Chapter 6
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TRIXIE'S POV
NGUMITI ako na hinawakan ang kamay nito, hinila siya papasok ng silid na bakas sa mga mata ang halo-halong emosyon. Pag-aalala, takot, kaba, kasabikan at pagnanasa. I know what he's worried about. Dahil kaibigan niya ang mga kapatid ko. Tiyak na inaalala niya ang resulta nito bukas, but I don't mind it anymore.
Duh, I'm already thirty-three and I'm still virgin! Kahit minsan lang, kahit isang gabi lang, gusto ko ring maranasang sumaya. Magwalwal, maging wild girl at maabot ang tinatawag na langit. Hindi ko alam pero, bigla akong tumapang. Hindi naman ako gan'to e. Maingat akong babae lalo na sa katawan ko. Even my ex boyfriend–Gello, hindi niya ako natikman kahit kailan. Hanggang yakap at halik lang kaming dalawa. Walang romansa at higit sa lahat? No s*x.
Kaya marahil naghanap siya ng iba. Dahil hindi ko naibibigay ang pangangailangan niya bilang lalake. Ang makipagtalik sa kanya. Kaya sobrang minahal ko siya, dahil hindi niya ako minamadali. I admitted to him that I'm still virgin. At gusto ko, ibibigay ko ang kalinisan ko sa kanya, right after our wedding. And he agreed to it.
“T-trix, you're drunk, we can sleep together but–”
“Ayaw mo ba sa katawan ko, Anton?”
Kaagad siyang umiling. “No, it's not like that. Nag-aalala ako dahil nakainom ka. Ayokong bukas paggising mo na katabi mo ako sa kama ay. . . magsisi ka. Hindi ko na maibabalik sa'yo ang kalinisan mo, kung sakali. So, please? Think about it. Baka nadadala ka lang sa nainom mo,” he said calmly.
I stared at him. We're already inside the room. Hindi nakabukas ang ilaw. Pero dahil bilog ang buwan sa labas ay naaaninag naming dalawa ang isa't-isa dito sa silid. Glass wall ang banda ng likuran nito, kaya kitang-kita ko ang bulto niya. Kung gaano siya katangkad at kung gaano siya kakisig.
The moonlight streamed through the window behind him, casting a glow on his dark hair and the way his shirt clung to his shoulders. I’d noticed him the second he walked into the ceremony earlier. Tall, easygoing, with eyes that crinkled when he smiled. But I never thought we’d end up here.
The room smelled like salt and coconut, like the beach outside, and the bed was covered in crisp white sheets. I sat on the edge, and he sat down next to me, leaving just enough space between us that I could still feel the heat of his body. Alam ko naman kung bakit siya nag-aalala. Kaya sinisiguro kung sigurado ba ako sa gagawin namin.
My legs felt wobbly, not just from the wine, but from the way he was looking at me– like I was the only person in the world.
The wine had softened the edges of my shyness, but I was still nervous, so nervous. I’d never done this before. Never been this close to a man I barely knew, in a room that felt so much like a secret.
“Trixie,” he said, turning to look at me. “Are you sure? It’s okay if you have changed your mind,” saad nito na medyo pabulong lang.
I looked up at him, and I saw it kindness, care, a question in his eyes that wasn’t just about physical things. Nakakalunod mapatitig sa mga mata niyang mapupungay, nangungusap at kumikinang. Hindi ako makapaniwala na kahit I'm willingly giving him my body, inaalala niya pa rin ang mangyayari bukas. Kung ibang lalake lang siya, kanina pa siya nagpakita ng motibo. Kanina niya pa ako sinunggaban noong umiinom kami sa pampang. But he didn't. He respects me.
“I’m just a bit nervous, Anton,” I admitted. “I’ve never done this before. Ang totoo niya'n, v-virgin pa ako.” Mahinang sagot ko.
He didn’t look surprised. He just reached my hand, his fingers lacing through mine.
“Hey,” he said, his voice soft. “We don’t have to do anything you don’t want to. Kung hindi mo naman talaga kaya, okay lang. We can just talk. Or sleep. Whatever makes you feel safe.” He said with a smile.
His words made my chest tight. Even with the wine in my system, I knew what I wanted. I wanted him. I wanted to stop being so careful, so afraid.
“Hindi,” I said, shaking my head. “I want this. I want you. But. . . can you be gentle? ‘Yong hindi sana ako mapapasigaw sa sakit. Alam mo na, we don't own the place. Baka marinig tayo sa labas,” dagdag ko.
He squeezed my hand. Sumilay ang pilyong ngiti sa mga labi. Napalapat ako ng labi. Gumapang ng init sa mukha ko.
“Always,” he said. “I’ll take care of you. I promise.”
