Things She Didn't Know

Chapter 4- If There's Hope, There's Possibilities

Kyle POV-

Releasing a deep sigh, Jax lays our snout down on our front paws. Our view here is amazing. He closes our eyes as he takes in the smell of the salty ocean air. It calms my wolf's inner restlessness. Has since we were a little pup. There's just something about the feel of the breeze bristling through our fur while we listen to the birds chip flying over head.

The sun is starting to set. Jax knows this before even opening his eyes. We can tell by the deeping of the chill in the air and the quickening of the crashing waves that begin to move in faster, smashing against the jagged rocks below. It's like a lullaby that soothes our soul.

We could lay here for hours watching and listening. To say we felt content here wouldn't fully describe the connection we seem to have to this place.

Jax opens our eyes and sits back up, on looking the sun as it starts to disappear beneath the sea..

I was 6 when my father first brought me on my first hike up the peak side. I had wanted to go with him for as long as I could remember watching him walk into the woods line alone..

Flash back-

"Papa take Kye-kye wif-you?!" I can hear my four year old voice say in my memories..

My father's deep voice follows..

" Not today, my boy, but one day, you and I will walk side by side through the our packs mountain side." He placed a warm, gentle hand on the side of my face. "An alpha needs to learn his lands to provide for his people, but not before he's ready. When the time is right." I remember him saying before pulling my shoulder forward, bringing me into one of his hugs.

"Papa Kye-Kye can walk wheellly fast, I'll always stay by Papas Side." My little voice could only be heard by him, as I nuzzled my nose in closer to his neck, soaking up his scent and the love in his hug.

End of Flashback-

I'll never forget. His voice, scent, but more so his love. He had been forever imprinted in to my soul. I felt the tear drip from my cheek as we closed our eyes, bringing our head down. In that moment, sending out a small prayer to our Goddess. One that in my heart, I hope she can forfill.

" I miss you, Dad." I share my thoughts with Jax. He follows my lead, lifting our snout, letting out a sorrowful howl towards the now stary filled night sky.

Without wasting another moment, Jax is on all fours a fires off, heading down the peak into the thickened trees. Gary had tried to reach out through the mind link a few times, but I kept him shut out. Sometimes, you need to take time for yourself. Just to let your mind catch up with the world around you. That's something the Alpha, my Alpha and my braze father had said before me. "We can't be the leader our pack needs us to be if we can't be there for ourselves from time to time. When our emotions threaten to lead us, we must make the hard choice. We either allow them to rule us, or we take the time needed to release them." The distant advice replays in my mind.

Over the years, even through my stubbornness, I have followed that advice.

" Beta, links open. Satus report." I send through the link while Jax jumps over fallen branches and zigzags through trees. "Jax, come on bud, there's a path for a reason." I remind him.

"Where would the fun be in that?!" Jax he says before he leaps past the last line of trees before the clearing.

"Alpha, we have company, and you may wanna make sure you toss some clothes on before you join us." Gary comes through the link. Heading into the cabin my father built, I grab the first set on jeans I see from the floor. Swinging my bedroom door open, I made my to the dresser my mother had hand stained for me as a pup. Grabbing a white tee from my top drawer, I send Gary a link back. " Who could possibly be here at this time in the evening without an invite?"

he responds with a chuckle before he adds "just hurry up".

"f*****g wonderful." Comes from Jax, his annoyance matchung mine as we head back out the front door. Pushing the door open, it hits me hard. My body goes tense and I stop feeling my heart now beating in over drive.

Honeysuckle and Chocolate Chips.. a grow creeps from my lips as I take in a deep breath. Serving it's purpose the sent works to calm me, but Jax doesn't miss a best. He starts to claw at my minds walls. Pacing back and forth, digging his rear claws in as he goes. I gritt my teeth for a few seconds trying to let him regain control over himself. I couldn't tell if he wanted out or if he wanted me to be aware that he's front and center for this. "Jax, good goddess! Do you mind!? That s**t hurts!" He doesn't respond but does go still. I can still feel him, watching through my eyes as I start to make my way to the packhouse. Rubbing my temples as I go.

