blond who is giving me dirty looks, what’s up her ass?

“Natalia, go guard the doors of the pack house” Dylan tells that Natalia b***h who keeps glaring at me.

“Who is she?” she asks.

“None of your f*****g business, go to your post NOW” he commands.

Okay, didn’t see that side of Dylan before, but I like it.

“yes gamma” she bows her head and runs outside.

“This way, sorry about her, she has a major crush on Derek and must have seen him carry you out of the woods” he says as he leads me to what looks like the basement.

I 'm feeling a surge of jealousy, okay, so she is not just a random b***h she is a b***h that I need to kick her ass, I decide as I enter what looks like a huge safe room filled with chairs and beds.

On the side there is a big table full of food and snacks, beside it there is an industrial fridge, like the one you see in restaurant kitchens, must be full of beverages and other food.

“I’ll be just outside the pack house; don’t move unless I, Dean or Derek come for you, okay?”Dylan instruct me and I just nod.

“ someone is being compliant today” he says with a fake chuckle in a failed attempt to lighten the mood.

he must sense my stress, gamma and Luna always have a special bond as his first priority in life is to protect his Luna even if it meant to disobey his alpha.

I give him a weak smile and say “Don’t worry about me, just be safe” he nods and heads out.

I see Sophia try to organize the women, children and elders of the pack, basically anyone who can’t fight; as they start to fill the room.

I find a chair in the far corner and settle in it.

“Please come back, please be okay, you can’t die too” I keep chanting to myself.

An hour passes and finally the doors to the room open, I shoot out of my chair, I see Sophia almost flying to Dylan’s arms and he snuggles into her neck, he puts her down and announces

“The attack is over, no one got serious injuries just few minor ones” he says the last part looking to my eyes assuring me that Derek is fine.

“You can all go home now” he finishes, as I make my way to him and Sophia

“Hey guys” I greet them with a smile.

“You want to see him?” Sophia says more like a statement and I barely nod before she takes me by the hand and we head upstairs.

We are outside the pack house, I see warriors leading some rogues in chains and… humans? Into a building nearby, must be the pack prison.

I notice a tattoo on one of the humans; it’s like a circle with a wolf’s head inside it and a big X across it, amateurs.

“They had hunters helping?” Sophia wonders out loud.

“Those are just subs” I blurt out with disgust.

shouldn’t have said that out loud.

stupid Alexandria, why do I keep blurting s**t to them?

“What are subs? And how do you know that in the first place?” Sophia asks looking at me with suspicion.

Fuck Alexandria how are you gonna explain this one… or maybe that will be my ticket out?

I start to open my mouth but before I can say anything I’m shoved to the ground and wince in pain as my wound starts to ache.

“sorry , didn’t see you there” that blond b***h again.

I hear a growl, I look up and see Sophia and her eyes are midnight black, her wolf is on the surface.

Natalia shivers and bows her head, I see Sophia taking a step towards her so I quickly stand to my feet and grab Sophia’s wrist,

“it was an accident, please let it go” I say looking at her with pleading eyes.

I don’t need this to escalate or to draw more attention to me, plus I will deal with this b***h myself but not now.

Sophia clenches her jaws and say with gritted teeth “do that s**t again and it will be the alpha that you’ll have to deal with, NOW GO” Natalia doesn’t think twice and she scatters away, I really like that side of the gammas.

She turns to me and asks “are you okay?”.

I’m holding my side now as it still hurts but I try to hide it.

“I’m fine just need to rest I guess” I tell her but my focus is not on her anymore as I see a half naked Derek covered in blood and in a basketball shorts coming out of the woods.

I guess I look concerned because the next thing Sophia says is “it’s not his blood, don’t worry” and I sigh in relief.

I see him looking for something or someone then he locks eyes with me and his shoulders relaxs.

he seems relieved that I’m okay but he doesn’t move, good because I really don’t want to talk to him after our last conversation before the attack, I don’t know what to say to him anymore, it seems anything I say only hurts him further.

“Can you take me to my room now, I really need to lay down” I ask Sophia, she looks at me confused but do as I asked.