Inabot niya ako na sumapo sa aking pisngi, marahang hinaplos ang pisngi ko gamit ang hinlalaki. Nagniningning ang kanyang mga mata. Nakakaakit ang mga iyon na mapupungay na nakatitig sa akin. Para akong yelong nalulusaw sa paraan ng pagtitig niya.
Napakapit ako sa dress ko. Dahan-dahan niyang inilapit ang mukha na ikinabilis ng t***k ng puso ko! Para akong mapapatalon sa sobrang kaba ko! Namigat ang paghinga ko kasabay nang pagsara ng mga mata ko nang tuluyang lumapat ang malambot at mainit niyang mga labi sa aking mga labi.
Napakapit ako sa batok niya. Ninanamnam ang masuyo niyang halik. Para akong hinahaplos sa puso sa uri ng halik niya. His lips touched mine softly, like a wave kissing the shore. His kiss was slow, full of care and I found myself melting into him, my free hand reaching up to cup his face. He pulled me closer, his arm wrapping around my waist, and I felt a warmth spreading through my body that had nothing to do with the wine.
Slowly, he began to undress me while we're kissing, first my dress, slipping the straps off my shoulders and letting it fall to the floor. Then my bra, his hands moving with care, as if I were a shell he didn’t want to break. When I was down to my underwear, he pulled away to look at me, his eyes dark with desire but still soft with care.
“You’re so beautiful, Trixie,” he said, his voice low. “Napakaganda mo. Ano'ng nagawa kong maganda sa tanang buhay ko para. . . maging karapat dapat angkinin ang isang katulad mo?” paanas niya.
I blushed, looking away. “Thank you.”
“Hey,” he said, lifting my chin with his finger. “Don’t hide from me. Let me see you. Let me show you how good it can feel.”
He kissed me again, his lips moving down my neck, over my collarbone, down to my chest. His touch was light, teasing, and I gasped as a spark of pleasure shot through me. He took his time, exploring every inch of my skin, pausing to ask if I was okay, if I wanted more. Every ‘yes’ I whispered made him smile, made him hold me tighter.
When he reached my thighs, I tangled my fingers in his hair, my breathing getting faster. He looked up at me, his eyes asking for permission, and I nodded.
“Go ahead,” I whispered. “Please.”
He obliged, his mouth moving in slow, circular motions that sent waves of pleasure washing over me. I’d never felt anything like it– intense, overwhelming, like the tide pulling me under in the best way possible. I arched my back, moaning his name, and he held me steady, his hands working their magic. Nakikiliti ako sa tuwing humahagod ang mainit niyang labi at dila sa aking kaselanan pero– napakasarap niya sa pakiramdam. Na hindi ko mapigilang mapaungol at liyad sa kanyang ginagawa.
“Oh, God! This is so good! Ohh, A-anton, make me c*m, please?” I moaned as if I'm begging for more.
Hindi niya ako binigo. Mas pinag-igihan ang ginagawa sa p********e ko habang nakaupo ako sa gilid ng kama at nakaluhod naman siya sa harapan ko. My legs are open widely. Nakaangat ang isa sa kanyang balikat. Nakahawak siya sa baywang ko at wakang pandidiring dinidilahan, sinisipsip at hinahalikan ang private part ko.
“Ooh, that's it, babe– c'mon, I'm near.”
As the pleasure built, I felt myself getting closer and closer to the edge. Just when I thought I couldn’t take anymore, I shattered, my body trembling in his arms. He held me through it, whispering words of comfort in my ear, kissing my forehead.
“Okay ka lang?” he asked, his voice soft.
I nodded, still catching my breath. “Oo,” I said, smiling. “That was amazing. I’ve never felt like that before.” Naghahabol hiningang sagot ko na ngumiti sa kanya.
He kissed me again, his lips gentle against mine. “Good,” he said. “That’s just the beginning.”
He stood up then, undressing quickly, and I watched him, my heart ia beating so fast! He was strong, lean, with scars on his arms that told stories I wanted to hear. He climbed onto the bed next to me, pulling me into his arms, and I wrapped my legs around him.
“Are you ready?” he asked, his voice low.
“Oo,” I said, taking a deep breath. “I’m ready.”
He entered me then, slowly, carefully, and I felt a sharp pain– brief, but intense. He stopped immediately, looking down at me with worry in his eyes. “Okay ka lang? Do you want me to stop?” He asked me again.
“Hindi,” I said, shaking my head. “It’s okay. Just. . . go slow. Dahan-dahan lang ha? Malaki ‘yang ano mo e.”
Mahina siyang natawa na tumango. He did what I said, moving at a pace that let me adjust, that let the pain fade into something else, something deep, powerful, all-consuming. He held me close, his lips against my ear, whispering words of love and praise that made my heart swell. I felt connected to him in a way I’d never felt with anyone else– as if we’d known each other forever, not just one day.