" Safe to assume Jax thinks he has a pretty good idea of who's here sense youre taking your sweet ass time Kyle?" I dont respond as my wolf would love to remind him of our title. "It's not what you think, Kyle. She's not here. It's Patsy. She has something for you, so stop delaying and make your way over here." Gary says, feeling the sharp ping in my chest, I cut the link.

I don't know if this is disappointment, relief, or what exactly it is I'm feeling. I'm definitely not happy, my calm mood from earlier now, gone. Reaching the packhouse porch, I pause hearing Pasty. "How is he, Gary?" I slow my movements as Gary tells her I'm fine. The packs are doing well, things have been quite around here compared to other packs as of lately. "That's not what I mean. Don't beat around the push with me boy!" She seemed tense, I could smell something sour in the air. I knew that smell, fear.

"Has he been having dreams? Has he mentioned feeling the pull Gary?" Pasty rushes out in a hushed voice. As a witch, sometimes, it can be easy to forget about how good werewolves hearing can be. "I dont know Pasty. Goddess, it's not like he's an open book! You're gonna need to ask him that yourself." Gary dishes back in the same manner while giving her a very stern look, I had heard enough at this point. I already know where this is going. Where she's going with this. It pisses me off instantly.

"She just did, though, didn't she?" I interrupted, leaning on the screen door, startling Patsy, causing her to jump.

Relief instantly washing over her face, but her cheeks turning red. "Alpha! There you are. I was starting to feel hurt thinking you may not want to see me." She says with a smile on her face that doesn't quite meet her eyes. "Patsy." acknowledging her with a nod I shift from one side of the doorway to the other. She looks between Gary and I for a moment before continuing. "But then again, can't blame a girl for assuming she's being avoided, ya know. Seeing as you never return a phone call these days and emails." she laughs awkwardly, " I think it's safe to assume mine would don't make it pass your spam." Now looking directly at me thete is no doubt its hurt and fear Im smelling. Removing her heated stare, she clears her throat, but I cut her off before she starts again, "Patsy, It's late. What can I do for you at this hour?" I know im coming off impatient, but honestly, im also trying really hard not to be a complete asshole here. Watching her, she takes a few steps towards the dining room coffee table, picking up a folder I hadnt noticed before. She turns back to me. " Like I said. You don't return calls or emails. Kinda left me no choice but to show up here with my frustratios Alpha" Walking to the screen door, she pushes it open, waiting just a moment before noticing my lack of entry then steps outside into the chill of the night Slowly shaking her head she makes her way tswaying her hips back and forth to the side railing over looking the dark grounds. Taking in a breath of air, she lifts her gaze to the night sky blanketed in stars and let's out a small laugh. "Alphas" She says shaking her head again. "Why does it seem like intimidation and stubborness come so easy for you all?" Looking at me now with a slight side smile. Jax sneers in my mind as if it's an insult. "She's clearly being disrespectful to an Alpha!!" He growls out to me. He's never had the patience for small talk.

Pasty notices the pause, looking into my eyes she can clearly understand her mistake. dropping her smile. " I apologize, no disrespect intended Alpha Kyle. I meant no harm Alpha Jax.." Smart girl, catching on so quickly. She takes a steps back resting her open hand on the railing and hugging the folder to her chest with the other. She looks toards the clearing, shaking her head again, releasing a breath of hesitation before looking back at me. "I'm only here to bring you information." She adds as she brings her head down for a moment. She seems to be fighting with herself. She completely has my attention at this point, I c**k my head to the side crossing my arms before me squinting my eyes just a bit. Without looking up she begins, "I think you need to know... perhaps, maybe should have already known.." She pauses looking back up towards me again. She closed her eyes for a brief moment, when she opens them I see fear. I sense my Beta walking closer to the screen door behind me behind me.