“Ooh fvck! You're so tight, babe–uhm!”
“Aah! It hurts but it's okay, sige pa, babe. I can bear the pain.” Naghahabol hiningang anas ko.
Napayakap ako sa kanya nang tuluyan na siyang sumagad sa loob ko! Damang-dama ko ang kirot sa aking p********e na tuluyan na niyang nawasak. Napaungol naman ito na sumubsob sa leeg ko. Mabibigat ang kanyang paghinga.
“Damn, it feels like heaven.” He moaned.
Nanatili kaming gano'n sa ilang segundo, until my walls ready for him. Nag-angat siya ng mukha, tinitigan niya ako. May ngiti sa mga labi at nagniningning ang mga mata.
“Thank you, Trix. Thank you. . . for making me the happiest man tonight.” He whispered and showered me with kisses.
Sinalubong ko ang kanyang mga mata. Walang pagsisising nadarama na ipinagkaloob ko sa kanya ang sarili ko. Ewan ko pero– ibang-iba ang dating ni Anton sa puso ko. Na parang. . . na parang may puwang na siya doon. Bagay na ipinagtataka ko dahil hindi naman ako easy to get na babae. Pero pagdating sa kanya, kusa akong lumalambot.
“I'm happy to hear that. Let's enjoy the night, Anton. I want you to make this night, extra memorable. Na hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan kahit saan ako magpunta. I want you to make me crave for you every night.” Mga salitang kusang lumabas sa bibig ko that makes him smile.
“A’right, babe. As you wish, sisiguraduhin kong. . . hahanap-hanapin mo ako after this,” pilyong bulong niya na nakurot ko.
Natawa ito na inabot ang aking mga labi. Pinag-intertwined ang palad namin na dinala sa ulunan ko at nagsimulang igalaw ang balakang. My lips parted. Parang malulunod sa sarap at kiliting nadarama ko nang magsimula siyang umulos. Dahan-dahan lang kaya damang-dama ko kung paano nahuhugot at bumabaon ang kanyang matabang sandata sa aking lagusan!
“Oohh– Anton, you're so good! Uhm! Sige pa, angkinin mo ako. Own me like there's no tomorrow, babe–oohh!”
“Fvck!”
Napakapit ang isang kamay ko sa kobrekama. Iniangat niya naman ang isang hita ko sa kanyang baywang, mas dumiin, mas bumilis at agresibo ang paggalaw niya sa ibabaw ko, na tila wala ng bukas!
Hindi ko mapigilang mapahiyaw sa sobrang sarap! Ni hindi ko na naiisip na baka may makarinig sa amin mula sa labas. Pabaling-baling ako ng ulo. Mas nakapag-adjust na rin ang lagusan ko kaya hindi na iyon masakit kundi– masarap na. Sobrang sarap!
“Ooh! I'm near, Anton! Ooh!”
“Let's c*m together, babe. Wait for me, I'm near too,” he huskily whispered.
Mas bumilis pa nga ang bawat pag-ulos niya. Hanggang tuluyan kaming sumabog na ikinaungol naming napayakap sa isa't-isa! Damang-dama ko ang mainit niyang semilya na pumuno sa loob ko, nakakakiliti pero– ang sarap niyang damhin.
When it was over, he held me close, his chest rising and falling against mine. We lay there in silence for a while, listening to the waves, our hearts beating as one. I could feel his breath on my hair, his hand tracing circles on my back, and I felt safe, safer than I’d ever felt.
“Trixie,” he said, breaking the silence. “That was more than I expected. Hindi ako makapaniwala na nangyari ito–na ikaw at ako heto, pinagsaluhan ang langit sa piling ng isa't-isa. Napakasaya kong ako ang una mo.”
I looked up at him, smiling. “Me too,” I said. “I never thought I’d do something like this. With someone I just met.”
He kissed my forehead. “Sometimes the best things happen when you least expect them,” he said. “Minsan, ang dagat lang ang nagdedesisyon kung saan tayo pupunta. Hwag mong kalabanin ang alon niya, bagkus– sabayan mo ang agos niya. Let it lead you to your destiny.” Aniya.
Hindi na ako sumagot. Biglang inantok ako at dama ang pagod sa buong maghapon. Nagsimiksik ako sa kanyang dibdib. Niyakap naman niya ako. Hinila ang kumot na ibinalot sa hubad naming katawan.
“Are you tired?” he asked me.
“Uhm,” tanging ungol kong tugon. He kissed me ln my forehead again.
“A’right, babe. Go to sleep. Ako na ang maglilinis sa'yo,” malambing niyang bulong na maingat bumangon at nagtungo sa banyo.
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