" I didn't share this with you from the start for what then, I felt..." She let's out a deep sigh." I, I still feel, was a very good reason, Alpha." she rushes out."I kept it to myself because I needed to be sure.." At that heart skips a beat, then starts to hammer in my chest.. I push off from the door frame a bit, taking a more grounded stance. I can feel Jax growing more and more irritated. Whatever it is that she has been keeping from me, us.. I have a feeling, won't end well. With her mouth slightly opening and closing on instinct, she takes another step back from me. Sliding her hand up from the railing back to her, now clutching the folder to her chest. My eyes followed her moment closely, becoming more intrigued with the folder, wondering what could be so important in there? Patsy, meeting my eyes with hers swallowed hard. "Please understand, I needed to be sure. I had my suspension, but that didn't make them truth, Alpha. I didn't want to cause more pain or make things worse...I didn't want to add to the list of questions I knew you were already beating yourself up with." I can clearly hear the crackle in her voice. Hear the pain, I know she also feels but all if thats out of focus as Jax is sturring. Tightening my jaw and gripping both of my hands into fists, I shake my head in disbelief. I'm now growling as I try to reign my wolf in. The audacity of this whole conversation! All around this woman is fear, yet she has the balls to stand here acknowledging she kept something from me. Knowing exactly who's sent she carried with her when she arrived tonight. Feeling myself start to shake from vibrating growls radiating from my chest, I try so hard to hold Jax back but felt a snap as I was shoved back as my wolf came searing forward with a deep graveling vibration "Smart girl or brave girl!?" he sneered " No!" He grows lowly before growling out with peer digust." Incredibly stupid GIRL!!" I feel him releaseing our smothering aura directly at her. My eyes now at a full blue glow, showing Jax had completely taken control for the moment Patsy drops to her knees with a few tears sliding down her cheeks. Werewolves can't fight this kind of pressure, let alone a witch. ot being able to fight Jax's impeding anger. Gary, now, deciding it would be a good time to join us, squeaks the screen door open quickly stepping out, letting it slam behind him. Bringing himself to a stop next to me. Almost sidways between her and I. He puts his hands on my shoulders with a small nudge giving Jax a knowing look , pleading with him to calm down. Then calmly turns leaning his waist up against the railing crossing his arms in front of him "OK, look. Honestly, I like a good suspense movie just like the rest of the world, but Patsy spill it already." He says, watching her shake on her knees. He reaches out to help her up earning a grow from Jax. Gary again, giving us a knowing look, gets her to her feet, while helping to steady her continued "The Alpha here isn't going to hurt you.." he glaces at me. " But you're flirting with a dangerous line right now between him and his wolf." He states before resting against the railing again, this time putting both hands in his pockets. Feeling myself regain control, my eyes no longer glowing, I glace to my Beta only to feel my wolf start to surge again.."He's wearing a pretty f*****g smug look.." Jax grows at me. "I dont like the feel of this Kyle." he continued and I couldn't agree more, the cocky arrogance that is seeping from my beta right now tells me he knows more than he has been letting on. Gary catching on to our heatef glare, brings one arm up to rub his neck while looking back at Patsy as she clears her troat. Bringing my attention back to her. Her face beat red with tears still streaming she starts to speak in a shaky voice " I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have kept anything from you. Even looking back now, please know, if I had told you there wouldn't have been anything you could have done to change it." she took in a quick breath before adding. " She doesn't have her wolf, her wolf never came to her."

And there it is..

Her, Jamie. I felt the burning ache in my chest flare up like it has so many times over the years. Semi crippling, as it steals the air from my lungs. Tightening it's hold on me, making everything burn. This is too much. Everything is starting to spin as I lean forward grabbing the porch railing closing my eyes as I brace myself. Trying to focus on my breathing, praying for a breath that feels like might not ever come.

Her..

Honeysuckle and Chocolate.

The one who broke me. without so much as a word.

"My Mate.. "

My fists clench so tight I can feel my claws piercing into my palms letting out little warm droplets.

"Our Mate!!!" Jax ROARS from deep within!

Without warning, I feel my body start to burn, oh no! Clentching my hands into fists " Jax!" I try to get his attention to no avail.

"LIES!" Jax all but yells in my head. " Right then, I start to feel the forced shift. "Jax! NO!" I yell back at him! I feel myself start to hunch over without any control. Lightning pain seers throughout everyinch on me..I can faintly hear my Beta pleading with Patsy to go with him before it all goes dark..